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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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671. You both are still here? Does the concept of sleep not exist for you two?
 
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L9my

L9my

they are dead, for they have no dreams
Nov 22, 2024
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674 - i'm really scared of going to sleep rn
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
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673 I do sleep it's just I go to bed late and often wake up in the afternoon
 
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L9my

L9my

they are dead, for they have no dreams
Nov 22, 2024
991
674 - scared is a bit too strong a word but i'm not sure how to describe it.
Maybe I'm just scared of the future
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

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Sep 21, 2024
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673 if I could I would sleep more, it's the closest thing to non existence
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
675. I would be asleep by now if I wasn't so busy with university work
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
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675 what would happen if you decided to drop out @ijustwishtodie ?
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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677. Honestly, I don't even know @Namelesa. I don't think that my parents would be happy with it as they ultimately do want me to go through university and get a job and so forth. The worst* case scenario is them kicking me out (which probably wouldn't happen but it could) and the best case scenario would be getting perpetual religious lectures at how I should be strong and fight just as hard as society wants me to and so on

*worst in the sense of it causing a lot of pain. I would welcome this though if it happened as it'd be the thing that would finally make me attempt suicide
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
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679 what if you purposely try to get yourself kicked out of the house so that you become free from your parents?
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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683. I don't even need to drop out of university for them to kick me out @Namelesa. I can guarantee getting kicked out by merely telling them that I'm no longer a muslim. That would piss them off immensely to make them kick me out. The reason as to why I haven't done this is because of how scary it is and how I'd have to deal with a lot of abuse before I get kicked out. Plus I don't really have a researched suicide method yet
 
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L9my

L9my

they are dead, for they have no dreams
Nov 22, 2024
991
684 - sorry, i'm in the dark rn. kinda hard to see my keyboard
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

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Sep 21, 2024
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683. I don't even need to drop out of university for them to kick me out @Namelesa. I can guarantee getting kicked out by merely telling them that I'm no longer a muslim. That would piss them off immensely to make them kick me out. The reason as to why I haven't done this is because of how scary it is and how I'd have to deal with a lot of abuse before I get kicked out. Plus I don't really have a researched suicide method yet
683 I am sorry you have to deal with that, they are so evil for trapping and worsening your life while entrapping you. I hope you can find a less scary way of freeing yourself from them and find a potential good method.
 
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