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does anyone else's pet just snore really loud like a motorboat
 
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my cat snores. very loudly. i can hear it through my headphones
 
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do you want to say what happened?
just thinking of neenie. i don't know how people open up about literally anything because this is physically painful

sorry for lying to you. this is why i haven't been the most helpful to you, not some dumb caffeine crashes (i am a lousy liar)
 
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Namelesa

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just thinking of neenie. i don't know how people open up about literally anything because this is physically painful

sorry for lying to you. this is why i haven't been the most helpful to you, not some dumb caffeine crashes (i am a lousy liar)
it the pain from just realizing the greater effect of the loss of neenie or someone has been unempathetic or mean to you about it?

Its absolutely okay <3 I assume you were lying cus of this being a pro-choice forum and all of that but you are allowed to grief the loss of someone, I just think people should allow people to make the choice of ctb without guilting them or involuntarily physically prevent it. Its okay to say you are suffering from the loss of someone and no one can take away that feeling from you.

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it the pain from just realizing the greater effect of the loss of neenie or someone has been unempathetic or mean to you about it?

Its absolutely okay <3 I assume you were lying cus of this being a pro-choice forum and all of that but you are allowed to grief the loss of someone, I just think people should allow people to make the choice of ctb without guilting them or involuntarily physically prevent it. Its okay to say you are suffering from the loss of someone and no one can take away that feeling from you.
thanks. i wasn't lying for that purpose; it's just very fleetingly rare that i'm miserable enough to be vulnerable with people. just because i know it'll come and bite me in the ass, some way or another. and vulnerability just makes people change their perception of you... i don't like that and i hate the weakness associated with it. moreover, i don't like feeling these things.

i feel fine. knowing she's fine and being happy about that has had more leverage over the grief. i had forewarning of exactly when she'd be gone, so it wasn't like darkest, who impulsively chose an obscure, newer method after failing a lot of dangerous ones.
 
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thanks. i wasn't lying for that purpose; it's just very fleetingly rare that i'm miserable enough to be vulnerable with people. just because i know it'll come and bite me in the ass, some way or another. and vulnerability just makes people change their perception of you... i don't like that and i hate the weakness associated with it. moreover, i don't like feeling these things.

i feel fine. knowing she's fine and being happy about that has had more leverage over the grief. i had forewarning of exactly when she'd be gone, so it wasn't like darkest, who impulsively chose an obscure, newer method after failing a lot of dangerous ones.
oh I see what you mean now by the anxiousness of vulnerability. The think allowing yourself to be vulnerable is something that you can get better at with you have positive experiences with doing that like seeing other people accept you but can get worse with negative experiences. I feel like I have been doing better at it in here. However the fear of others seeing you differently is quite scary. I will say I respect people who are able to as its shows some level of bravery.

I can see how you were able to deal with her death more than darkest as she gave you preparation that it was happening. Sorry if my attempts will seem random cus I don't plan dates and like to do it when an impulsive urge happens.

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