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Latubmen
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- Nov 18, 2023
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I used to work in intellectually demanding field, but before working in that profession, I don't remember having depressive states. I remember thinking about ctb back in school once, but after starting of working in that field I've got clinical depression at least once.
Long story short, It's hard, I would say, impossible for me to handle work good enough because my cognitive abilities, mood and memory drop, I become pessimistic, not communicative, I would become afraid of losing job, being homeless, I would become very inefficient. This period usually starts in Autumn and finishes in beginning of Spring, the other time I would perform about acceptable. Also this work requires learning, and I don't like the work itself, I don't want to grow as a specialist and the work is too hard for me, I'm feeling not smart enough, and one of the important traits is that one doesn't work on something the same, most of the time it's something new and complicated.
I think about cbt everyday lately, but before doing that, maybe it has sense to try find a fitting job? Reasons for cbt is not only a job, but also my maladaptivity, laziness, lack of communication and will to communicate, no will to live and to strive for something.
To be honest, I can't imagine right now that it's possible to like some job for many years because I didn't have that experience.
I think maybe if I could get a simpler job where I would feel that I actually can accomplish it stably and it would not be too intelligently and mentally intense, i.e. some simple/repetitive job that can be done on autopilot even if stressed/depressed, than maybe I could become more mentally stable.
Did anyone change his life for better after changing job? Would be interesting to read some stories.
And what jobs could you advise for mentally unstable people?
Thanks in advance
Long story short, It's hard, I would say, impossible for me to handle work good enough because my cognitive abilities, mood and memory drop, I become pessimistic, not communicative, I would become afraid of losing job, being homeless, I would become very inefficient. This period usually starts in Autumn and finishes in beginning of Spring, the other time I would perform about acceptable. Also this work requires learning, and I don't like the work itself, I don't want to grow as a specialist and the work is too hard for me, I'm feeling not smart enough, and one of the important traits is that one doesn't work on something the same, most of the time it's something new and complicated.
I think about cbt everyday lately, but before doing that, maybe it has sense to try find a fitting job? Reasons for cbt is not only a job, but also my maladaptivity, laziness, lack of communication and will to communicate, no will to live and to strive for something.
To be honest, I can't imagine right now that it's possible to like some job for many years because I didn't have that experience.
I think maybe if I could get a simpler job where I would feel that I actually can accomplish it stably and it would not be too intelligently and mentally intense, i.e. some simple/repetitive job that can be done on autopilot even if stressed/depressed, than maybe I could become more mentally stable.
Did anyone change his life for better after changing job? Would be interesting to read some stories.
And what jobs could you advise for mentally unstable people?
Thanks in advance
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