I dont have bpd but i do have d.i.d (dissociative identity disorder) plus dissociative amnesia its kinda a tricky one tbh i do find myself always irritated and agitated but i feel like i have a temper too coz i always get angry super quickly its kinda annoying and draining to be angry all the time, the thing is i have 20+ personalities and my memory is so fucked like i wont remember what i had for lunch, i have to write everything down, ive only got one friend and he also has d.i.d as far as i can tell and hes pretty much the only one who gets me and my personalities, and im like dissociating all day everyday and its so hard to keep up with me cause ill have personalities who are angry all the time or like sad all the time and it can get difficult to be in a relationship coz she (the girl im currently talking too havent met yet but do plan too) wont know im talking to her but then another personality could be speaking to her about smth important and when im myself again i wont have a rats arse as to what was talked about so i tend to make the same mistakes over again but its hard to explain because its a different personality making those mistakes, she thinks shes speaking to me majority of the time but shes wrong, im having multiple personality switches throughout the day. Sometimes there can be an emergence of a new personality and i find myself to be a stranger in my own home, like i wont know who my siblings are everyone will be a stranger and i would need to ask for names and ages and where i am because i wont have memory of it this disorder is the reason why i want to ctb and the girl im talking to has bpd amongst other diagnosis and she is literally going through what you're going thru like having a hard time to make friends or no friends at all and the love thing i also get and understand, i can never be my true self to people who i just meet coz i know they'll think im totally nuts so its literally all about having the patience to know that the friend you have is willing to understand and appreciate you regardless of your diagnosis i know it will take time but trust me it took me forever to find someone who's just like me id suggest going to support groups places where there's other ppl with bpd so you dont feel alone in this world and in doing so you can potentially meet your future partner or even friend/s for the rest of your life