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[Namelesa]

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[Sannti]

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[Namelesa]

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[GlassMoon]

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[Namelesa]

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[EternalShore]

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[Namelesa]

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[ijustwishtodie]

164. It pisses me off whenever somebody here talks about how everybody can easily kill themselves if they wish to and how those who say they don't have access to a method are just making excuses. It's so fucking invalidating to see sentiments like this on this forum. One of the reasons why I joined this forum is to get away from bullshit statements like that but unfortunately humanity just has to go and infect its bullshit everywhere. I'm so sick and tired of this and I can't even vent about it in a normal thread since I doubt people would agree with me but at least you guys here understand me, right?

 

[Namelesa]

164. It pisses me off whenever somebody here talks about how everybody can easily kill themselves if they wish to and how those who say they don't have access to a method are just making excuses. It's so fucking invalidating to see sentiments like this on this forum. One of the reasons why I joined this forum is to get away from bullshit statements like that but unfortunately humanity just has to go and infect its bullshit everywhere. I'm so sick and tired of this and I can't even vent about it in a normal thread since I doubt people would agree with me but at least you guys here understand me, right?

163, I am sorry humans are like that even here. I totally understand you as I don't have access to much methods myself and killing yourself is already hard to begin with cus of SI and if you have a fear or regrets about dying.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

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163, I am sorry humans are like that even here. I totally understand you as I don't have access to much methods myself and killing yourself is already hard to begin with cus of SI and if you have a fear or regrets about dying.

This is some spoilers here but I'm going to risk trying to get SN. I may succeed or fail to get this depending on how lucky or unlucky I am but, even if I were to get it successfully, that doesn't mean that suicide is readily available for everybody! It's honestly so invalidating to those who have tried to kill themselves and then failed to be in permanent damage or those who can't access a method in the first place.

 

[Namelesa]

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This is some spoilers here but I'm going to risk trying to get SN. I may succeed or fail to get this depending on how lucky or unlucky I am but, even if I were to get it successfully, that doesn't mean that suicide is readily available for everybody! It's honestly so invalidating to those who have tried to kill themselves and then failed to be in permanent damage or those who can't access a method in the first place.

163, good luck with getting the SN, I hope you are able to get it so you have more freedom and control with how you want your life/death to go.

I have tried to ctb many times but haven't been able to cause of family members preventing it or that the method was not effective enough and it causing intense pain as I am quite sensitive to and can't tolerate much physical pain. I can't get SN cus of my parents throwing it away and its hard to find SN anyways so suicide is definitely not readily available for everyone.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

163, good luck with getting the SN, I hope you are able to get it so you have more freedom and control with how you want your life/death to go.

I have tried to ctb many times but haven't been able to cause of family members preventing it or that the method was not effective enough and it causing intense pain as I am quite sensitive to and can't tolerate much physical pain. I can't get SN cus of my parents throwing it away and its hard to find SN anyways so suicide is definitely not readily available for everyone.

164. Yeah, I have to get lucky and hope my mum doesn't check my bank account since I'm buying a PO box to get the SN sent to that. I've seen your posts talking about how your parents don't even let you go outside for the most part and, whilst my parents are restrictive, I at least have freedom when it comes to university. I really hope that I get it but I'm so scared of my parents catching me out or something going wrong during the process. I need to take this risk though as otherwise future me would be annoyed at how I didn't even try to escape existence since my life is getting way more unbearable now.

I'm so sorry for how trapped you are. You're even more trapped than I am and I know I'd be as trapped as you are if I were to get caught. I hate at how I have to be secretive about this and act like I'm a criminal when suicide shouldn't be a crime but rather a right. If I were to succeed though, I'd be so happy at how I manage to escape existence despite all of the pro lifers trying to keep me alive against my will. I will use their anti suicide bullshit to motivate me to kill myself if I do get the SN. Anyways, I hope you find peace soon

 

[Namelesa]

164. Yeah, I have to get lucky and hope my mum doesn't check my bank account since I'm buying a PO box to get the SN sent to that. I've seen your posts talking about how your parents don't even let you go outside for the most part and, whilst my parents are restrictive, I at least have freedom when it comes to university. I really hope that I get it but I'm so scared of my parents catching me out or something going wrong during the process. I need to take this risk though as otherwise future me would be annoyed at how I didn't even try to escape existence since my life is getting way more unbearable now.

I'm so sorry for how trapped you are. You're even more trapped than I am and I know I'd be as trapped as you are if I were to get caught. I hate at how I have to be secretive about this and act like I'm a criminal when suicide shouldn't be a crime but rather a right. If I were to succeed though, I'd be so happy at how I manage to escape existence despite all of the pro lifers trying to keep me alive against my will. I will use their anti suicide bullshit to motivate me to kill myself if I do get the SN. Anyways, I hope you find peace soon

163 thank you <3 I wish people were more understanding of me and respected my freedom. Not doing that has made me more suicidal as I feel less valued and can't do things that would make me feel better like physically seeing my best friend. Their way of doing things has done the opposite effect of what they wanted and has made me more suicidal. I hate them for that as they want me to continue to live but don't give allow me the access to things that could make me feel better and recover. To me my sucidalness isn't the problem, its my mental problems and with some thing about life itself.

People deserve the right to be able to die either cus they want to escape their mental pain or just not a fan of life. I know you are not a fan of life at all and its is a totally understandable opinion to have. Its your life and you didn't have a choice in being here so you definitely deserve to have the choice of when you want to end it.

 

[GlassMoon]

164. It pisses me off whenever somebody here talks about how everybody can easily kill themselves if they wish to and how those who say they don't have access to a method are just making excuses. It's so fucking invalidating to see sentiments like this on this forum. One of the reasons why I joined this forum is to get away from bullshit statements like that but unfortunately humanity just has to go and infect its bullshit everywhere. I'm so sick and tired of this and I can't even vent about it in a normal thread since I doubt people would agree with me but at least you guys here understand me, right?

Yes, I get you. I guess that statement is only true in theory, because not everybody wants to use a brutal or painful method, or risk traumatizing others (jump, train, car), or go through the pain of a failed attempt.

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[ijustwishtodie]

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Yes, I get you. I guess that statement is only true in theory, because not everybody wants to use a brutal or painful method, or risk traumatizing others (jump, train, car), or go through the pain of a failed attempt.

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I think that it isn't even true in theory either since the idea of getting permanent damage from a failed attempt that isn't SN is a very real and valid fear to have. Somebody may want to die but are still rational enough to not risk being in immense pain. I just feel like saying that those who want to die would have attempted already is disrespectful to those who have already attempted to then have failed and got permanent damage as a result. If these methods were 100% certain and people could 100% access them, I'd agree with that but since it isn't, I can't agree with that.

163 thank you <3 I wish people were more understanding of me and respected my freedom. Not doing that has made me more suicidal as I feel less valued and can't do things that would make me feel better like physically seeing my best friend. Their way of doing things has done the opposite effect of what they wanted and has made me more suicidal. I hate them for that as they want me to continue to live but don't give allow me the access to things that could make me feel better and recover. To me my sucidalness isn't the problem, its my mental problems and with some thing about life itself.

People deserve the right to be able to die either cus they want to escape their mental pain or just not a fan of life. I know you are not a fan of life at all and its is a totally understandable opinion to have. Its your life and you didn't have a choice in being here so you definitely deserve to have the choice of when you want to end it.

You deserve to be free to choose if you want to die or not. I'm sorry that you don't have that right

 

[Namelesa]

Some people do want to die early just not a painful one and don't want to risk having to deal with the consequences of a failed attempt.

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[ijustwishtodie]

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[leloyon]

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Does age regressing help you at all? :)

bit late to the convo (or am i considering it was JUST HOURS AGO) but nah, just makes me feel scared and overwhelmed tbh. i can never have nice things. except derealisation, that has sometimes made me feel calmer, but sometimes just feels terrifying instead

 

[HereWeGo!]

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[Namelesa]

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[EternalShore]

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bit late to the convo (or am i considering it was JUST HOURS AGO) but nah, just makes me feel scared and overwhelmed tbh. i can never have nice things. except derealisation, that has sometimes made me feel calmer, but sometimes just feels terrifying instead

163 oh dear~ :( I'm sorry to hear, leloyon~ :( It'd be nice if things could finally go right for once... :(

 

[Namelesa]

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[ijustwishtodie]

163. Ah fuck, why the hell is trying to get SN so challenging. Now I'm worried that I won't be able to get it

 

[Namelesa]

cus of people who don't fully understand suicide and people's suffering so try to stop more easily accessible methods and make other ones harder to get. SN has been made more difficult to find and get as prevent those people from shutting down those providers. Fluff pro-lifers
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[ijustwishtodie]

163.

cus of people who don't fully understand suicide and people's suffering so try to stop more easily accessible methods and make other ones harder to get. SN has been made more difficult to find and get as prevent those people from shutting down those providers. Fluff pro-lifers
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Ugh :(

 

[Namelesa]

I can only think of pro-lifers as people who don't know basic empathy or people that want us to suffer. I understand that knowing someone close to you dying by their hand is painful but its their life and should be allowed do that like how people should be allowed to break up or leave each other. While I have suffered from lots of friends leaving and abandoning me, while I am allowed to maybe not like what they did, they are allowed to leave me and I need to accept that. This should apply to suicide as well but that pro-life friend that left me says I am insane for thinking that way so I don't know.

Do they not see how some or most of us are in great pain? Why can't we just respectful disagree with each other? You are allowed to live your own life, I am not asking you to ctb as well. You can enjoy and continue life while we can dislike it and die earlier. Its our life allow us the choice on what we want to do with it.

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[Mortadelo]

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[Namelesa]

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[darkest]

163 - one week remaining and I'll be dead.
Best. Decision. I'll. Ever. Make.

 

[Namelesa]

163 - one week remaining and I'll be dead.
Best. Decision. I'll. Ever. Make.

Whatever happens, I hope you can escape the pain of this world.
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