I have found out that being constantly stressed, depressed and lonely doesn't shorten your life span all that much. It's around 7-15 years shorter. But it does fuck up your health and make aging significantly faster and more debilitating.
I used to think there was a silver lining, that at least I get to live shorter. But this design seems geniuinely evil and sadistic, if it was on purpose.
I was wondering why in 25 I have so many health issues. A lot of them are stress related or coping related. By I literally phisicaly feel like I'm in late thirties or mid forties.
I feel like for me suicide is a must. I know I will not age well and I will just keep being more and more miserable.
I need out of this literal hell, ASAP. This is just way too far from being acceptable. I wish I could just cbt already. But I have very strong SI for some reason, combined with executive disfunction and let's be real most of the avaliable methods are complete garbage (thanks to virtue signaling privileged people). It feels like I was deliberately and delicately design to suffer as much as possible for as long as possible.
I used to think there was a silver lining, that at least I get to live shorter. But this design seems geniuinely evil and sadistic, if it was on purpose.
I was wondering why in 25 I have so many health issues. A lot of them are stress related or coping related. By I literally phisicaly feel like I'm in late thirties or mid forties.
I feel like for me suicide is a must. I know I will not age well and I will just keep being more and more miserable.
I need out of this literal hell, ASAP. This is just way too far from being acceptable. I wish I could just cbt already. But I have very strong SI for some reason, combined with executive disfunction and let's be real most of the avaliable methods are complete garbage (thanks to virtue signaling privileged people). It feels like I was deliberately and delicately design to suffer as much as possible for as long as possible.
