hopelessgirl
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- Oct 12, 2021
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So, this is the last thing holding me back.
I know that one falls unconscious after about 10-15 minutes. It's just that I'm worried about the pain before that. I don't really care about heart palpitations. That is fine. I am talking about the literal burning pain in the stomach. I'm worried about it, because I just recently had some pretty severe burning kidney pain, and it just made me not want to kill myself with SN. My N is still in the warehouse with Ups since before Christmas so I guess I'll never receive it or I would be really lucky (I live in Scandinavia). I also got some food poisoning before Christmas and it just made me not want to feel sick from SN and feel nauseaous and puke and all that.
I guess I'm just weak right?
I might just be a pussy for preferring N before SN, or maybe it's a good thing that this pain thing is holding me back a bit, because then I have to really brace myself and be ready before I do it.
People who are considering SN, what are your thoughts on the pain from SN?
Also, sorry this is not supposed to be fear spreading. I'm just trying to understand how I'm going to face the pain. Somebody told me I should remember that a natural death may also be painful, and I find some comfort in that. I guess I'm just trying to prepare as best as I can, and I thought hearing your thoughts on it might help.
I've read almost every post there is on here about the pain rate from SN and thoughts on it. Seems like it varies a lot.
I guess I just should be fine with 10 minutes of agony. I guess I'm also a bit sad for not having access to N.
Thanks for the vent anyways.
Edit; I have benzos, antacids and antiemetics. I just don't have meds against heart palpitations and I won't bother getting those cause I have no idea how I would.
I know that one falls unconscious after about 10-15 minutes. It's just that I'm worried about the pain before that. I don't really care about heart palpitations. That is fine. I am talking about the literal burning pain in the stomach. I'm worried about it, because I just recently had some pretty severe burning kidney pain, and it just made me not want to kill myself with SN. My N is still in the warehouse with Ups since before Christmas so I guess I'll never receive it or I would be really lucky (I live in Scandinavia). I also got some food poisoning before Christmas and it just made me not want to feel sick from SN and feel nauseaous and puke and all that.
I guess I'm just weak right?
I might just be a pussy for preferring N before SN, or maybe it's a good thing that this pain thing is holding me back a bit, because then I have to really brace myself and be ready before I do it.
People who are considering SN, what are your thoughts on the pain from SN?
Also, sorry this is not supposed to be fear spreading. I'm just trying to understand how I'm going to face the pain. Somebody told me I should remember that a natural death may also be painful, and I find some comfort in that. I guess I'm just trying to prepare as best as I can, and I thought hearing your thoughts on it might help.
I've read almost every post there is on here about the pain rate from SN and thoughts on it. Seems like it varies a lot.
I guess I just should be fine with 10 minutes of agony. I guess I'm also a bit sad for not having access to N.
Thanks for the vent anyways.
Edit; I have benzos, antacids and antiemetics. I just don't have meds against heart palpitations and I won't bother getting those cause I have no idea how I would.
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