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noname223
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- Aug 18, 2020
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My religion teach said that many years ago when I was in school. He said something like. Noone knows for sure whether God exists. But everyone who believes in him no matter whether it is true can gain strength and hope from it.
I don't deny that faith can give hope and strength. For some people that works pretty well.
Though my life experience is the proof that this logic has flaws. The semi-faith I had in God (from my education) made my life even way worse. I told that a myriad of times. During my first major depression with severe suicidality I had excruciating nightmares about hell. Really literally nightmarish things. My bullies celebrated my suicide and welcomed me to hell forever. They all spit in my face in that dream.
When I read more on atheism this could comfort me. The desire for nothingness and the belief in nothingness after death comforted me a lot. Personally it was a relief. It did not even worsen my suicidality because I had less fears or something like that. It just made my mental state a little bit less excruciating.
It would be cool to tell him that story. However I don't necessarily want to ruin the faith of other people. As long as they respect me I respect them. Moreover I try to run away from my past and don't want that other people see that I became such a fucking loser.
What do you think about the idea of faith as a placebo?
I don't deny that faith can give hope and strength. For some people that works pretty well.
Though my life experience is the proof that this logic has flaws. The semi-faith I had in God (from my education) made my life even way worse. I told that a myriad of times. During my first major depression with severe suicidality I had excruciating nightmares about hell. Really literally nightmarish things. My bullies celebrated my suicide and welcomed me to hell forever. They all spit in my face in that dream.
When I read more on atheism this could comfort me. The desire for nothingness and the belief in nothingness after death comforted me a lot. Personally it was a relief. It did not even worsen my suicidality because I had less fears or something like that. It just made my mental state a little bit less excruciating.
It would be cool to tell him that story. However I don't necessarily want to ruin the faith of other people. As long as they respect me I respect them. Moreover I try to run away from my past and don't want that other people see that I became such a fucking loser.
What do you think about the idea of faith as a placebo?