drugs have fried my head. I can not function. I am in constant pain and I can't think straight. I've had enough. The de prescribed most of it. Now I am dead. It hurts and I can't think. At all. I am so screwed. So screwed. Why can't there be an off switch. Ctb should be easier. No trauma.
Minudah
Stupid
- Dec 3, 2018
- 1,356
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Minudah
Stupid
- Dec 3, 2018
- 1,356
Kratom is a non-addictive alternative to opiates that can actually be used to wean off them too. Its mental effects are minor and comparable to its closest relative, the coffee plant. I even used them instead of opiates after getting my wisdom teeth removed, did pretty well despite it being a blood thinner. I use it for chronic pain. It might be able to help you. Some say kratom works as an antidepressant for them too, but I don't know about that, it just feels like coffee to me.
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Minudah
Stupid
- Dec 3, 2018
- 1,356
That's not true, I've used it for a long time and mentioned so in my post. I've taken it months at a time and stopped cold turkey, it's about as addictive as apple sauce and less addictive than peanut butter (I've been addicted to peanut butter before). There's this reefer madness scare around kratom now which is no different from the anti-cannabis propaganda. People are using kratom to avoid and get off opiates, and that's scaring the drug companies who want an opiate epidemic.
Also I decided to test the whole "kratom is addictive" nonsense by giving people large doses for a week, who hadn't tried it before and never heard of it supposedly being addictive. I asked them how they felt after the week and if they wanted more, and none of them did.
There's nembutal, SN, carotid compression via ligature strangulation, and other painless methods. And helium or nitrogen bag, but I couldn't do those and someone who's brain-damaged would probably struggle with them too.
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Hope you are managing somehow @HelpPlease. I had come off of around 7.5mg or Diazepam over the course of last year, and it's been absolutely miserable, and I did it at around 10% cut every 60 days, and I am embarrassed to talk about all of the mental and physical symptoms from this. I was unwell even before this, but this had been horrid. I am extremely proud of myself of managing to lower it, but it is miserable to be stuck in a passive place and hope that my body and brain may end up working properly once again like they had it in the past.
I get confused about the whole "what is addictive or not". There's a difference in something being addictive and causing a few months worth of agony and something causing years of protracted miserable suffering while person doesn't even desire to take a substance anymore. Miserable protracted physiological suffering. I hate what my life had turned into.
DetachedDreamer97
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- Mar 17, 2018
- 1,402
I took antidepressant for 1 week, in my whole life. After that I faked taking them, best decision ever to the point it went noticed. But again I wouldnt take any ever again.
I'm miserable, yes, but its all me, the true myself, not some fake state.
I had exactly the same problems as you: my brain couldn't function, I couldn't focus nor think. It is crazy how AD messes up your brain, you can't realize it if you never took them for a while.
I'm miserable, yes, but its all me, the true myself, not some fake state.
I had exactly the same problems as you: my brain couldn't function, I couldn't focus nor think. It is crazy how AD messes up your brain, you can't realize it if you never took them for a while.
We're only work for them, they don't give a shit how you feel. They stuff you with pills and when you want to express how you truly feel they lock you up in a mental jail.
This medications have severe side effect and can take years until you got the right medication and quantity. But no thanks not for me, I stay natural, miserable but natural.
Believe me I know what that means, it's the worst. Find yourself a way out from there, nobody deserves that.
I'm in the same boat, but physically fucked as well. The only people that would put you out of your misery is exit international but you have to be terminal for that. Until then the dr.s will keep pumping you full of pills even if you just want out already. They have fucked up a lot of people. I think many of them should be locked up in solitary especially psychiatrists. I hate those assholes. They just make up diagnosises and then hand out really harmful shit like it's candy. I'm sorry and I feel your pain. I'm trying to figure out what the hell I'm gonna do too and it's hard.
Same for me medical doctors (the true doctors)I have alot of respect, but psychiatrist are for me fake scientists. Seriously what do they want in the end??? You open yourself for them tell them how you feel.
You depressed? They give you candys.
You want to ctb? They lock you up.
You feeling alright? Yeah they got you on the leash.
I had medical doctors who liked to play psychiatrists. It didn't go very well. One of them called himself an anxiety specialist. I left him feeling more anxious than ever.
Puddings
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- Feb 9, 2019
- 36
Excuse my ignorance but I'm not clued up on the drug scene, be it prescription or street drugs, at all. But obviously I know that the drugs can cause this feeling of your brain being fried and brain damage.
Are you in withdrawal and that is why you are feeling this way or is it always like this? Wont it ease over time ? Is there nothing you can do, like certain therapies and eating healthy and taking supplements and exercising that would possibly reduce your suffering and bring your brain to a calmer more coherent state? I mean will this damage last forever?
What ever you do, honestly hope you find relief.... One way or the other.
Are you in withdrawal and that is why you are feeling this way or is it always like this? Wont it ease over time ? Is there nothing you can do, like certain therapies and eating healthy and taking supplements and exercising that would possibly reduce your suffering and bring your brain to a calmer more coherent state? I mean will this damage last forever?
What ever you do, honestly hope you find relief.... One way or the other.
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I hear your pain @HelpPlease. I understand. It's not uncommon to feel like you do, as horrific as it is. I am sorry.
21Neberg
Enlightened
- Dec 17, 2018
- 1,624
What do you want? A motivational speech to seek help first, or straight to attempting to CTB? The only advice I can offer right now is to calm down and think about your options. A rushed suicide attempt is doomed to fail.
