Can anyone hear Frank Sinatra?

[Jean4]

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I listen to depressing songs online and think about my ex sometimes.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I am still fairly new to this forum so I don't know much about Stan but it is really nice seeing how liked he is here. It is nice that people still care and I bet he was awesome as a person.

Yes he contributed a lot to this forum about the SN Method. May he rest in peace

 

[Jean4]

This is so true right now

 

[Jean4]

The Impeachment vote is going on. We should be discussing it. :(

 

[Jean4]

 

[Jean4]

Morning. Trump was impeached. 5 more days until Christmas Eve.

 

[Jean4]

 

[realjunes]

I have not heard "Hurt" by Johnny Cash, but it is hauntingly beautiful.
Johnny sings "The Man in Black" to explain he wears black to recognize and bring attention to the plight of hurt, the afflicted, the disfavored, and hopeless. From what of Stan I feel like he was our "man in black" tending to us and bringing attention and care to the wounded among us.

 

[Jean4]

I have not heard "Hurt" by Johnny Cash, but it is hauntingly beautiful.
Johnny sings "The Man in Black" to explain he wears black to recognize and bring attention to the plight of hurt, the afflicted, the disfavored, and hopeless. From what of Stan I feel like he was our "man in black" tending to us and bringing attention and care to the wounded among us.

Thanks for those words. I needed them. Having another bad day.

 

[realjunes]

Jean4 - Nominated to be the official (or unofficial) DJ of SS.

Each song you post, I think, wow, that is one of my favorites, and you posted so many "favorites" I have to abandon the word and just soak it all in. You have chosen and posted the most beautiful and fitting songs I could imagine, in this tribute. I am in awe of you, Stan, and your musical remembrance.

JEAN4 FOR DJ !

 

[Squiddy]

I also vote Jean4 for DJ :)

 

[realjunes]

I also vote Jean4 for DJ :)

Thanks Squid. That is 2 to 0 votes.

 

[Jean4]

Jean4 - Nominated to be the official (or unofficial) DJ of SS.

Each song you post, I think, wow, that is one of my favorites, and you posted so many "favorites" I have to abandon the word and just soak it all in. You have chosen and posted the most beautiful and fitting songs I could imagine, in this tribute. I am in awe of you, Stan, and your musical remembrance.

JEAN4 FOR DJ !

I will accept it and will play happier music than the sad I miss Stan music. ;)

 

[realjunes]

I will accept it and will play happier music than the sad I miss Stan music. ;)

No, DJ Jean4 ! Don't audit yourself or your playlist, keep as you were doing, freewheeling, it was great!

 

[Jean4]

No, DJ Jean4 ! Don't audit yourself or your playlist, keep as you were doing, freewheeling, it was great!

I will continue to post my suicidal, I miss Stan music... unless I have a particular second that I am not in pain. ;)
Get into the holiday spirit

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

Morning. Trump was impeached. 5 more days until Christmas Eve.

 

[Jean4]

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Not if I can help it. ;)

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

 

[Jean4]

It's been 11 days. When does it get easier? Not that I'm counting every second that passes and I made it through.

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

Not if I can help it. ;)

Me too.. but my state is auto blue has been for decades.. I don't have anything against republicans . I even voted for a republican before. For me, this is about Trump being a total embarassment to this country. I feel like our entire government has turned into a bad reality show... what a waste of 4 years...

 

[Jean4]

Me too.. but my state is auto blue has been for decades.. I don't have anything against republicans . I even voted for a republican before. For me, this is about Trump being a total embarassment to this country. I feel like our entire government has turned into a bad reality show... what a waste of 4 years...

Trump already hates me. I wear that like a badge. I'm New York. No worries about not being blue.

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

It's been 11 days. When does it get easier? Not that I'm counting every second that passes and I made it through.

I have lost a lot of people i love in my life. I lost my mothet before I was even an adult, that one took me about 8 months before I could even start to feel normal. As i got older and lost more loved ones, it required less time and became, easier to be able to start functioning again. I lost my Dad October 21st 2019, and I am now past the shockamd deep grief.

This is the truth , at least as it applies to me.

 

[Jean4]

I have lost a lot of people i love in my life. I lost my mothet before I was even an adult, that one took me about 8 months before I could even start to feel normal. As i got older and lost more loved ones, it required less time and became, easier to be able to start functioning again. I lost my Dad October 21st 2019, and I am now past the shockamd deep grief.

This is the truth , at least as it applies to me.

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And the time of year doesn't help. Which is why I always say. If you are ready, you don't think about the holidays and the survivors left behind.

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

And the time of year doesn't help. Which is why I always say. If you are ready, you don't think about the holidays and the survivors left behind.

The Holidays are always the worst. There was a time I looked around a big table and saw the faces of all my loved ones. There was a time we needed 2 tables... now there are more empty chairs than full ones. Its just going through the motions now. I show up because I am expected to. But I dont want to be there, and I dont think the other 4 people do either. Yet no one will say it. I guess misery loves company... but for me, I would prefer to be alone.

Combine the Holidays with the short days and the winter weather ( at least in this part of the world ) and it just has all the makings of misery for those who are sick, or in pain, or grieving. I really wish I could just skip them... but for whatever reason I am always expected to say a few words before we all eat.. im normaly not short on words, but this last thanksgiving i mumbled out a few very generic sentences and broke down into tears... I really am thinking of calling in sick this christmas.

Trump already hates me. I wear that like a badge. I'm New York. No worries about not being blue.

My entire family is from New York, I was the first member of the family to be born in California. So I have this massive family back east. My father had 7 siblings and my my mother had 2. So all my aunts and uncles are still alive, and all their kids, and their kids kids... but... i could walk by them on the street and not even recognize them.

So my Family is my Sister, my Dog, my chickens, and my horses. The rest of the family that come to our holiday events are related to my sisters husband, and they are becoming fewer too...

At least even those alone and dealing with illness and depression have the support of this group, we all have each other... maybe no real names or faces, but we are all connected here. In Recovery, in Loss, im Sadness, and in Hope. We are all one major disfunctional family, and I love you guys... I have met a couple of people here , and read stories like yours that have truly helped me to be strong and keep my head up.

 

[Jean4]

The Holidays are always the worst. There was a time I looked around a big table and saw the faces of all my loved ones. There was a time we needed 2 tables... now there are more empty chairs than full ones. Its just going through the motions now. I show up because I am expected to. But I dont want to be there, and I dont think the other 4 people do either. Yet no one will say it. I guess misery loves company... but for me, I would prefer to be alone.

Combine the Holidays with the short days and the winter weather ( at least in this part of the world ) and it just has all the makings of misery for those who are sick, or in pain, or grieving. I really wish I could just skip them... but for whatever reason I am always expected to say a few words before we all eat.. im normaly not short on words, but this last thanksgiving i mumbled out a few very generic sentences and broke down into tears... I really am thinking of calling in sick this christmas.

My entire family is from New York, I was the first member of the family to be born in California. So I have this massive family back east. My father had 7 siblings and my my mother had 2. So all my aunts and uncles are still alive, and all their kids, and their kids kids... but... i could walk by them on the street and not even recognize them.

So my Family is my Sister, my Dog, my chickens, and my horses. The rest of the family that come to our holiday events are related to my sisters husband, and they are becoming fewer too...

At least we all have each other... maybe no real names or faces, but we are all commected here. In Recovery, in Loss, im Sadness, and in Hope. We are all one major disfunctional family, and I love you guys... I have met a couple of people here , and read stories like yours that have truly helped me to be strong and keep my head up.

And be sure to come here and celebrate with us. :)
I spend my days posting your legacy. Figured I would post it here too.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

I was doing ok for most of the day

 

[Jean4]

 

[SinisterKid]

 

[Jean4]

 

[Jean4]