Venting Britney spears was right guys this loneliness is killing me! (I fucking hate this)

[lohre2000s]

Throughout my whole life people were most kind to me. I don't hate humanity nor people. As a matter of fact, I crave social connection. I want to talk to people about what they like, what they dislike... what is important to them? What makes them dance,laugh,cry.... I love knowing more about people, I just do.

I hate being alone so much. I thought doing art would be enough to solve this, but it really isn't. There are times, such as right now, when I stare at the computer screen like a madman, scrutinizing every single pixel waiting and hoping to receive a message. I won't.
I downloaded Tinder, even though I already knew what would happen: 1 like per week and girls that don't even see the message I send them. This app is such bullshit...
I don't even necessarily want a girlfriend, I just wish I had someone to go to karaoke with and talk about art.

I hate this.

 

[iwkmsssb]

i also crave connection, but my depressions gotten to the point where i'm constantly isolating and pushing people away. i've lost trust in people because they always leave in the end but i also hate being alone. kinda contradicting, there's no winning lolll