Bye.

[Challu]

CTB'd via SN/AE 6am on 6/1/23
Mods, if possible, don't delete my account.
I allow the usage of all my posts and the information I'm detailing about my ctb.

Using Stat guide.

Took 500mg of ibuprofen at 5:22 am

Took 30mg of AE (Domperidone) at 5:37am

Waiting to mix and drink SN near 6:22am

Currently 6:00 am.

-stomach rumbling from domperidone, maybe just from hunger..
-last "meal' was a bowl of cinnamon toast crush and milk 14hrs ago.
-last time I drank water was over 24hrs ago.

Praying to God atm. Asking for forgiveness.
I want to cry, because I feel very bad for leaving my family and disobeying God, but my heart and mind are so blank. I just want to finally be with the Lord.

-6:03 am. Will prepare SN drink in 15 minutes.

-will not disclose where I got SN as it may cause trouble for someone, AE was gotten through a website based in India. No prescription.

-I am afraid to give more detailed resources because I really don't want any extra guilt on my conscious right now. sorry to those of you seeking relief, I hope you understand that I'm not trying to gatekeep.

-6:08am.

-6:10am. Domperidone isn't doing anything bad to my stomach, occasional stomach twitch and rumbling. Also, Im hungry so..

-6:15am. Mixing SN now. I am 250lbs. So, I'm mixing 26.5 grams in 50ml of water.

-6:24.. fucking SI. Drinking this will kill me... I believe in Jesus, I believe in Jesus Christ as Lord. Forgive me God. Sorry to my family.

-6:27.. getting a little more courage. Haven't drunk it. Typing to calm myself. The fear of possibly ending up in Hell is very real to me right now. I don't have the best relationship with God. But I've believed on Jesus.. I hope that God permits me to be with Him.

-6:31. Drank it. God gave mercy on me. GOD have mercy.

-6:35. My heart is beating fast. Forming a headache.

Please pray for me, if you can. I just want to be with Jesus.

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It came out a bit chunky, but quickly dissolved after spinning it for 2 mins. (I forgot a spoon)

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Chose to park somewhere and do it in my car. Motel/hotel is recommended, but.. whaddya want from me.. I'm dead.






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Sn, ibuprofen, AE.
6:36. Signs of lightheadedness..

 

[leavingsoon99]

If you're really going through with it, I wish you a peaceful passage. If it doesn't work, don't feel bad... please. Love and peace to you.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[GasMonkey]

See you on the Other Side.

 

[sannoji]

i hope you find peace.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry that life brought you to this point! I wish you a pleasant journey, may you find peace and freedom on the other side, farewell and good luck!!

 

[AngelRosrom]

Good luck

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Bon voyage - I wish you the best

 

[MusicGuy]

Good luck, hope you meet with the lord and finally receive the peace you deserve

 

[pompompurin]

Farewell and godspeed

 

[Electronic Music]

Best of luck and much love. I really hope that it'll be peaceful in your last seconds and not anything near anxious for your sake. Love you a lot <3

 

[HAKMKS]

I hope you find peace

 

[urfavlatina]

I'll keep you in my prayers, I pray that the lord will have mercy on you. I know life is tough and that everyone is going through things in life and I truly understand, coming from a Christain myself, that you're scared and want mercy. I hope you make it to heaven and that one day we can meet on the other side. May God bless you and you may rest in peace now. Love you and good luck <3

 

[deomlez]

you are in my thoughts att.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best wishes.

 

[hellispink]

I am praying for you. I am sure God will be merciful. He is forgiving and loving. You are not alone. We are with you in the last minutes. I am wishing you a peaceful passing. May we meet soon.

 

[lastday6116]

I will catch you soon

 

[Vizzy]

Hope you find peace and safe travels

 

[Zaphkiel]

Thoughts and prayers.

 

[helplessufferer]

i hope it was peaceful

 

[LONE WOLF.]

I'm praying you've found the Peace you seek and surely deserve, God rest your soul

 

[Robineas]

I hope you found the peace you were looking for. God bless you if he exists.

 

[lagoona-a-go-go]

I'm sorry life brought you to this point. I hope you find peace, and I'll see you on the other side.

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[Letgo]

May the Lord keep you and give you peace. Praying for you.

 

[soft-flower345]

Goodbye

 

[20ClownRules]

>went through with CTB on 6/1/23

...Wishing you Farewell. You did great, and I hope that the mods don't delete this.
Because this is a fantastic testament to what some people do...
Though, they sadly go off of the site, since they went through with it...
Hopefully there's an exception, and that you can rest in peace, knowing this.

 

[Escapee]

My brother in Jesus. I know and believe Jesus will welcome you with open arms

I am ready and praying to join you in a few days. the only hope left for me is to be with Jesus in heaven.

 

[Valky]

I am sorry That this world could not keep you safe.

I hope your travels were as peaceful as possible. I will be praying for you.

Farewell <3

 

[Artictart]

If it works, rest well <3 I hope you find your peace