HowSoonIsNow
" Oh, She was a victim of sweet suicide"
- Feb 2, 2020
- 162
Hey friends, yesterday I had an amazing time with my friend, I even had a few drinks but then when I came home I had a Panic Attack and my left arm is filled with cuts. My other friend talked to me until I was calm, she made me promise that I wasn't going to do that again so I'm trying my best.
I was looking for a job and I found it but I have to talk to a lot of people and this is making my social anxiety worse, I want to give up of the job and I'm contemplating suicide again...I tried a lot of times but I never had success, it's so embarrassing to me. I wish I had the guts to do a full suspension, there's nothing left to me in life, I ruined all my relationships and the fact that I can't truly believe that people like me make them tired so they left me, sometimes I think that even my cat secretly dislikes me..
I was looking for a job and I found it but I have to talk to a lot of people and this is making my social anxiety worse, I want to give up of the job and I'm contemplating suicide again...I tried a lot of times but I never had success, it's so embarrassing to me. I wish I had the guts to do a full suspension, there's nothing left to me in life, I ruined all my relationships and the fact that I can't truly believe that people like me make them tired so they left me, sometimes I think that even my cat secretly dislikes me..