tasmaka
Neutral good
- Feb 14, 2026
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Im currently 18, still in highschool, And ive been dealing with bullying my entire life from school, starting as young as 4.
When I was younger say elementary, I was constantly bullied by everyone around me, and no adults cared, listened, or helped despite being aware. Since i was atleast 5, getting constantly picked on, harassed, and physically harmed became a normal part of my daily routine going to school which hasnt ended.
Starting in elementary, all i could understand was, this is happening because of my race, because Im too weak, and theres nothing I could do, nobody can help me.
In middle school, this constant treatment led me to believe those who inflicted it on me were really friends, its just how boys act right, its just playful? So when I had gotten in a relationship with a girl who knew this about me, Its crazy to say but I was honestly used and wasn't respected as another person. The respect thing can kinda just be super clear in how, even though it was her to "start" our relationship, she would actively seek out other relationships and partners in front of me, knowing I wouldnt do anything.. little me got cucked
anyways point is bcuz of bullying, this stuff was just normalized and everyone around knew how I was, so definitely have gotten taken advantage of for being such a loser.
After middle school, all I knew was, It hardly gets better, the topics mature a bit, but Im still a pussy, and nobody will care.
Starting highschool, I actually made "friends" freshman year, but one semester in, it became clear nobody really was interested in me as a person but really just an extra person to seek validation from, not to do stuff friends would do. I had still gotten bullied alot, but its much less than before, rarely physical, small wins. Sophomore year, I made close connections with a few people, not anything too deep, but enough to get through the day not alone in every class. Going into junior year, and senior year nothing has changed , except more bullying has come back, and those friends I had are gone, or over me as a friend, people move on yk.
But I know everything is going to be over soon with graduation soon, these people will mean nothing to me, but honestly the treatment Ive received before just always comes back especially now. Alot of people seem to enjoy putting me down as a person, and out of knowing I wont do anything about it, and its made me skip alot of school since, why come?? Everyone here hates me, and if they dont, I kinda hate them for ignoring stuff right in there faces. Everyone in highschool preaches mental health, and suddenly everyone is an extremely strong advocate, but when someone like me has been around forever, its suddenly just "something that happens"? And forever Ive said my issues to people around me, my age and older, and adults, out of everyone ive ever gone to with the stuff happening, 0 have ever put a second thought into a word i have said. I could go on about how Ive been told numerous times "maybe if you said something" , "well how would I have known," , "it really isnt that serious/it builds character", but this story probably isnt new.
Online the concept, "bring bullying back" keeps catching my eye. The pros, "character building" , "some people just deserve it", and "it has unfortunately disappeared"… and the cons,… EVERYTHING???
(The pros are nonexistent and false btw, hope thats clear, just dont be an asshole)
Bullying is genuinely one of the major factors for my poor mental health, and since I had started getting bullied, I have dealt with anxiety, depression, and even the concept of suicide just because as a kid I really thought, "maybe I really do deserve it". (And honestly id like to say Ive done NOTHING like ever.. other than show up to school, genuinely mean this, because sometimes karma does exist yk. ) so the idea that bullying NEEDS to come back (*really "become more prominent) in order to improve society (SOMEHOWW) is genuinely idiotic.
"I support mental health and it needs to be talked about!"
Going to
"Bullying is needed because people just deserve it"
Makes noooo sense….
Anyways this could totally be me coping but whaateverr, im just bummed cuz ive been getting more people being asses to me for no reason other than put me down, especially when school years almost done in a few weeks, leave me alooonnee.. oh and same teachers and counselors who preach supporting students with issues as such not giving a fuck makes me mad like idc anymore if u care or not atp… just stooop lyinggg(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)
When I was younger say elementary, I was constantly bullied by everyone around me, and no adults cared, listened, or helped despite being aware. Since i was atleast 5, getting constantly picked on, harassed, and physically harmed became a normal part of my daily routine going to school which hasnt ended.
Starting in elementary, all i could understand was, this is happening because of my race, because Im too weak, and theres nothing I could do, nobody can help me.
In middle school, this constant treatment led me to believe those who inflicted it on me were really friends, its just how boys act right, its just playful? So when I had gotten in a relationship with a girl who knew this about me, Its crazy to say but I was honestly used and wasn't respected as another person. The respect thing can kinda just be super clear in how, even though it was her to "start" our relationship, she would actively seek out other relationships and partners in front of me, knowing I wouldnt do anything.. little me got cucked
anyways point is bcuz of bullying, this stuff was just normalized and everyone around knew how I was, so definitely have gotten taken advantage of for being such a loser.After middle school, all I knew was, It hardly gets better, the topics mature a bit, but Im still a pussy, and nobody will care.
Starting highschool, I actually made "friends" freshman year, but one semester in, it became clear nobody really was interested in me as a person but really just an extra person to seek validation from, not to do stuff friends would do. I had still gotten bullied alot, but its much less than before, rarely physical, small wins. Sophomore year, I made close connections with a few people, not anything too deep, but enough to get through the day not alone in every class. Going into junior year, and senior year nothing has changed , except more bullying has come back, and those friends I had are gone, or over me as a friend, people move on yk.
But I know everything is going to be over soon with graduation soon, these people will mean nothing to me, but honestly the treatment Ive received before just always comes back especially now. Alot of people seem to enjoy putting me down as a person, and out of knowing I wont do anything about it, and its made me skip alot of school since, why come?? Everyone here hates me, and if they dont, I kinda hate them for ignoring stuff right in there faces. Everyone in highschool preaches mental health, and suddenly everyone is an extremely strong advocate, but when someone like me has been around forever, its suddenly just "something that happens"? And forever Ive said my issues to people around me, my age and older, and adults, out of everyone ive ever gone to with the stuff happening, 0 have ever put a second thought into a word i have said. I could go on about how Ive been told numerous times "maybe if you said something" , "well how would I have known," , "it really isnt that serious/it builds character", but this story probably isnt new.
Online the concept, "bring bullying back" keeps catching my eye. The pros, "character building" , "some people just deserve it", and "it has unfortunately disappeared"… and the cons,… EVERYTHING???
(The pros are nonexistent and false btw, hope thats clear, just dont be an asshole)
Bullying is genuinely one of the major factors for my poor mental health, and since I had started getting bullied, I have dealt with anxiety, depression, and even the concept of suicide just because as a kid I really thought, "maybe I really do deserve it". (And honestly id like to say Ive done NOTHING like ever.. other than show up to school, genuinely mean this, because sometimes karma does exist yk. ) so the idea that bullying NEEDS to come back (*really "become more prominent) in order to improve society (SOMEHOWW) is genuinely idiotic.
"I support mental health and it needs to be talked about!"
Going to
"Bullying is needed because people just deserve it"
Makes noooo sense….
Anyways this could totally be me coping but whaateverr, im just bummed cuz ive been getting more people being asses to me for no reason other than put me down, especially when school years almost done in a few weeks, leave me alooonnee.. oh and same teachers and counselors who preach supporting students with issues as such not giving a fuck makes me mad like idc anymore if u care or not atp… just stooop lyinggg(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)
