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[Namelesa]

500 It is sad...it makes any exit from this world almost impossible. Nevertheless, I hope that fate will soon work in your favour and you will find a solution. Is there anything I can do for you?

500 honestly the most I can ask from most people here is just be able to comfort me and be there for me if I get into a really bad mental state.

@Namelesa Sounds like you are really trapped, sounds awful.
Glad to see you here again. How was your night and morning?

501.

aside from the feeling trapped and hopeless, okay I guess? I feel better interacting with this site so thank god this place exists.

 

[APeacefulPlace]

501

 

[Namelesa]

500 I think I am forced to recover cus of this. I wish I could have the freedom to die but I guess this is my life. I may have to stop talking here for a bit cus I need to go to therapy now.

 

[APeacefulPlace]

501

 

[Namelesa]

500

 

[APeacefulPlace]

501

 

[Namelesa]

500

 

[APeacefulPlace]

501

 

[ijustwishtodie]

499 As I only have one friend and his mum doesn't want me to see him, my parents wouldn't even take me to go see him. If I was able to see him tho they would come with me as they don't think I am responsible enough to travel on my own and to keep me "safe" so that I don't kill myself.

Fuck, that's so unfair.

499 the only ways I can see being free from them is if I am able to hide my sucidalness for a long time or get SN from someone else or get money to escape the house. Only things I can think of as a way to get money for me is with my game or (NSFW) online sex work which to be honest I am interested in doing as I am quite hypersexual but I have a fear of disappointing people and I don't where I would start with that

I see. Wait, if you were to get SN from somebody, how would you even be able to use it? I'm just asking out of curiosity since that method causes vomiting meaning that your parents would hear you in the middle of the night if you were to use it at home, no?

502

 

[knighterrant]

500 I think I am forced to recover cus of this. I wish I could have the freedom to die but I guess this is my life. I may have to stop talking here for a bit cus I need to go to therapy now.

502 I hope whatever you do next will lead you to happiness

 

[APeacefulPlace]

504

 

[HereWeGo!]

aside from the feeling trapped and hopeless, okay I guess? I feel better interacting with this site so thank god this place exists.

So you haven't done any new attempts this night/morning?

504.

 

[Namelesa]

Fuck, that's so unfair.

I see. Wait, if you were to get SN from somebody, how would you even be able to use it? I'm just asking out of curiosity since that method causes vomiting meaning that your parents would hear you in the middle of the night if you were to use it at home, no?

502

503 Sadly I may not be able to do SN either if I was able to get it. I probably don't have access to any antiemetics and would need to keep quiet as possible. I could maybe sneak to the top floor of my house which no one sleeps on and go into that toilet to lock myself in and use SN there.

So you haven't done any new attempts this night/morning?

504.

Sadly haven't cus I know the clothes rail isn't strong enough for my weight so I don't have any other good anchor point for hanging.

 

[HereWeGo!]

Sadly haven't cus I know the clothes rail isn't strong enough for my weight so I don't have any other good anchor point for hanging.

Right, now I remember. Really sad that the rail broke. But it's better it broke in the beginning than after a while.

504.

 

[Namelesa]

Right, now I remember. Really sad that the rail broke. But it's better it broke in the beginning than after a while.

504.

503 at least it didn't break in the middle of an attempt I became unconscious which would have caused brain damage

 

[HereWeGo!]

503 at least it didn't break in the middle of an attempt I became unconscious which would have caused brain damage

Exactly. I feel so much for hang myself full suspension, but I doesn't really trust the knots. Even if I try it out the rope for some couple of minutes. There are still possibility of failing. That would be really devastating. My biggest fear.

504

 

[Namelesa]

503 I feel scared about therapy today. I don't want to mention about my hanging attempts but I know I suck at hiding emotions.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

504

 

[HereWeGo!]

503 I feel scared about therapy today. I don't want to mention about my hanging attempts but I know I suck at hiding emotions.

What do you think it will happen if you tell the therapist about it?

505.

 

[Namelesa]

What do you think it will happen if you tell the therapist about it?

505.

504 she would obviously tell my mum and I don't want them to know I have a possibility of being able to hang myself

 

[HereWeGo!]

504 she would obviously tell my mum and I don't want them to know I have a possibility of being able to hang myself

I guess it will be better if you don't talk about it then. I hope your having a good chat.

505.

 

[Namelesa]

504 have to go to therapy now

 

[HereWeGo!]

504 have to go to therapy now

Wish you good luck! See you later then.

505.

 

[knighterrant]

504 have to go to therapy now

Good luck
506

 

[ijustwishtodie]

507

 

[knighterrant]

508

 

[Namelesa]

507 I back, it went okay and managed to not say about my hanging attempts

 

[EternalShore]

507 I back, it went okay and managed to not say about my hanging attempts

506 That's nice at least~ :) It sucks that we have to lie about things like that tho~ :( I can hardly handle lying for too long unfortunately~ >_< Welcome back~ :)

 

[boddibo]

507

 

[Namelesa]

506 That's nice at least~ :) It sucks that we have to lie about things like that tho~ :( I can hardly handle lying for too long unfortunately~ >_< Welcome back~ :)

Thank you<3 if you haven't heard about stuff that's been going on for me, I can't do partial hanging anymore as the anchor point I was using broke with my 2nd attempt of trying it. I have no more methods now and I now feel trapped and hopeless.

506