Venting Boyfriend is a cheating alcoholic loser

[autistocracy]

I've wasted almost 3 years dating the most lame ass guy because I'm desperate and have no self-esteem. He used to inspire me to want to live, but now he just makes me want to kms.

We both live in a rural shithole. The jobs here suck, there's nothing to do, we've lost over 40% of our population for the decades. Don't even get me started on the dating pool. It's god awful.

Which is why when I met him, I was really hopeful. I thought that maybe life could be worth living. That if this worked out maybe something else will.
I'm a fucking dumbass. Piece of shit can't keep his dick in his pants to save his life. Can't put the bottle down either. He tells me all this shit about how he really wants to stop drinking, but he won't stop going out of town to parties where he fucks everything that moves and binges his heart out. This is really the best I could do. Because I'm fucking worthless. And I just know it's because I'm black. Because I'm ugly by default and none of these hillbillies wants anything to do with a lowly n-word.
He just got back in town from seeing his friend over the weekend. As it turns out, he did a whole lot more than that. Proudly bragging about his random sexcapades on the internet.
I just realized how delusional I've been. Fuck hope. This is all life is ever going to be. Boring, unsatisfying.

 

[kawaiiphantom]

That's extremely horrible, im so sorry you have to go through this. You should be treated with love and respect, and it's awful that you're being discriminated against because you're black. People like that are so vile. I hope you find someone in the future who deserves you, I hope venting here at least helped a little bit if you ever need someone to vent to or a shoulder to lean on feel free to message me :>

 

[Sleeper System]

I want to voice my opinion but I don't think it will be at all productive or nice so i'll just say that it's a horrible situation to be in and I wouldn't want to be in.

 

[Doemu]

It's horrible when someone's expects to not being loved. I hope you can move from there or found someone better to you.

 

[Thanksforeverything]

Let me ask you this, if you're dating this guy because you have low self-esteem, is he making it worse or better? If it's the former, dump him, burn his stuff, key his car, and tell him how much of a worthless piece of shit he is.

 

[DeadManLiving]

Men fall in love with what they see, women fall in love with what they hear
Which is why Women get But lifts and Men tell lies

 

[Sageiois]

Yep my ex fiance is the exact same. Played a game called vrc and cheated on me all the time, only way i found out was through digging in her discord dms and seeing the flirty texts and nudes. But shs got mad at me for looking lmao whatever, wasted 2 years

 

[uzuf86]

Would you forgive him if he stopped all his bad habits and dedicated his life to your relationship and happiness?

 

[melancholymallory03]

I want to voice my opinion but I don't think it will be at all productive or nice so i'll just say that it's a horrible situation to be in and I wouldn't want to be in.

Bruh

I want to voice my opinion but I don't think it will be at all productive or nice so i'll just say that it's a horrible situation to be in and I wouldn't want to be in.

Men fall in love with what they see, women fall in love with what they hear
Which is why Women get But lifts and Men tell lies

Humans r disgusting!!!!!!

I've wasted almost 3 years dating the most lame ass guy because I'm desperate and have no self-esteem. He used to inspire me to want to live, but now he just makes me want to kms.

We both live in a rural shithole. The jobs here suck, there's nothing to do, we've lost over 40% of our population for the decades. Don't even get me started on the dating pool. It's god awful.

Which is why when I met him, I was really hopeful. I thought that maybe life could be worth living. That if this worked out maybe something else will.
I'm a fucking dumbass. Piece of shit can't keep his dick in his pants to save his life. Can't put the bottle down either. He tells me all this shit about how he really wants to stop drinking, but he won't stop going out of town to parties where he fucks everything that moves and binges his heart out. This is really the best I could do. Because I'm fucking worthless. And I just know it's because I'm black. Because I'm ugly by default and none of these hillbillies wants anything to do with a lowly n-word.
He just got back in town from seeing his friend over the weekend. As it turns out, he did a whole lot more than that. Proudly bragging about his random sexcapades on the internet.
I just realized how delusional I've been. Fuck hope. This is all life is ever going to be. Boring, unsatisfying.

Hey.
What ages are you guys?
You don't have to answer just trying to understand you're stage in life a bit more
!!! First
You're not lowly! Or ugly
I just want you to know there is no such thing as ugly , just lazy. You, can use art, to make yourself more beautiful …. Do you see these men on rupaul that transform themselves into beautiful women? Take notes from them. Spend your money on yourself if possible … show him how much you love yourself . Men usually hate that secretly if they are toxic like you're saying ^
But girl…. With the makeup transformations and loozmazzing online there rly is no such thing as flat out ugly. You might not be everyone's cup of tea that's okay. But if you invest in yourself and become someone you'd wanna be with , I can assure you someone else will, if you don't have the willpower that's a personal issue and I really wish you find it. Sending much love and I hope he also meets his karma.
and can relate to being from a rural shit hole.also thank you for swearing so much now I know I can say fuck on here.
I hope this guy fucking changes for you, but he probably won't. Been there …
Everyone is beautiful . There is only laziness

 

[Camper]

This is really the best I could do. Because I'm fucking worthless. And I just know it's because I'm black. Because I'm ugly by default and none of these hillbillies wants anything to do with a lowly n-word.

Why not just date other black people, then? I don't get it.

Low self-esteem tends to attract horrible people. I've been there myself. I'm sorry you had to deal with that.

 

[melancholymallory03]

Let me ask you this, if you're dating this guy because you have low self-esteem, is he making it worse or better? If it's the former, dump him, burn his stuff, key his car, and tell him how much of a worthless piece of shit he is.

Use gloves if u key the car girly and for any other crimes
But don't throw away your life for a narcissistic loser who seems like he never grew up out of the fuck boy stage. I don't think all men cheat
I think most do , with the way they are socialized . If you raise your standards you can attract like minded people. Look for the heart of the person to instead of the looks. Of course hygiene is a must………. But u know what I mean?
Often people are mad because they can't accept they just aren't everyone's cup of tea. Or they go there whole lives thinking they are in love , because they never found closure:(

Why not just date other black people, then? I don't get it.

Low self-esteem tends to attract horrible people. I've been there myself. I'm sorry you had to deal with that.

I don't think it's about dating other black people……. I think they may have limited options where they are from? And dealing with some haters too:(
I hope we all find peace

 

[AlexYaBoy]

I've wasted almost 3 years dating the most lame ass guy because I'm desperate and have no self-esteem. He used to inspire me to want to live, but now he just makes me want to kms.

We both live in a rural shithole. The jobs here suck, there's nothing to do, we've lost over 40% of our population for the decades. Don't even get me started on the dating pool. It's god awful.

Which is why when I met him, I was really hopeful. I thought that maybe life could be worth living. That if this worked out maybe something else will.
I'm a fucking dumbass. Piece of shit can't keep his dick in his pants to save his life. Can't put the bottle down either. He tells me all this shit about how he really wants to stop drinking, but he won't stop going out of town to parties where he fucks everything that moves and binges his heart out. This is really the best I could do. Because I'm fucking worthless. And I just know it's because I'm black. Because I'm ugly by default and none of these hillbillies wants anything to do with a lowly n-word.
He just got back in town from seeing his friend over the weekend. As it turns out, he did a whole lot more than that. Proudly bragging about his random sexcapades on the internet.
I just realized how delusional I've been. Fuck hope. This is all life is ever going to be. Boring, unsatisfying.

Don't key his car or burn his stuff. That'll help him to justify the cheating and alcoholism. He'll rationalise it as "I knew that I was right. She's a psycho. Etc, etc." Could start to talk about you with others, and whatnot. If you don't do anything as mentioned above, he'll have a hard time talking about you, without fabricating things. I'd just move on. Chalk it up as a win. Now you know who not to date.