Story by broken brain , my broken brain

[azdertex1598]

i don't know from where i should start , because i can't think or remember very easely , and im not good at doing anything , i only want to remember the past , and if i did i feel like something was stolen from me , i realy want to express my suicidal thoughts but my brain can't do anything barely i can remember 1-2 second of my past ; i realise that even my beautiful thoughts of my past was just a lie , it was just a lie i realise i'm a dead person for years ago , didn't have any goals or dreams or motivations ....so it's all i can product with my brain right now , if there is someone who feel / felt like me please reply

 

[RepressedMind]

I cannot say that I am dealing through the same thing, but I feel that if I continue living I am going to reach to the same point as you. I have been dealing extensively with mental issues making me unable to recall certain moments and events of my life, unable to use my brain in the same way as before and at its extremes it felt like I was being turned into a vegetable, unable of doing anything. This has cause a lot of distress for me, being able to do something easily in the morning and then at night to be barely be able to pull it off. My personality and thoughts keep changing frequently and I just keep trying to keep myself within the path that I chose, which is to just die and not to do anything I would regret.

 

[azdertex1598]

I cannot say that I am dealing through the same thing, but I feel that if I continue living I am going to reach to the same point as you. I have been dealing extensively with mental issues making me unable to recall certain moments and events of my life, unable to use my brain in the same way as before and at its extremes it felt like I was being turned into a vegetable, unable of doing anything. This has cause a lot of distress for me, being able to do something easily in the morning and then at night to be barely be able to pull it off. My personality and thoughts keep changing frequently and I just keep trying to keep myself within the path that I chose, which is to just die and not to do anything I would regret.

for me now nothing is important , every thing is a bullshit like our food per ex we take some products from the nature + a dead tortured animal ( cannibalism ) and we eat it till we can continue living .. and that point of view just make me understand we are born die .

 

[RepressedMind]

for me now nothing is important , every thing is a bullshit like our food per ex we take some products from the nature + a dead tortured animal ( cannibalism ) and we eat it till we can continue living .. and that point of view just make me understand we are born die .

We are all going to die at some point, it just might be better for some(like me) to die a lot sooner. The world is a shit place and that sometimes makes me feel better that I would be leaving it.