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[Hoga]

Hi,

How many aconit seeds need I if I want to die ?
I can't buy cyanide or SN because I'm an individual and it's impossible to get N. I have some yew trees ( taxus baccata ) but it didn't work, I don't know why.
I have some lily of the valley, but it's not the season at all, I have oleander, but even the smell of fresh leaves is horrible. I want to ctb, but I don't know how.
There's no heights I can jump from ( like an abandonned factory or other abandonned place ) and make it look like as an accident.
Not sure swallowing a big ice cube and have it stuck in my troat works.

 

[Hoga]

I need to know how to kill me.

 

[wljourney]

I am so sorry that you are in so much pain right now. It's rough to be in a situation where you feel the urge to die so intensely.

This forum will help you by giving you information on specific methods, but you will not find someone who will guide you how to end your life.

What you will find when you start looking at these different methods is this:

Toxic plants have very, very different levels of toxin in different parts of the plant.
Because it is a "natural product" you can't really tell how much toxin is in your specific plant, because this amount is based on what type of plant it is, how it was grown, how it was prepared for ingestion etc etc.

Generally eating or drinking a toxic plant will lead to quite a lot of pain and vomiting. Your body will try to get rid of the thing that is toxic. your body will do everything it can NOT to die and that process is not a nice thing to go through.

It is quite unlikely to die from ingesting a toxic plant without
1. calling emergency yourself or
2. being found by family and them calling for help

Please do not randomly eat any of these plants you have described and take a while (days, weeks) to read up on each of these plants to learn more about what can go wrong (and how to prevent getting extremely ill). Your decision to end your life should be made in a state of calmness. Being very aware of what you are doing. Being informed and prepared.

The worst thing right now that can happen is that you ingest something that will give you a lifelong disability. Kidney disease. Injure your liver. All these things can happen with an unsuccessful suicide attempt. So please be careful and make sure you know what you are doing.

Wishing you well.
Hugs

 

[Hoga]

I've tried yew "tea" and it didn't make me sick, maybe thanks to the anti emetic ( metopimazine ). I want to die this week, because I don't have money and no one know about this.

 

[Hoga]

I'll try again with yew leaves.

 

[Hoga]

Help needed: Do I need to drink the yew tea with some needles in the water ?

 

[Hoga]

Please I need help I want to CTB before Christmas, maybe tonight. I can't stand my life anymore.

 

[Shadowlord900]

If you're that desperate and can't find a way to get SN or a high enough place to jump off of (in honestly I wouldn't worry about trying to make it look like an accident, but I guess I couldn't care less if my death got recorded as suicide), you could try getting cyanide from various fruit seeds, crush them, then quickly ingest them. (Technically the seeds themselves don't contain cyanide, but rather they contain amygdalin that is broken down to produce cyanide.)

I still can't recommend this method though, while cyanide poisoning is fairly quick, it's also extremely painful unlike what movies/tv shows would make you believe. Also depending on what fruits you choose to extract amygdalin from, you may need to harvest tons of fruit. Peach seeds have a higher content of amygdalin, but extracting the seeds from their shells is a massive pain. Green plums apparently have the highest content of amygadlin, but I'm unfamiliar with extracting seeds from them. Apple seeds are much easier to extract but also have far less amygdalin inside of them. I could be wrong on the numbers, but I think you would need over 6000 apple seeds to get enough amygdalin to give you an idea on how much you'd need for it to be somewhat reliable and why I think this wouldn't be a good idea.

 

[👁️👃👁️]

Please I need help I want to CTB before Christmas, maybe tonight. I can't stand my life anymore.

My friend I'm so sorry no one is responding or helping you.
There's a user here who knows a lot about Yew seeds. I'm pretty tired right now and can't remember their username but I should remember it in the morning and I'll try to tag it here for you.
@DetachedDreamer97
@DetachedDreamer97 it was yew right? Yew are the yew expert?

 

[Hoga]

I want to die, help needed.

 

[LittleJem]

I think hanging is a great method as good for efficacy.

 

[Adamsnolife]

Jumping or hanging are good ones