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DreemurrReborn
New Member
- Mar 21, 2023
- 3
For the last 2-3 years I've been on a very thin line of wanting to CTB and wanting to live but everytime I get in that mindset of wanting to die I don't know what it is but something, a feeling comes up and pulls me back onto that line and it feels like something is keeping me from descending too far down into that mindset again.
Finally to my point of making this, I've heard about the effects of taking a lot of Benadryl and honestly it feels like that's what I've been looking for. Something to make me just disappear for awhile not die but just go away then come back I'm not sure if I'm making sense.
I dont know how much to take or if I should or if there are better alternatives but I thought maybe I could get some advice or thoughts about it from here.
Since these do effect people differently based on the body I guess I should leave basic stuff to help for more accurate help
I am a male
And I'm 125 lbs
Finally to my point of making this, I've heard about the effects of taking a lot of Benadryl and honestly it feels like that's what I've been looking for. Something to make me just disappear for awhile not die but just go away then come back I'm not sure if I'm making sense.
I dont know how much to take or if I should or if there are better alternatives but I thought maybe I could get some advice or thoughts about it from here.
Since these do effect people differently based on the body I guess I should leave basic stuff to help for more accurate help
I am a male
And I'm 125 lbs