@Jean4 Still here... i've cried so much in the last 2 days I thought I would be dead from dehydration... that's a hard thing for a male of my generation to admit, but in this place I feel safe. I am past the point now, i am really just grieving for myself at this point. Getting it all out, making peace with death. My anxiety from the idea of being gone is a little less each day. Soon I will be ready.
If anyone who simply can not understand what pushes a person to this point ever reads anything i have written here.
I want to make it clear, this is not a cult, there is no "leader" and not once had anyone ever encouraged me to harm myself. I had a plan long before I found this site. If anything the people here gave me more time through their friendship these people have shown me more compassion than my family, my friends, and far more than any medical facility or doctor ever did.
@Jean4 I will say goodbye when the time comes, and I will make sure to say hi to Stan for you. Thank you for checking ib