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SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

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May 28, 2024
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I'm not diabetic but I have prediabetes secondary to antipsychotics and my a1C is currently around 6.2. For those not in the know, that's juuuuuuust below the threshold for a T2D diagnosis. Between lowering my Geodon dose slightly, going easy on the carbs and doing my gymnastics program, I was able to lower that number slightly. My goal is to have a normal a1C by this time next year. But the truth of the matter is, it's easier said than done.

For one, I have a neurological disorder that impairs my interoception. Hunger and fullness cues aren't really a thing, and even when they are, it doesn't seem to matter. I'll eat what I think is a decent meal and a mere hour and a half later, my pancreas just dumps insulin into my bloodstream. So I'll eat and then shortly after, I will have low blood sugar. Ravenous low blood sugar. I don't know if anyone here has experienced that, but let me briefly describe it. It's pure emptiness. You have crazy eyes. You're shaking and you're sweating worse than a jogger in the Everglades. And you just want to eat even though you know you reaaaaally shouldn't. You almost have to or you will pass out. You just get to a point where you don't have any strength to hold your head up. I did a little digging, and apparently, it's common to experience this reactive hypoglycemia when your a1c is improving. So this misery is a sign that I'm actually doing the right thing. The irony is that your body is basically sabotaging you at that point.

I also experience the same hypoglycemia that most people experience, which is when I have NOT eaten. What kills me is when I develop headache and/or nausea, because that destroys any interest I may have in food. Even though I know my problem is caused by lack of food and will only get worse through lack of food...I can't make myself eat. If I'm really desperate, I will drink soda and eat baby food just to get me out of the death spiral. But eating food just feels so gross.

I struggle with migraines too and I take Imitrex. Something I have noticed is that once I take Imitrex after a migraine and the pain and hot flashes have gone...the munchies begin. And I mean MEGA munchies. I literally can't stop eating, and I'm not after carbs and sweets either. I'm going for the fats and the proteins. I'm going for an 8 course meal here and it's 100% a physical hunger that has nothing to do with my feelings. It's a bottomless pit empty feeling. I've tried talking to my neurologist about it and she keeps insisting that there is no research on this, and that this is psychological, that I am eating for comfort. Gaslighting BS if you ask me. I have a new doc and I'm going to bring this up with her. Apparently this type of behavior is sometimes seen with seizure activity.

So someone tell me this: How am I supposed to follow healthy lifestyle advice? How am I supposed to function? My body doesn't seem to tolerate it and when I ask for help no one believes me
 
Ijustcantanymore

Ijustcantanymore

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Nov 22, 2024
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I am very familiar with diabetic starvation. It's how most of my mornings begin, and usually through the day. It's so painful that I can't even eat to stop it , I have to wait it out, screaming into pillows until the pain stops.

The sweating, the cramping. The nausea, the diarrhea, and the exhaustion from it all. The dehydration.

You are not alone. I experience this same range of symptoms. Do try to get your a1c lower. Because this shit gets worse the higher that gets. My a1c is almost 10. I don't recommend it.
 
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SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

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May 28, 2024
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I am very familiar with diabetic starvation. It's how most of my mornings begin, and usually through the day. It's so painful that I can't even eat to stop it , I have to wait it out, screaming into pillows until the pain stops.

The sweating, the cramping. The nausea, the diarrhea, and the exhaustion from it all. The dehydration.

You are not alone. I experience this same range of symptoms. Do try to get your a1c lower. Because this shit gets worse the higher that gets. My a1c is almost 10. I don't recommend it.
Can I ask if you are type 1 or type 2?
 
Ijustcantanymore

Ijustcantanymore

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Nov 22, 2024
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In my case, all I have to do is stop taking that Geodon...but that creates its own set of problems. No wonder people give up on being well.
Right!? And if you don't have a solid and constant support system, it's basically impossible to make the lifestyle changes necessary to reverse it.

I don't have any support for such a change in my life. I'm basically waiting to see if I kill myself first. Or if the diabetes gets me first. Especially with Americans losing all their safety nets. I won't have health insurance much longer. Which means no diabetes meds.
 
SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

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May 28, 2024
514
Right!? And if you don't have a solid and constant support system, it's basically impossible to make the lifestyle changes necessary to reverse it.

I don't have any support for such a change in my life. I'm basically waiting to see if I kill myself first. Or if the diabetes gets me first. Especially with Americans losing all their safety nets. I won't have health insurance much longer. Which means no diabetes meds.
Unfortunately people have bought into the lie that type 2 diabetes is "your own fault" and that you don't deserve healthcare anyway. That's a huge part of the problem.
 
Ijustcantanymore

Ijustcantanymore

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Nov 22, 2024
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Unfortunately people have bought into the lie that type 2 diabetes is "your own fault" and that you don't deserve healthcare anyway. That's a huge part of the problem.
I fucking hate that. Like okay. It's not my fault that when I was 13 I started using food to cope with the abuse being inflicted on me and not one person told me that was unhealthy.

I hate the "your own fault" argument. You can apply that to so many things That it basically loses any meaning.
 
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May 28, 2024
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I fucking hate that. Like okay. It's not my fault that when I was 13 I started using food to cope with the abuse being inflicted on me and not one person told me that was unhealthy.

I hate the "your own fault" argument. You can apply that to so many things That it basically loses any meaning.
T2D also has a strong genetic basis and can be caused by high cortisol levels and certain medications. But that doesn't get talked about.

Football players are s-u-b-s-t-a-n-t-i-a-l-l-y more likely to suffer head injuries. Some so severe they cause a type of dementia called CTE. I don't see anyone advocating we stop treating sports injuries.
 
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