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207 - awe, you wanna talk about it?

 

[Namelesa]

206 I didn't know what presents I wanted so I got some stuff that isn't useful to me. I feel like I less belong with my family and I sh twice yesterday cus of stress and emptiness.

 

[darkest]

207 - ah, yea these days are very stressful I get you. it's okay to not feel like you belong with your family, it's really common, like that saying, "The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb", you can find where you belong away from family, like this forum! you belong here and your feelings are valid, it sucks to feel alone in something or a feeling/experience. hope your cuts heal well, keep them clean and take care. hope you find your peace <3

 

[Namelesa]

206 thank you <3 I do feel like I belong here so I have often interact with this site now

I don't have much regrets with cutting like most people. I don't mind the scars and don't feel ashamed with showing them. I do put a cream on them but I have asked my mum to get alcohol wipes to clean them more effectively. I also like them more as they create a stinging pain, increasing the effectiveness of distracting myself from my mental pain.

 

[darkest]

207 - I agree with that, I like the sensation of cutting as well, glad you're cleaning them effectively!

 

[Namelesa]

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207 - out of curiosity, what do you think about suicide notes?

 

[Namelesa]

206 if you want to be able to say something to someone that you are close to but don't want to do them directly as they might prevent your suicide or you don't want to suffer other consequences then they can be useful.

Personally I want to write one for my family to say that I want them to suffer from my death as they have continued to trap me and prevent my ctb attempts.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

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207 - out of curiosity, what do you think about suicide notes?

I know you didn't ask this to me but personally I'm going to write a suicide note so that the authorities quickly realise that my death is a suicide so that they leave me alone as quickly as possible. I'd write the suicide note as if it was phrased for my parents but, in actuality, I'm only writing it for the authorities. There's no use writing a suicide note for my parents since they won't ever understand me regardless of whether I tell them or not and they'd feel the same regardless

 

[Namelesa]

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[darkest]

207 - both of you make a good point, I feel like saying nothing for me is more fitting. there's just one person I'd want to send them a confirmation, not really a note, because I've been avoiding them for almost a month as they will definitely do their best to prevent it as they were trying before already. thing is I want to talk to them just one more time, it's more of a reminiscence than actually wanting a conversation, considering I've set my mind on the date and everything, it wouldn't be a pleasant conversation. i dunno

 

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[NoPoint2Life]

Damn the deep conversations continue here in the counting game

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[Namelesa]

204 deep conversations can happen from simple starting points which I like

 

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