Bucket list

[urgent]

I know many people here are younger. The pain I'm living with has become unbearable in the last 3 years. I have no quality of life. I'm in very severe pain that nothing touches anymore. I want nothing more than to exit immediately. I was just thinking so many of you are struggling for different reasons. I just hope most of you will find a way to do what you want to do in your life. I hope you all experience joy, make great memories, find friends or your person. I have had a lot to deal with but I did so much. I enjoyed so many things. I have been loved and loved deeply. Life seems harder for everyone today. I just hope you get to cross things off your bucket list like I did. I hope you find ways to love yourself and others. I hope you find comfort, love and happiness along the way. I know it's not easy.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i sent you another chat message. idk if you saw it.

you mean you've been suffering unbearable pain every day for 3 years. is it constant non-stop every second for how long 10 minutes , an hour , hours. do you get any relief even for what a few seconds , minutes , what intervals ?

to me another example that shows the brain and body are an a horrific extreme torture chamber.

it's also an extremely evil injustice they made every guaranteed painless method a crime, like Nembutal , sarco suicide pod, me paying someone to shoot me in the head with a gun , etc.

they do this knowing that many horrible things can happen and that pain can become unbearable.

and no one asked to be here in this hell prison

 

[Bishop]

May you find peace

 

[urgent]

i sent you another chat message. idk if you saw it.

you mean you've been suffering unbearable pain every day for 3 years. is it constant non-stop every second for how long 10 minutes , an hour , hours. do you get any relief even for what a few seconds , minutes , what intervals ?

to me another example shows the brain and body are a torture chamber.

it's also an extremely evil injustice they made every guaranteed painless method a crime, like Nembutal , sarco suicide pod, me paying someone to shoot me in the head with a gun , etc.

they do this knowing that many horrible things can happen and that pain can become unbearable.

and no one asked to be here.

Yes.Yes I honestly mean every second for the last 3 years. Only when I can sleep a bit with meds but I am still awaken by pain, severe insomnia, I even dream about pain and asking doctors to help me.

 

[cookji]

Yes.Yes I honestly mean every second for the last 3 years. Only when I can sleep a bit with meds but I am still awaken by pain, severe insomnia, I even dream about pain and asking doctors to help me.

I also have severe insomnia. Are there days when you can't even sleep for an hour?

 

[peacebenow]

I relate so much. Well said.