Discussion Being suicidal made me think more about the small pleasures in life but there is a twist.

[NaughtyGirl]

When I think about the possibility that soon I may not be here anymore it suddenly dawns on me how many nice small things there are in this life. Eating a donut, hugging a pillow, petting my dog, watching funny videos on youtube etc. Whenever this happens I start to feel really sad.

The twist is, being appreciative of those small things doesn't stop me from being suicidal. You'd think that once a person learns to value little things, the life would be a breeze, yet it's not.

 

[toforigivelife]

Only when you are otherwise healthy, stable and have stability as far as finances, your living situation, relationships, etc. but are just feeling mildly or moderately depressed do the little things you enjoy bring you any sense of comfort.

When you have a mental illness, chronic clinical depression or facing a life collapse or crisis that brings you to the point of wanting to end your life you appreciate the small pleasures but these small pleasures just aren't enough to sustain you.

My hope for you is that enjoying life's simple pleasures is a sign of recovery, a recovery that will bring you out of this dark place. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make that the case for you.

But, despite how others may feel about it, only you have the right to judge your quality of life and how dire your situation is.

Wishing you peace and healing, regardless of what decision you come to.

 

[Ash]

So true! That's why I don't do those "things I'm grateful for" exercises. I know they help a lot of people and I'm glad they do. But I can't help but observe that more than one truth can exist at the same time. I can be grateful for x, y & z but still want to ctb. One doesn't negate the other.

 

[Mr2005]

When I think about the possibility that soon I may not be here anymore it suddenly dawns on me how many nice small things there are in this life. Eating a donut, hugging a pillow, petting my dog, watching funny videos on youtube etc. Whenever this happens I start to feel really sad.

The twist is, being appreciative of those small things doesn't stop me from being suicidal. You'd think that once a person learns to value little things, the life would be a breeze, yet it's not.

Yeah I know how you feel. I think some people have chosen to be dead inside to go through with it but the likelihood is if they have to do that they won't do it. It's a negative path to go down, I 've learned to love the little things even more if you can call a sunrise little. I'm in awe of the beauty of this world and by comparison just a tiny speck of dust who's problems are insignificant

 

[Bone]

these little things are barely keeping me going rn, but tbh they always remind me of when i used to enjoy them when my life was much better, making things worse :(

 

[exhausteduntreatable]

Really? That's interesting. I take pleasure in nothing. But I often see the things I used to enjoy or hear someone talking about something I used to also really like and I feel very melancholic.

 

[Darkover]

i hate eating pooping sleeping peeing and being at the mercy of my emotion,s i hate being enslaved in a machine i have so little control over, everything we do is caused by forces over which we have no control 86 billion neurons in the brain.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think for me, at this point I cannot even enjoy small pleasures. Even know I was still suicidal, in the past I was able to. Everything I do now is just to pass the time. There is absolutely no enjoyment. I just feel empty, like I have already died. There is nothing I will miss about this world, and I think that is a sign that I need to leave. I'm pleased for you that you can at least appreciate the small things.

 

[edu0z]

it's like even in the happiest moments, you still want to die. It's not that you're really miserable all the time, you just don't want to be here.

 

[Darkmoon Queen]

When I think about the possibility that soon I may not be here anymore it suddenly dawns on me how many nice small things there are in this life. Eating a donut, hugging a pillow, petting my dog, watching funny videos on youtube etc. Whenever this happens I start to feel really sad.

The twist is, being appreciative of those small things doesn't stop me from being suicidal. You'd think that once a person learns to value little things, the life would be a breeze, yet it's not.

I've done this and it's because the little things aren't purpose and security. If you think of job security and healthy social circle as a cruise ship, funny Youtube videos and donuts are more like debris on the water. They'll stop you drowning for a bit but they won't take you anywhere or provide any comfort.

People who tell you to appreciate the small things clearly don't ONLY have small things. I'd like to see them try it for a while, they wouldn't last two minutes.

 

[toforigivelife]

I've done this and it's because the little things aren't purpose and security. If you think of job security and healthy social circle as a cruise ship, funny Youtube videos and donuts are more like debris on the water. They'll stop you drowning for a bit but they won't take you anywhere or provide any comfort.

People who tell you to appreciate the small things clearly don't ONLY have small things. I'd like to see them try it for a while, they wouldn't last two minutes.

Well said. Well said.

 

[forgotten15]

When I think about the possibility that soon I may not be here anymore it suddenly dawns on me how many nice small things there are in this life. Eating a donut, hugging a pillow, petting my dog, watching funny videos on youtube etc. Whenever this happens I start to feel really sad.

The twist is, being appreciative of those small things doesn't stop me from being suicidal. You'd think that once a person learns to value little things, the life would be a breeze, yet it's not.

I feel the same. I get melancholic thinking I won't ever see the sunset or feel the wind, but I realise things won't ever get better so i try to supress these emotions and focus on gathering my courage to exit this life.

it's like even in the happiest moments, you still want to die. It's not that you're really miserable all the time, you just don't want to be here.

Couldn't have expressed better