Can you remember the time you were happy(or at least somewhat ok)?

[Bct]

Similar with me. I was able to cry easily in the past, but now I couldn't get any single tears out except by yawning.

Currently I'm in my hometown so there is a feeling of nostalgia when I felt better months ago. It's really sad to see life shifts really fast.

 

[Krash1990]

Yep, only 3 months ago I had everything I wanted. My worry is I'll never be happy again but I'm hopeful so I'm choosing not to ctb.
You're right fantasising about fucking off from this planet makes me feel better, but I don't want to fantasise forever...I want peace in life.

I feel selfish wanting independence, a good job, peace, happiness, my own family, a husband who would be a best friend, soul mate, partner for life.
I can't trust anyone though, as soon as you get too close to someone they ruin your happiness!
If you're not fulfilling their needs to a certain extent people leave and that makes me think no one (man) wants to be happy.
I definitely have a co-dependency problem, I have no friends really because I base happiness around love and a relationship.
I wish I could just spend every day, every second with someone I love, it's weird but that's how I think I'll be truly happy...

The funny thing is that I'm a man that wants exactly that.

Instead I got that illusion for 4 years and then was cheated on and had my family destroyed.

 

[raindrops]

The funny thing is that I'm a man that wants exactly that.

Instead I got that illusion for 4 years and then was cheated on and had my family destroyed.

why do they do it... because they think the grass is greener somewhere else! I wish happiness on everyone though, even the cheaters!
it breaks my heart, I'm sorry to hear it affected your family. If you have children I think you're lucky at least you still have family.

I was with someone for 11 years, I come home from work, I was so happy thinking yay I'm going home to the love of my life, turned the door handle and all of his stuff was gone...he didn't speak to me for a month after speaking everyday for 11 years.
I am so heartbroken.

 

[RepressedMind]

2-3 months ago it felt like things might have been okay, before that I cannot even remember a proper time when I felt like things were okay, at least for more than a day, because I usually don't even get that much

 

[Krash1990]

why do they do it... because they think the grass is greener somewhere else! I wish happiness on everyone though, even the cheaters!
it breaks my heart, I'm sorry to hear it affected your family. If you have children I think you're lucky at least you still have family.

I was with someone for 11 years, I come home from work, I was so happy thinking yay I'm going home to the love of my life, turned the door handle and all of his stuff was gone...he didn't speak to me for a month after speaking everyday for 11 years.
I am so heartbroken.

I'm sooo sorry to hear that. Losing a best friend and partner is so hard.

And yes the greener grass syndrome is real.
Unfortunately, I don't see having children as a plus here. I have two from my previous marriage of almost a decade(that ended with her cheating as well fml) and she totally ruined them.

This one will be no different. She can't raise these babies on her own and has no real parenting skills to speak of sadly.

After being a good husband and father I'll be stuck watching my kids suffer through life every other weekend through no real fault of my own.

It's a paralyzing realization.

 

[AwokenToReality]

I've been thinking about this question a lot lately. I used to think I was happy, but over the past few months I've pretty much realized that it was all a lie that I myself didn't see, and I was playing a character so to say. I truly cannot remember a time I've actually been at a happy place in my life.

 

[KibblesNBits]

I've always been somewhat depressed but I would do anything to be 18 again. There was still time to fix things and I was too stupid to see it at the time. I don't hate life in general. I hate my own life and myself. I can't accept how things have turned out and can't get the images of what could have/should have been out of my head. At this point, a terminal illness would be preferable as at least the choice would be out of my hands.

 

[Klee]

I don't think I've ever been truly happy, but I do have the occasional happy day or two. It's puzzling because, on a happy day, I can't work out why I can't recreate that feeling every day. But on all the other low days, I can't convince myself that I will ever have a happy day again.

 

[Fedrea]

I was either happy or at least enjoying a lot of life all the way up until I was 34. In some ways I feel lucky to at least not have had depression until that point, and in other ways the contrast is so completely horrendous. This is not a worthless world so much as we are very very susceptible to luck sometimes. I suppose with many people the bad luck hits early in their upbringing And that maybe when depression is more lifelong or from adolescence. I was pretty lucky with my upbringing but extremely unlucky with physical health and then repeated traumatic events in my 30s

Funny old world.

 

[Alec]

It's not even that I can't remember it, it's that I never had it.

 

[mediocre]

I've never been happy. But a few years ago I felt physically ok and often wish I could feel like that again.

 

[TheRaul95]

Few years ago, since then like walking shadow...

 

[TheSkyIsBlue]

Yes. Last year, for two days.

 

[Walilamdzi]

2015