Venting Birthday coming up and feeling miserable

[MrSuicide]

It's supposed to be an important milestone. People around me expect it to be a happy day. All I'm happy about is that it's on a weekend and not many people will bother me. I know I should feel grateful my family has put up with my nonsense long enough to participate in it or care at all. I just can't. It's made worse by the fact that I'm dying next year and they wasted all of that time, energy, effort, patience, and money for worse than nothing.

 

[dumbnhappy]

I dont think you should feel bad. If they felt it was a waste of time they would have never bothered anyways. I am sorry that you feel this way, however I think that this shows that you're a good person because you're thinking of them even when you're in such a dark place mentally. I hope that you will be at peace next year, celebrating you is not a waste

 

[ScaredOfMachines]

It's supposed to be an important milestone. People around me expect it to be a happy day. All I'm happy about is that it's on a weekend and not many people will bother me. I know I should feel grateful my family has put up with my nonsense long enough to participate in it or care at all. I just can't. It's made worse by the fact that I'm dying next year and they wasted all of that time, energy, effort, patience, and money for worse than nothing.

I had a birthday here recently too, and I felt like you did. Seeing your family all happy about you growing older and expecting you to be happy just feels miserable. But I put up with it because it made them happy. Even though I'll go soon, I know people treasure the moments that they spend with others, so hopefully my family can look back on it as a happy memory for them. Even though you and I both feel that our birthdays are a waste of time, the people around us don't, for better or worse. Hopefully next year is better.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I hate birthdays too. Really, any celebrations to be honest! Being born was the start of all these problems. I don't see why I would want to celebrate that! Or, being another year older. Maybe the worst part is other people expecting you to enjoy them.

What's weirder is, one year, some of my better friends forgot. I thought that was what I wanted but then, that also felt kind of weird too. Sometimes, I get so frustrated with myself because- what do I actually want? I'm going to find a way to be unhappy regardless! I can see why people would get fed up with that so- I try not to inflict my personality on people now.

I hope the day passes as well as possible for you.