I'm probably in the process of this, my sister told me a while back I seemed burned out - I guess I was being too obviously depressed. I feel like I've always been going downhill, but sometimes I'll find people who make my life better and then I'll do okay until I invariably botch things. I'm not sure if I'll recover since everyone who seems like they could help are far away and it can weigh on me how utterly unhelpful and useless I am. I can't help anyone, much less myself, as I currently am. People are what I end up going on for, maybe some small hope to meet them or just enjoying having them. If I got a pet that might make me want to do better for it, but I can't handle another life if I can barely live mine. I'm sorry you're dealing with feeling this way yourself. Best wishes whatever you decide to do.