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retstardeda$$hole

retstardeda$$hole

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Jul 21, 2026
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Sometimes its not so bad but when it is I contemplate suicide because the thought of living like this for the rest of my life is excruciatingly painful.

The thought of going through the feeling of having your brain scattered all over the place, forgetting everything constantly. Postponing tasks in a day is overhwhelming. Let alone having to go through this the rest of your life.
 
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hughmun9

hughmun9

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Feb 22, 2023
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It's a major part of my reason.
 
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Dolphin(Ash)

Dolphin(Ash)

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Jul 14, 2026
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I thinks that's valid to feel that way for sure, I'm an ADHD(combined type) person and autism, and yea my head feels like a super computer sorting algorithms that's completely out of order.

It's overwhelming, it's scattered, it's hard to feel emotions in a digestible way. Hope this helps :)
 
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hdead

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Jun 2, 2026
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I thinks that's valid to feel that way for sure, I'm an ADHD(combined type) person and autism, and yea my head feels like a super computer sorting algorithms that's completely out of order.

It's overwhelming, it's scattered, it's hard to feel emotions in a digestible way. Hope this helps :)
Agreed. Having this type of brain before the internet-age could have been useful. Now it's just a jet-plane with unlimited fuel without wings or a flight-computer. Yeah, nah.
 
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Dolphin(Ash)

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Jul 14, 2026
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Agreed. Having this type of brain before the internet-age could have been useful. Now it's just a jet-plane with unlimited fuel without wings or a flight-computer. Yeah, nah.
LMAO, IM SO SORRY, unlimited jet fuel without wings or flight is quite funny.

Jokes aside you're right, and the corporate workflow/industrial workflow, drug access, internet and game access, it's not well suited for that I'd say, I agree with you.
 
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hdead

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Jun 2, 2026
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LMAO, IM SO SORRY, unlimited jet fuel without wings or flight is quite funny.

Jokes aside you're right, and the corporate workflow/industrial workflow, drug access, internet and game access, it's not well suited for that I'd say, I agree with you.
Haha no worries, glad I could facilitate some laughter still! 🤣
 
SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Paragon
May 28, 2024
973
You can wish to die for any reason. When I'm in an advanced state of sleep deprivation, or when I'm in migraine postdrome, I wish to die when I'm forced to talk to people. It's neural activity, the reason doesn't have to be good enough, and it shouldn't have stigma attached to it.

I also wish to die when I go to work. Not because work is terrible but because of what I am forced to miss as a result. Is this all that life is?
 
UserFromNowhere

UserFromNowhere

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May 4, 2025
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I thinks that's valid to feel that way for sure, I'm an ADHD(combined type) person and autism, and yea my head feels like a super computer sorting algorithms that's completely out of order.

It's overwhelming, it's scattered, it's hard to feel emotions in a digestible way. Hope this helps :)
Felt. The AuDHD combo is a mess, one I know all too well. Can't ever concentrate on anything because the mind never "locks in" like other people. It can't tune out other senses and just focus on reading or listening to music or anything like that, it has to constantly be using all the senses and if one deviates from that controlled environment, or at least an environment one is used to, it spirals out of control. At least, in my experience.
 
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EDDIESTERS

eddie
Dec 22, 2025
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if something stresses you out enough, you couud be suicidal for any reason.
 

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