I am so sorry, survival instinct is no joke, it's mostly the reason I am still here. Good luck, in whatever you decide.
Indeed. Hoping my strength of will prevails tonight. Thank you for the well wishes.
Much love to you too and may you find your peace
Thank you so much.
Hi, I survived partial hanging after blacking out due to survival instinct. I'm gonna try again very soon. And hopefully won't wake up
Anyway, safe travels!
I'm sorry to hear that; hoping that won't be the case for me. Thank you, and you as well.
Yeah, me too. I have really severe survival instincts (fwiw I'm severely autistic and have always been a ball of nerves that's on the constant verge of erupting into a panic attack). Sometimes I think the world is playing cruel tricks on me to keep me alive. I wish the rational part of me could tell my dumb lizard brain not to tweak the hell out.
We as humans will do anything in our power to survive. There's a reason we're at the top of the food chain.
This world is a cruel joke. I only resorted to partial hanging because I woke up from 3 night-night method attempts.
My only wish is to return with better spiritual insight. Maybe I can make things right.
I have not tried partial hanging but this is also my worry. I feel my survival instinct will be too strong and keep me alive. I'm sorry you are going through this.
There is a euphoric feeling when you start to understand how to make yourself fade from consciousness. Anything that happens beyond you fading to black is out of your control, but you are able to maximize your chances by perfecting the method. Thank you for the consolation.
Hanging of any sort hadn't been on my radar until a couple of nights ago when I watched a load of hanging videos.
I'm drawn more to full suspension hanging, once hanging there's simply no way out, it's going to be a guaranteed lights out without intervention from someone else.
Me neither. Went down a rabbit-hole on WPD. Partial hanging looks as peaceful as it feels (most of the time).
I can't get myself to commit to a FSH. Scared of permanently injuring my neck by doing something wrong. Can't CTB if I'm paralyzed.
Thankfully, I'm alone for the weekend. Roommate went out of town on business. No chance of intervention, and basically unlimited attempts.
Partial suspension is also my method and I'm considering attempting soon. Don't know if I'll manage to pull it off or not though
You will, with enough determination & preparation. Just make sure you use the right equipment, and extra sure that the knots don't slip.
Overcoming your conscious survival instincts (not the automatic SI that will happen in your sleep, convulsions etc.) simply requires working up the emotion & feeling the pain you're going through now.
As it stands now, I would rather die than live. So I just channel that energy into my attempt. It finally clicked after a few tries. You'll be able to do it. Good luck to you.
Update:
Looks like I'm going through with it tonight. Couldn't force myself to be in the present moment. Drove about 3 hours total for almost no reason. Wasted a couple hundred dollars. I'm tired of this.
I have a separate but related question:
what effect will a muscle relaxant have on my attempt(s)?
I have a completely sealed bottle of 500mg methocarbamol pills, which specifically stops muscle spasms, though I'm not sure if that would extend to convulsions. Would taking 2 or 3 of them give me a better chance of staying unconscious & limit my motion long enough to die? I also have a shitload of tramadol, though I don't know the dosage.
Looking forward to a response. Thank you all for the well wishes. It is nice to know that there's a community of people who understand the sheer amount of pain it requires to even reach this point. I am simply tired of losing & making wrong decisions. As long as I'm reborn from the start or have eternal peace & freedom from suffering, I'll be satisfied.
