Can a mother truly love her child if she tells them to kill themselves?

[Pryras]

I'm 27 years old and my mother has been saying this for years. When I was little she would tell me to die but continue to provide for me 100% which confused me. Did this person love me and was just mentally ill? Why take care of someone in all ways besides emotionally if you hate them?

To this day she says the same things when she's mad. I still hold a sliver of empathy towards her in case she's saying this as a mentally unwell individual but I'm not so sure anymore.

Makes me want to leave everything behind. If you don't have your family or any self love what's the point of going on?

 

[death_bed221]

She is probably mentally ill. Or maybe she knows how painful this life is so she wants you to kill urself so u don't feel any pain. If she provides for you, it means she cares for u

 

[L'absent]

Hi, thanks for sharing your story, I imagine it wasn't easy to do so. What you are experiencing is really heavy, and I want to tell you right away that no one deserves to hear certain things, much less by a mother. From what you say, it sounds like your mother has some emotional or mental difficulties that are affecting her behavior. This might explain why he sometimes sends you such mixed signals, but it doesn't justify the pain he has caused you. It's important to understand that it's not your fault that she behaves this way. You don't have to endure or resolve their difficulties at the expense of your mental health. A warm hug

 

[hereornot]

My mother tried to kill me before I turned 1 year old. The love she showed from then on is completely false, whatever her reason, I am unwanted.