Venting Being suicidal without Depression

[Dinistro]

Hi~ :3, lately I have noticed that despite my life being quite amazing (I have a gf, home, family, a job, money, studies which I like, No hard illnesses, and no war around), there is still this thought which shows itself before sleep...

"Climb on the roof, close your eyes and let the wind do its work"​

I have it quite often, and the weirdest par of it, is the fact im not depressed, cause I got over it few years ago.
So why then does it still cross my mind? Why suicide is something my mind craves, while my surrounding's great?
I survived so much throughout these years, made so many promises to God (Or Whatever higher being there is), yet my mind is still broken...

 

[Secro]

Perhaps it's simply a habit, if you really have no reason.
Incidentally, you don't have to be depressed to want to die.

 

[sleepytime5]

Hi~ :3, lately I have noticed that despite my life being quite amazing (I have a gf, home, family, a job, money, studies which I like, No hard illnesses, and no war around), there is still this thought which shows itself before sleep...

"Climb on the roof, close your eyes and let the wind do its work"​

I have it quite often, and the weirdest par of it, is the fact im not depressed, cause I got over it few years ago.
So why then does it still cross my mind? Why suicide is something my mind craves, while my surrounding's great?
I survived so much throughout these years, made so many promises to God (Or Whatever higher being there is), yet my mind is still broken...View attachment 207830

Yeah fucking tell me about it, this is me, I started of feeling suicidal when I had barely any problems, quickly got over it, then some mental health problems started sending me right back, I am diagnosed bipolar, but the funny thing is even in manic episodes (supposedly euphoric) I punch myself A LOT and want to end it. I just feel like that's the way to go no matter what. Idk I hate the way we exist and how fragile we are, it feels like I can't calm myself down any other way, I can't feel like anything is ever alright

 

[chillino]

Maybe try ketamin-therap, it can help to end thesw suicidal thoughts

 

[nayomi]

i mean you can think that life is shit but get into a space that the fact life is shit doesnt mean you need to feel bad. so you still have suicidal belifes but you managed to disconnect them from bad feelings
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