Discussion Can the days leading to the final end be peaceful?

[markimobzzdeasui]

Or is it impossible when it comes to dying by suicide? I know there is nothing that can make me live this hell and I have no second thoughts about ctb. And for months I have contemplated about the peaceful final days in the sense that I could infact enjoy the final days. Does it even happen? I don't know why but I strongly feel that my final days would be full of hopelessness,trauma and depression to push me to finally have that courage to end it all.

 

[Grav]

It may bring a peace of mind knowing that the final chapter is closing.

 

[Crazy4u]

I won't enjoy my last days because I would worry about my success. I am not a lucky person.

 

[fatefulstillness]

I would love it if that was the case. It's definitely possible, but I know nothing can assure me how I will feel when facing death. I think all you can do is be as gentle as you can with yourself and hope for the best.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me I would only feel relaxed about dying if I had a peaceful and reliable way to exit. I have the fear of failure and this is what holds me back from ctb. If I could exit peacefully then I know I would be very relieved that the suffering is ending. I have never wanted to be alive and eternal nothingness is what I look forward to. I deserve a peaceful death, I do not want to spend my last days filled with dread.

 

[Depressed Cat]

The answer is in two parts as far as I know.

For those who are dying by assisted suicide or euthanasia, their final days are likely to be very peaceful, relieved, even happy (if that's possible). For they know their intolerable suffering is surely going to end once and for all, they are not doing anything illegal, their family and friends are all aware of and respect their decision, they have sorted out all their affairs, they will finally get to experience eternal peace, no one will intervene and "save" them etc.

For the rest of us who are unfortunately forced to CTB by our own means, the final days can be anything (depending on the person, survival instinct, method, likelihood of success, those being left behind etc. etc.) The feelings can vary from day to day and even from one moment to the next until the very last. Even then, the dreaded SI may kick in and cause one to miss the bus.

 

[Noctis]

I've only had one real, this-is-not-a-cry-for-help attempt. I had a schedule for the whole thing and knew what hour of what day I would do it. That morning was the best day of my life. I felt invincible, like I had finally won and life couldn't hurt me anymore. I was very calm and zen about the whole thing, and my anxiety had never been lower.

I've had other "attempts", but they were more an impulsive decision that I didn't follow through on, and they were not peaceful or good days.

 

[Death is beautiful]

The answer is in two parts as far as I know.

For those who are dying by assisted suicide or euthanasia, their final days are likely to be very peaceful, relieved, even happy (if that's possible). For they know their intolerable suffering is surely going to end once and for all, they are not doing anything illegal, their family and friends are all aware of and respect their decision, they have sorted out all their affairs, they will finally get to experience eternal peace, no one will intervene and "save" them etc.

For the rest of us who are unfortunately forced to CTB by our own means, the final days can be anything (depending on the person, survival instinct, method, likelihood of success, those being left behind etc. etc.) The feelings can vary from day to day and even from one moment to the next until the very last. Even then, the dreaded SI may kick in and cause one to miss the bus.

God, how shitty that the fucking government's doesn't give us the right to euthanasia, how unfair is this world

I won't enjoy my last days because I would worry about my success. I am not a lucky person.

I agree with you, in order to enjoy the last days, you must be sure that these are your last days,CTB can't always be successful

 

[Chiisai]

Or is it impossible when it comes to dying by suicide? I know there is nothing that can make me live this hell and I have no second thoughts about ctb. And for months I have contemplated about the peaceful final days in the sense that I could infact enjoy the final days. Does it even happen? I don't know why but I strongly feel that my final days would be full of hopelessness,trauma and depression to push me to finally have that courage to end it all.

I feel you and I want my final days to be peaceful and fulfilling too. However, how it turns out depends on the individual. My idea of my final day is to simply enjoy a sunset at a beach and have a beer and cigs; things I quit years ago because of my illness. That much makes me think I can already pass on the spot.