Discussion Bucket list before ctb

[maggineko]

Anyone else, please feel free to share too! Curious to see others' motivation for continuing to live.

I'm not actively planning to ctb any time soon, but I've been making "things to do before suicide" lists since I was 12 which if I complete all of and still remain unhappy, I'll just go ahead and ctb; and thought it would be nice to share some of the things I have. A little lengthy, sorry! It's just for fun!

• Piercings! Despite my low pain tol, I'm aspiring to be the coolest cat in the morgue. My dream piercing map below for anyone curious!
• Get tatted. I have lots of ideas. Might post sketches of my own.
• Pull up to a school reunion tatted and pierced
• Spending adult money on dumb stuff
• Trying more Chinese cigarettes
• Pierce the Veil concert
• Visit USA when it's safe again to visit my older brother
• Visit Guangzhou, Salzburg, Vienna, Prague, Berlin, Hongkong, London
• Try weed, buzzballs
• Visit a prison (unrealistic and optional: make a friend)
• All-nighter in a city
• Finally reach my goal weight lol
• Get a boyfriend or girlfriend! I'm not totally repulsive, so this shouldn't be impossible, right? The love I want exist because I exist, right? ^_^
• Get a 5 pack of noodles and just binge on that for a whole day
• Get a fursuit of my fursona! Just added this after being reminded!
• Go clubbing and go to ravessss
• Grow my hair down to my ass
• Hatsune Miku cosplay and concert!
• Relearn piano ♡
• Chainsmoke on a birthday
• Go to a casino for the first time
• Go out in full Lolita/j-fashion getup
• Get an mp3 player and officially breakup with Spotify
• Mayyyybe get married

That's all of it from the top of my head! Listing it out actually makes me a little more excited for life. I might be getting my brow piercing this Sunday too; just hope I don't get busted by my college prefects lol

 

[ScaredPossum]

Oooooo lovely bucket list- why prison tho :3

My bucket list:

• Run my own art booth at an event/con
• have one of my works in a gallery and invite my friends and partner to watch :D
• go to Anthrocon at least once in my life
• ODST cosplay >:0
• make a decent gouache painting (I'm a terrible painter and would love to change that :'D)
• have my own apartment and go no contact with my family
• Destroy Boys concert; sounds fun, and they're pretty local :3
• Join a kissing competition with my partner at a queer rave >//<
• make a vat of orange Jell-O and just feast on that for a month straight-
• have a Deathwing Knights/Votann 2000pt WH40K army
• have my own cupboard collection of homemade syrup/preserves jars
• bake homemade donuts
• Treat my partner to a high-end Italian restaurant <3
• get married maybe qwq

 

[maggineko]

Oooooo lovely bucket list- why prison tho :3

My bucket list:

• Run my own art booth at an event/con
• have one of my works in a gallery and invite my friends and partner to watch :D
• go to Anthrocon at least once in my life
• ODST cosplay >:0
• make a decent gouache painting (I'm a terrible painter and would love to change that :'D)
• have my own apartment and go no contact with my family
• Destroy Boys concert; sounds fun, and they're pretty local :3
• Join a kissing competition with my partner at a queer rave >//<
• make a vat of orange Jell-O and just feast on that for a month straight-
• have a Deathwing Knights/Votann 2000pt WH40K army
• have my own cupboard collection of homemade syrup/preserves jars
• bake homemade donuts
• Treat my partner to a high-end Italian restaurant <3
• get married maybe qwq

OMG Destroy Boys mentioned!!!!! I love their "I Threw Glass at My Friend's Eyes, and Now I'm on Probation"!!!!

Your bucket list reminded me a couple things I forgot to include!!! Like, speaking of anthrocon, I want a fursuit of my fursona Your bucket list seems so lively and fun, I hope you get to achieve all of these <3 I'm assuming ur US-based? Maybe we'll bump into each other during my visit, if it ever becomes possible for me σ(´・ε・｀*)!

As for why prison, I feel like there's a lot of interesting personalities in prison and I'd be willing to hop into a conversation with any of them granted that I'm talking to someone with a good head on their shoulders and of reasonably sound mind. I'm super interested in the perspectives of others but don't want to be clinical about it like Leonard's mom (Big Bang Theory, love that sitcom). Plus, I just love talking to people but am very shy irl.

 

[ScaredPossum]

YIPPEE, a fellow Destroy Boys enjoyer >:D My favs are "Drink," "Sweet Tooth", and "B.F.F."
Yeah, I'm in the US, so ig depending on the state you visit, you might crash into me, I suppose :3
As for the prison thing, that makes sense! lol

Your bucket list seems so lively and fun, I hope you get to achieve all of these <3

thanks! I hope your bucket list comes to fruition too <3
I'm a few years elapsed from a suicide attempt, and it's nice that I've at least grown healthy enough that I have a bucket list at all. It's nice having a list of things to remind me why I stay... alive lol.

I'm just curious- what's your fursona, mine's like a red panda/dog hybrid :3

 

[fluorescentpearl]

I used to have a bucket list of things I wanted to complete before suicide! Here's it, I'll put a mark next to the ones I completed

- go to a concert of my childhood fav band <3
- go to a fantasy / historical convention of sorts <3
- feel pretty for the first time in my life
- find true love, proper deep comfortable love (half)
- forgive myself for all the mistakes I've done in my past relationships
- visit France (half) and maybe see Versailles someday
- move back to Estonia <3
- try getting piercings <3
- visit the churches of Venice <3
- move in with my mother and live together for a while <3
- insult my stepfather to his face and make him know how much I hate him <3
- spend one day without constant anxiety
- go to a music festival
- go swimming at a beautiful beach side somewhere in Europe with the love of my life
- be proposed to <3 (which wasn't great actually)
- visit a volcano
- go to the opera or to view a theater play or ballet with someone I love
- see the beautiful buildings of Saint Petersburg
- enjoy the catacombs of Paris
- visit Portugal and Berlin <3

I've done many of them, thankfully, and I find myself not minding if I can't complete it anymore, the majority are silly indulgences to my history nerd side, and I adore classical music beyond reason, maybe in the next life I can be a violin for someone to play

 

[lastappleonearth]

Anyone else, please feel free to share too! Curious to see others' motivation for continuing to live.

I'm not actively planning to ctb any time soon, but I've been making "things to do before suicide" lists since I was 12 which if I complete all of and still remain unhappy, I'll just go ahead and ctb; and thought it would be nice to share some of the things I have. A little lengthy, sorry! It's just for fun!

• Piercings! Despite my low pain tol, I'm aspiring to be the coolest cat in the morgue. My dream piercing map below for anyone curious!
• Get tatted. I have lots of ideas. Might post sketches of my own.
• Pull up to a school reunion tatted and pierced
• Spending adult money on dumb stuff
• Trying more Chinese cigarettes
• Pierce the Veil concert
• Visit USA when it's safe again to visit my older brother
• Visit Guangzhou, Salzburg, Vienna, Prague, Berlin, Hongkong, London
• Try weed, buzzballs
• Visit a prison (unrealistic and optional: make a friend)
• All-nighter in a city
• Finally reach my goal weight lol
• Get a boyfriend or girlfriend! I'm not totally repulsive, so this shouldn't be impossible, right? The love I want exist because I exist, right? ^_^
• Get a 5 pack of noodles and just binge on that for a whole day
• Get a fursuit of my fursona! Just added this after being reminded!
• Go clubbing and go to ravessss
• Grow my hair down to my ass
• Hatsune Miku cosplay and concert!
• Relearn piano ♡
• Chainsmoke on a birthday
• Go to a casino for the first time
• Go out in full Lolita/j-fashion getup
• Get an mp3 player and officially breakup with Spotify
• Mayyyybe get married

That's all of it from the top of my head! Listing it out actually makes me a little more excited for life. I might be getting my brow piercing this Sunday too; just hope I don't get busted by my college prefects lol

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As an Austrian, prob best to not visit Salzburg and Vienna in summer. I'd say autumn or spring are ideal and there'll be less tourists.
I also wanna try Chinese cigarettes and I don't even smoke, but their packaging is just so cool. Mby I'd buy them just for their packaging, I've seen some very unique designs, and they're shiny too

 

[maggineko]

YIPPEE, a fellow Destroy Boys enjoyer >:D My favs are "Drink," "Sweet Tooth", and "B.F.F."
Yeah, I'm in the US, so ig depending on the state you visit, you might crash into me, I suppose :3
As for the prison thing, that makes sense! lol

thanks! I hope your bucket list comes to fruition too <3
I'm a few years elapsed from a suicide attempt, and it's nice that I've at least grown healthy enough that I have a bucket list at all. It's nice having a list of things to remind me why I stay... alive lol.

I'm just curious- what's your fursona, mine's like a red panda/dog hybrid :3

Ohh, I haven't heard of some of the songs you listed. I'll give it a listen for sure I'm glad you've made it this far since your last attempt! Wishing you more strength and love and sweetness to last you for the rest of your lifetime

Also, my fursona is a dorset horn ewe! Picked it specifically because it's one of the few breeds where the females are able to grow horns. Additionally, for wolf in sheep's clothing reference, religious sacrificial-lamb imagery, and the horns representing how I feel about myself compared to "other regular sheep with cute faces and the softest wool" ~ ♡

I used to have a bucket list of things I wanted to complete before suicide! Here's it, I'll put a mark next to the ones I completed

- go to a concert of my childhood fav band <3
- go to a fantasy / historical convention of sorts <3
- feel pretty for the first time in my life
- find true love, proper deep comfortable love (half)
- forgive myself for all the mistakes I've done in my past relationships
- visit France (half) and maybe see Versailles someday
- move back to Estonia <3
- try getting piercings <3
- visit the churches of Venice <3
- move in with my mother and live together for a while <3
- insult my stepfather to his face and make him know how much I hate him <3
- spend one day without constant anxiety
- go to a music festival
- go swimming at a beautiful beach side somewhere in Europe with the love of my life
- be proposed to <3 (which wasn't great actually)
- visit a volcano
- go to the opera or to view a theater play or ballet with someone I love
- see the beautiful buildings of Saint Petersburg
- enjoy the catacombs of Paris
- visit Portugal and Berlin <3

I've done many of them, thankfully, and I find myself not minding if I can't complete it anymore, the majority are silly indulgences to my history nerd side, and I adore classical music beyond reason, maybe in the next life I can be a violin for someone to play

You're amazing, and I'm honestly proud that you got to complete so many things you want to do, especially confronting your stepfather! I think it's sweet what you said about being a violin in the next life, it's a beautiful instrument. Also, I'm sorry your proposal wasn't that great. I'm not gunna pry for details, but there will always be love for you that's safe and comfortable and warm in some corner of the world.

As for feeling pretty, I know it's not much, but you have a very beautiful and wonderful soul. Did you know that butterflies have more colour receptors than humans do, and they'll see colours that we as humans will never get to see? I'm sure you have your own unique colour that the butterflies get to admire. You're real courageous and I hope you get to keep that courage going to choose life everyday and mark the world with your beauty

As an Austrian, prob best to not visit Salzburg and Vienna in summer. I'd say autumn or spring are ideal and there'll be less tourists.
I also wanna try Chinese cigarettes and I don't even smoke, but their packaging is just so cool. Mby I'd buy them just for their packaging, I've seen some very unique designs, and they're shiny too

Thank you for the tip!! I prefer cooler weather so your suggestions suit me perfectly. Salzburg is my #1 destination in my heart as my childhood favourite musical Sound of Music was filmed there.

If you do try smoking someday (please don't tho, lol), some Chinese cigarettes like fruity flavours would have a little marker on the filter of the cigarette. Bite it or dig into it with your fingernail to pop the capsule! That's where the flavour is. Collecting the boxes is a wonderful idea too. I collect cig boxes from my dear smoker friends.

 

[lastappleonearth]

Thank you for the tip!! I prefer cooler weather so your suggestions suit me perfectly. Salzburg is my #1 destination in my heart as my childhood favourite musical Sound of Music was filmed there.

If you do try smoking someday (please don't tho, lol), some Chinese cigarettes like fruity flavours would have a little marker on the filter of the cigarette. Bite it or dig into it with your fingernail to pop the capsule! That's where the flavour is. Collecting the boxes is a wonderful idea too. I collect cig boxes from my dear smoker friends.

Right, sound of music, I rlly need to watch that sometime. It's always a bit funny to me, that sound of music is the reason for a lot of ppl to visit Austria, but most Austrians have never heard of it. Anyway, Salzburg is very beautiful though for real, I guess from an outside perspective it'd genuinely seem like a fairytale town or sth similar.

Yeah I shouldn't try smoking, but thx for the tip. I'd just collect the boxes probably, cus they're stylish