Venting Being ugly

[iwantoutx]

Being ugly fucking sucks, there is no point to continue living in a body that doesn't match the person I really am inside.
'beauty is in the eye of the beholder' 'no one is really ugly', oh really? I have never heard anyone say having a crooked face or being fucking autistic is attractive! I spent over 10k$ on plastic surgery, fillers and skin treatments... and I'm still ugly af! I'm done trying, I can't fix my ugliness, nobody pays attention to me. It's over.
I feel even more embarassed by the thought of the people at work watching me go through all those procedures and still look fucking ugly if not uglier.
I'm done trying, for good.
I don't have the time, money or will to even do anything else. Fuck the gym, dentist and whatever else. Fuck this world and all the evil people who live in it. Good thing I just got a gun I can use on myself

 

[mysticatedwine]

god i know how this feels. i hate my body. black nail varnish, an indie outfit and long hair won't save me from hating who i see in the mirror. it feels pointless to try a lot of time

 

[iwantoutx]

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god i know how this feels. i hate my body. black nail varnish, an indie outfit and long hair won't save me from hating who i see in the mirror. it feels pointless to try a lot of time

sorry you feel the same... I also had long hair and made the horrible mistake of getting a buzzcut, so now all of my facial asymmetries show. it will take months if not years to grow back long enough to cover them up, but by then I'll probably have already ctb.

 

[Jadeith]

Was told my whole childhood and teen life that i'm handsome. By my parents and my brother. Liars....
Twenty fuckin' years for anyone - male, female, ANYONE - to show slightest interest in this "handsomeness".
After 21 years of nothing - One. 1. Eins - female showed some interest . And as i later found out, it was a form of revenge on her ex.
So yea. Only reason i tolerate mirrors is because they are bloody expensive to smash and i'd have shitton of explaining to do.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

nobody pays attention to me

I mean, unless you can read other people's thoughts, you don't know if they are paying attention to you or not. Also, I've heard some people claim that usually people don't tend to approach those they find to be very attractive out of intimidation and that most people prefer to approach those they just find okay looking. I have no clue how true that is, but if it is, then that only further points to the fact that you can't determine how attractive you are based on how many people you perceive to be paying attention to you or approaching you.

 

[Off_Switch]

Quite possibly the saddest aspect of human life is that luck, whether it be aesthetic or financial, is distributed so unevenly among the population.

 

[Wolf Girl]

I hear you... I'm not widely considered attractive and I'm losing my hair now. Just a few hours ago I was sobbing hysterically over this.

I hope you can at least get a small break from the painful thoughts today.

 

[Dejected 55]

I'm going to be the weird one here. Growing up I always thought I was ugly. I still don't think I'm anywhere near handsome, but I don't think I'm ugly anymore. I've been obese and in great shape, at various times over my life span too.

The truth for me, though... regardless of how I feel (or felt) I looked, I've been treated the same. I honestly do not believe my physical appearance has held me back. I mean, maybe it destroyed my chances of a career in the NBA (not really!) but I never gained or lost a job because of how I looked... and sure, maybe there are girls who didn't find me handsome... but I don't think any of the countless women who have rejected me in my life did so because of how I looked.

And for me... the women I've found most attractive, it had very little to do with what I thought of them physically. By which I mean, I've never been a guy that gawked at women. I don't see physically attractive women and "want" them. I can appreciate beauty in the traditional sense, sure... and I'm sure I probably looked more at a pretty girl than one I didn't initially see as pretty... but my experience has always been mostly disinterest if all I knew was how you look, and more interest if I talked with you and liked the person you are... and I definitely find the more I get to talk to a woman and like who she is inside, the more I look at her and find her attractive on the outside. More than a few times I've gushed over women and my friends at the time would look at me like I was crazy because they didn't find her attractive at all... because I guess they just looked at the outside and didn't know them like I did.

Anyway, the long and short of it is... I know society places too much importance on beauty, and I know traditionally beautiful people do seem to get more chances and good breaks... and that is both unfair and hurtful to the rest of us... and I also know some people truly are considered "ugly" by society and largely discarded or ignored, and that is very sad to me also... but I also know that the way we look really isn't as meaningful as the way we treat people. There is great debate as to why some bad people do better than some good people in the world... but it usually isn't about how they look when they do the good or bad thing.

 

[mirror_mercury]

"ugly" people still have sex

looks matched people, match with looks matched people

hollywood standards have warped our perceptions of what's right and what's wrong

stop watching mainstream media

how do you think "ugly" people continue to exist? because "ugly" people make children with "ugly" people

take a look in the mirror, and find someone just like you

 

[Galam]

It is unbelievable hard to be ugly, other people cannot feel any empathy with us.

Today I had stomache pain maybe from too much Vitamin A and nobody was there to look after me. Nobody cares. This is always like that. 2020, 2023 I had pain for months and weeks from noise by neightbours above me, shingles and ovarian cysts and 2024 from bullying by mental health workers and my mother because she abandoned me, I cannot believe that I am still alive but I just sit and lay in my room watch some tv and internet until I have no money and become homeless or I am dead.

Sometimes I think about using some apps to connect with other women (traveling, shared room), maybe I could buy a escort (not cheap and it is disgusting but I can't find anybody here easy so if I want some nice hours this could be the way). But then I feel no, I just hope to get a cardiac arrest in my deep sleep. I hate my surroundings and how things work against me. I do not really want to have some experiences with ohers. I just feel a urge and hate it and it is so difficult to fullfill my needs because others attack me for my body.

I would move free if I could have bodies like Chance Perez or Jannik Schümann have.

"ugly" people still have sex

looks matched people, match with looks matched people

hollywood standards have warped our perceptions of what's right and what's wrong

stop watching mainstream media

how do you think "ugly" people continue to exist? because "ugly" people make children with "ugly" people

take a look in the mirror, and find someone just like you

Ugly people have intercourse with each other - which is not bad but - and create children.

I am one of this children. I never had a good life an my ugly father abandoned the family. I had a life only in poverty, it was not a life. Today I had pain in my stomache and here is nobody who cares. Nobody. I only could ask perplexity and then I was so tired so I was falling asleep again. I woke up today at 11:00 (german time) because my neighbour made noise. Then I tried to sleep to 13:00 and ate some cake, soup, Vitamin A (reason for my pain maybe), Iron and thyroid supplements. Then I had stomache pain for maybe 20 minuts or longer. I lay down to sleep and woke up 22:00 with no stomache pain but with not much energy either.
Then I ate something again, drank some cola, search the internet. I maybe become homeless, so I searched for free wifi options and cracking tools to get access to wpa2 key passwords without success. I maybe watch some stupid fail videos online until 03:00 then I go to sleep again.
This is my day and all the other days are similar. Is this a good life? For me not. And it will not be better when I am become homeless.

 

[Daphne]

My friends are big and not attractive by Hollywood standards but they found each other and are happy. Both have great careers. Both are extraverted friendly people with good personalities and smarts.
Personality matters more than looks imo.

 

[RestlessTaiga]

People say that looks don't matter, and I guess to a certain point it really doesn't, but if you don't have a "good" personality, nobody will truly like you.

 

[Hellis]

Parents gave me the ugly genes then they are like give me grandchildren like???? Fuck them and fuck this and fuck life

 

[swankysoup]

I hear you... I'm not widely considered attractive and I'm losing my hair now. Just a few hours ago I was sobbing hysterically over this.

I hope you can at least get a small break from the painful thoughts today.

Are you thinking about treating your hair loss with medicine?

 

[PI3.14]

This is one of the things that made me depressed. I'm not ugly on the face, but I'm short.

Unfortunately meds and therapy can't fix this no matter how much money you throw at them.

Attractiveness or beauty matters a lot unfortunately, saying otherwise goes against natural selection actually.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I'm ugly. It sucks. The only coping mechanism I developed was to avoid mirrors and try to forget what I look like. Thank God we can't see our own faces without a mirror. Being ugly makes a huge difference in how people treat me. Just nature taking its course.

 

[Irisse]

Same here, I also avoid mirrors. I am 25 but look 40-50 due to my weight and everyone calls me maam. I do plan to looksmaxx before my ctb. The difference in how I was treated before and after gaining weight is enormous. I don't miss the unwanted attention, though.

 

[ih34rty0u]

i know exactly how you feel. im 20 and haven't even had my first kiss. nobody was ever interested in me. i kept changing everything about my appearance and it was no use.

now im stuck with an eating disorder just because i wanted to finally be pretty enough to be loved. and im still ugly.

i guess you get used to it after being alone for so many years, but it still hurts the same. i just wanted to be normal.