Dearest Kal,
I don't really know what to say. I haven't known you for long - but during the short time I knew you, I realised that you are a really kind, compassionate and caring person - and efficient with an ability to reach out to others and join the dots of friendships together.
I have no right to ask you to change your mind - but selfishly, will be happy if you did. However you have to do what is best for you and Good Luck with whatever decision you make. Will be here if you want to chat anytime.
Thank you for your friendship. If you do decide to go, hope you find the peace that you are seeking and hope you know that there are people here who care about you and value your friendship simply because you are a calm and good person.
Best wishes, Dear Friend.