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waaaheaven

waaaheaven

crybaby
Jul 14, 2026
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i've seen little discussion around benzocaine powder, i just ordered 100g of 99% benzocaine powder off of amazon and i'm curious if it really does work in the same way that SN does. Would i have to follow a similar protocol with fasting and AE included?
i know i have to dissolve it in vodka, not water. but what else?
 
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RazzleDazzle

The void stares back.
Sep 16, 2021
237
The LD50 for benzocaine is:

Oral - Rat - 3,042 mg/kg

So you want to multiply your weight in kgs by 3.042g to find the dose in grams that has a 50% chance of being fatal. (Assuming that it affects humans similarly to how it affects rats.)

That may end up being a substantial amount of powder, I don't know how dense it is
 
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waaaheaven

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crybaby
Jul 14, 2026
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The LD50 for benzocaine is:

Oral - Rat - 3,042 mg/kg

So you want to multiply your weight in kgs by 3.042g to find the dose in grams that has a 50% chance of being fatal. (Assuming that it affects humans similarly to how it affects rats.)

That may end up being a substantial amount of powder, I don't know how dense it is
thank you!
 
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eggsausagerice

he/him
Apr 21, 2025
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I took benzocaine powder and oral anesthetic.
I'm taking a significant amount way more then I'd actually recommend anyone ever take... but I'm exhausted from making so many attempts and at this point I want it to be overkill.

My plan is to fast for 12 hours
Take 2mg of klonopin a hour before I take everything.
I have 4 small bottles of oral anesthetic which would come out to around 8.8g.
And I plan to take two shots of benzocaine powder mixed with vodka... which will be 25g.

So in total I'm taking 33.8g ...
I'm nervous but I can't stand to keep living and filling a role that has already served its purpose.

i sasu friends

THIS PERSON IS NOT DECEASED!
im pretty sure.

her spotify, as attached in this very thread, has songs added to playlists as recent as 5 days ago, as seen here.
Screenshot 2026 02 22 224132

this reply is not being made to mock Jisatsu or anything that she is going through, it's simply to inform people that her method was unsuccessful and should not be replicated. i wish Jisatsu the best, but i also do not wish further harm on anybody that wishes to follow in her footsteps. thank you

If anyone is still watching this thread, I am someone who knew Hela/Jisatsu outside of this site (and we dated in the past) and I'm sad and sorry to say that she passed away on March 3rd of this year (suicide, but not using this method she listed above) as confirmed by her family and a close mutual friend of ours that lived close to her. May she rest in peace. :heart:

thread on a banned user named jisatsu who attempted with benzocaine and vodka. the attempt failed, but she didn't post what happened because she got banned before coming back. i attempted with a liquid ethanol and benzocaine solution. i don't consider it a lethal method. it would probbaly just cause a lot of stomach pain. so far jisatsu is the only one that has attempted with benzocaine and vodka, but i don't think other people should do it.
 
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