Being single and always being rejected by men is the biggest reason why I am suicidal and hate my life

[FireFox]

This week I visited Hyde Park for a day trip all by myself and I had a great time until I went into the parks cafe. I was sitting by all myself eating a meal it was so hard so seeing all the other couples having a meal together while I am just eating alone wondering why I am so hard to love and i feel like a freak and a failure of a woman because I have been always unsuccessful with men. I am 26 and never had a boyfriend. I always thought by now I would be in a relationship.

All my life male rejection is all have ever known first my dad abandoned my mum when she was pregnant with me to start a new family with another woman then as a teen I experienced boys constantly rejecting me.I had the confidence to talk to boys, but nobody wanted to know me instead the boys builled me for being the werid girl. In adulthood its still the same no one guy wants to know my name or the real me. I make the effort to know the guys I like, show genuine interest in their lives all I get is constant humiliation, disrespect and rejection from men.

Never having a boyfriend I feel completely disconnected from women my age because they can't relate to loneliness of always being that unwanted girl then women while all the other women get chosen and be seen as that mans special person in their life. I can't relete to other women who share their relationship problems and bond with other women over it, i experienced friends leaving and excluding me once they have a boyfriend. Seeing rescently more women I grew up with getting married I just can't cope anymore its a terrible reminder of how I have always been that girl then women no man ever chose and saw as special.

I am so tired of arseholes on reddit or discord groups telling me how I should go gym, put myself " out there" as if it is so easy. My body is slim, petite, feminine bur still it is not enough. I have natural confidence to talk to people but it's NOT FUCKING ENOUGH. I asked guys out in the past and st the last minute they dump me.

I am tired of people in the real world telling me how "lucky" I am to be single and how "I have plenty of time" or " you are still young" NONE OF THESE PEOPLE GET IT TO BE REJECTED ALL YOUR LIFE and feeling time is running out and being that girl at school no boy ever wanted and now being that woman who never has man see her, the real her

I watched a YouTube video of women being upset over being 30 and single I am actually terrified this will be me in the future which is why i have planned to kill myself at 30 and just enjoy my remaining 20s. There millions of reasons why I want to kill myself. Being single at 26 already is a lifetime.I hate being single its so lonely and confusing. I do loads of fun outdoor activities by myself and it is so lonely seeing other women having a man holding their hand, giving them love and then no man loves me not even my own father loves me. At 30 no man will want me I will " too old' already I am too old to be single

All I wanted was love. Its too late for me. I can't take it anymore

 

[KayGee147]

It's a very difficult, frustrating and confusing place to be.... I'm feel for you.

I'm kinda in a similar, yet totally different situation. I'm way older than 26 - in my 50s now - and have had many, many relationships. All of which have failed. Yet I see couples in daily life and still wish the same as you wish - to have a mutally loving and respectful relationship.

I wonder why its never happened, it must be me, but I still want it. The fear of never having it and being on my own as I approach old age is deep down my reason to say goodbye.

I hope you get what you want and meet someone soon, one day. Truly. Bless you.

 

[diseasedstreetcat]

is it really a boyfriend you want so bad? in my perception, i think it's reasonable to see other people experiencing a certain bond or emotion and being unable to partake in it, even worse, feeling judged and rejected
but, if you insist you're just that unpopular with men, maybe reconsider about putting that so high up in a pedestal in your priorities. If it is true that you are regularly social, nothing weird about your looks, and you treat people with respect, you're already putting the work in and this is something beyond what you can control, so you should stop judging yourself so much for it. I'm also an adult and i have never had a partner in my life-although mostly out of disinterest, believing i'd never find someone worth dating- but social gratification is so much more than just romance. In fact, the way i experience it, romance is just spicy
friendship. Someone you trust and love, but you also feel this external entrancing thing for them.

Sorry if this isn't really sound advice- much of this relies on just building self esteem and that's something that takes years of constant work. I'm just saying from someone that has a support system, you can feel genuine comfort and peace in life even without romance.

 

[Division Day]

It's so hard to feel this way. I get the same experience of seeing people together and knowing I'll be alone until I die. I've had a couple of relationships but the last was several years ago now and I'm way worse than I was then.

 

[tiredone]

Shame you are on other side of the ocean. With what you written about yourself, it seems like you are a well decent female. I am surprised you cannot find bf. Especially in big city like that.

 

[tiger b]

From reading your post, I can't help but be baffled why this is the case - that you are unwillingly single. Your annoyance and confusion at this state of affairs are understandable.

I don't personally believe what you are saying about becoming 30 and nobody wanting you is necessarily true. But that's just my opinion.

I'm glad you seem to appreciate yourself. You seem to be confident (despite the disgusting bullying) and know yourself pretty well so I doubt there's anything I can think of 'doing' that you haven't already thought of yourself.

Men as a generalisation can be poor at scratching below the surface, but is this taking blindness to a higher level or what.

When you roll a dice, it's possible to get strange patterns. There's always luck in finding a partner and maybe yours is yet to come. Tomorrow hopefully. I don't know. Apologies, that seems pithy and just frilly. I wish you all the best.

Shame you are on other side of the ocean. With what you written about yourself, it seems like you are a well decent female. I am surprised you cannot find bf. Especially in big city like that.

London wasn't voted the lonliest city on the planet for nothing.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

I failed to find a longterm partner as well. I'm 46 F. In my case I believe having come from child abuse and neglect, father absent home contributed to my outcome. I had poor self esteem even though I was attractive when young. I gave sex away like candy to men who I barely knew, and I lacked the skills or maturity to really be in an adult relationship with a guy. Sorry u are in this situation but I think you're still young enough to turn this around. I'm not sure why u aren't meeting anyone but I hope u can find some kind of help with this.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

There's nothing wrong with being single. There are a lot of single people out there who are just as, if not happier, than most people in romantic relationships. Romantic relationships are overrated. There are also plenty of people who don't end up finding a partner until they are older anyway. I am sorry that you keep on getting rejected. That sounds pretty awful to go through.

 

[godsseepiestsoldier]

I feel that hard ngl. I was always the butt of the ask them out or make them a valentines card as a joke (which was the only valentines i ever got). Ive only rlly had grooming relationships when i was young which didnt last long bc i grew up and I often rlly wish i could go back to them as pathetic as it sounds and ive tried desperately to get back in contanct with them over the years only to be rejected bc im too old now. Dont wanna go on too much but wishing you the best youve got time to turn this around i believe in u.

 

[LikeAPendulum]

Loneliness has been eating away at me for the past weeks. I can hold up some small talk or even reel a girl in with good food and a good night; I have all these skills and can learn so much more but I just don't know where, when, and how to shoot my shot. There's been moments where I could've struck gold, but I was too scared of failure.

Maybe things would be better if I didn't end up with both daddy and mommy issues.

 

[whateverr]

This week I visited Hyde Park for a day trip all by myself and I had a great time until I went into the parks cafe. I was sitting by all myself eating a meal it was so hard so seeing all the other couples having a meal together while I am just eating alone wondering why I am so hard to love and i feel like a freak and a failure of a woman because I have been always unsuccessful with men. I am 26 and never had a boyfriend. I always thought by now I would be in a relationship.

All my life male rejection is all have ever known first my dad abandoned my mum when she was pregnant with me to start a new family with another woman then as a teen I experienced boys constantly rejecting me.I had the confidence to talk to boys, but nobody wanted to know me instead the boys builled me for being the werid girl. In adulthood its still the same no one guy wants to know my name or the real me. I make the effort to know the guys I like, show genuine interest in their lives all I get is constant humiliation, disrespect and rejection from men.

Never having a boyfriend I feel completely disconnected from women my age because they can't relate to loneliness of always being that unwanted girl then women while all the other women get chosen and be seen as that mans special person in their life. I can't relete to other women who share their relationship problems and bond with other women over it, i experienced friends leaving and excluding me once they have a boyfriend. Seeing rescently more women I grew up with getting married I just can't cope anymore its a terrible reminder of how I have always been that girl then women no man ever chose and saw as special.

I am so tired of arseholes on reddit or discord groups telling me how I should go gym, put myself " out there" as if it is so easy. My body is slim, petite, feminine bur still it is not enough. I have natural confidence to talk to people but it's NOT FUCKING ENOUGH. I asked guys out in the past and st the last minute they dump me.

I am tired of people in the real world telling me how "lucky" I am to be single and how "I have plenty of time" or " you are still young" NONE OF THESE PEOPLE GET IT TO BE REJECTED ALL YOUR LIFE and feeling time is running out and being that girl at school no boy ever wanted and now being that woman who never has man see her, the real her

I watched a YouTube video of women being upset over being 30 and single I am actually terrified this will be me in the future which is why i have planned to kill myself at 30 and just enjoy my remaining 20s. There millions of reasons why I want to kill myself. Being single at 26 already is a lifetime.I hate being single its so lonely and confusing. I do loads of fun outdoor activities by myself and it is so lonely seeing other women having a man holding their hand, giving them love and then no man loves me not even my own father loves me. At 30 no man will want me I will " too old' already I am too old to be single

All I wanted was love. Its too late for me. I can't take it anymore

Stop trying so hard. Men rarely respond well to that shit. Fair warning though, I know how to get what I want from women, and I still want to kill myself. Suicidal ideation is probably a disease, if I had to guess.

 

[sserafim]

My crush agreed to hang out with me but he rejected me. It was only one-sided, unrequited love. It's okay though, I honestly don't care anymore.

 

[whateverr]

My crush agreed to hang out with me but he rejected me. It was only one-sided, unrequited love. It's okay though, I honestly don't care anymore.

Said it to someone else in this thread. If you're the chick in a straight situation, trying less will always work better. Don't even think about a guy until you're 6 dates in or something like that.

 

[sserafim]

This week I visited Hyde Park for a day trip all by myself and I had a great time until I went into the parks cafe. I was sitting by all myself eating a meal it was so hard so seeing all the other couples having a meal together while I am just eating alone wondering why I am so hard to love and i feel like a freak and a failure of a woman because I have been always unsuccessful with men. I am 26 and never had a boyfriend. I always thought by now I would be in a relationship.

All my life male rejection is all have ever known first my dad abandoned my mum when she was pregnant with me to start a new family with another woman then as a teen I experienced boys constantly rejecting me.I had the confidence to talk to boys, but nobody wanted to know me instead the boys builled me for being the werid girl. In adulthood its still the same no one guy wants to know my name or the real me. I make the effort to know the guys I like, show genuine interest in their lives all I get is constant humiliation, disrespect and rejection from men.

Never having a boyfriend I feel completely disconnected from women my age because they can't relate to loneliness of always being that unwanted girl then women while all the other women get chosen and be seen as that mans special person in their life. I can't relete to other women who share their relationship problems and bond with other women over it, i experienced friends leaving and excluding me once they have a boyfriend. Seeing rescently more women I grew up with getting married I just can't cope anymore its a terrible reminder of how I have always been that girl then women no man ever chose and saw as special.

I am so tired of arseholes on reddit or discord groups telling me how I should go gym, put myself " out there" as if it is so easy. My body is slim, petite, feminine bur still it is not enough. I have natural confidence to talk to people but it's NOT FUCKING ENOUGH. I asked guys out in the past and st the last minute they dump me.

I am tired of people in the real world telling me how "lucky" I am to be single and how "I have plenty of time" or " you are still young" NONE OF THESE PEOPLE GET IT TO BE REJECTED ALL YOUR LIFE and feeling time is running out and being that girl at school no boy ever wanted and now being that woman who never has man see her, the real her

I watched a YouTube video of women being upset over being 30 and single I am actually terrified this will be me in the future which is why i have planned to kill myself at 30 and just enjoy my remaining 20s. There millions of reasons why I want to kill myself. Being single at 26 already is a lifetime.I hate being single its so lonely and confusing. I do loads of fun outdoor activities by myself and it is so lonely seeing other women having a man holding their hand, giving them love and then no man loves me not even my own father loves me. At 30 no man will want me I will " too old' already I am too old to be single

All I wanted was love. Its too late for me. I can't take it anymore

I love London and Hyde Park. Sadly I'm from and live across the pond though.

 

[Orbitc]

This week I visited Hyde Park for a day trip all by myself and I had a great time until I went into the parks cafe. I was sitting by all myself eating a meal it was so hard so seeing all the other couples having a meal together while I am just eating alone wondering why I am so hard to love and i feel like a freak and a failure of a woman because I have been always unsuccessful with men. I am 26 and never had a boyfriend. I always thought by now I would be in a relationship.

All my life male rejection is all have ever known first my dad abandoned my mum when she was pregnant with me to start a new family with another woman then as a teen I experienced boys constantly rejecting me.I had the confidence to talk to boys, but nobody wanted to know me instead the boys builled me for being the werid girl. In adulthood its still the same no one guy wants to know my name or the real me. I make the effort to know the guys I like, show genuine interest in their lives all I get is constant humiliation, disrespect and rejection from men.

Never having a boyfriend I feel completely disconnected from women my age because they can't relate to loneliness of always being that unwanted girl then women while all the other women get chosen and be seen as that mans special person in their life. I can't relete to other women who share their relationship problems and bond with other women over it, i experienced friends leaving and excluding me once they have a boyfriend. Seeing rescently more women I grew up with getting married I just can't cope anymore its a terrible reminder of how I have always been that girl then women no man ever chose and saw as special.

I am so tired of arseholes on reddit or discord groups telling me how I should go gym, put myself " out there" as if it is so easy. My body is slim, petite, feminine bur still it is not enough. I have natural confidence to talk to people but it's NOT FUCKING ENOUGH. I asked guys out in the past and st the last minute they dump me.

I am tired of people in the real world telling me how "lucky" I am to be single and how "I have plenty of time" or " you are still young" NONE OF THESE PEOPLE GET IT TO BE REJECTED ALL YOUR LIFE and feeling time is running out and being that girl at school no boy ever wanted and now being that woman who never has man see her, the real her

I watched a YouTube video of women being upset over being 30 and single I am actually terrified this will be me in the future which is why i have planned to kill myself at 30 and just enjoy my remaining 20s. There millions of reasons why I want to kill myself. Being single at 26 already is a lifetime.I hate being single its so lonely and confusing. I do loads of fun outdoor activities by myself and it is so lonely seeing other women having a man holding their hand, giving them love and then no man loves me not even my own father loves me. At 30 no man will want me I will " too old' already I am too old to be single

All I wanted was love. Its too late for me. I can't take it anymore

Sorry, but I will never be able to understand you - I have been working as an escort since I was 15 years old and every day I see men cheating on their wives. I will never even say hello to a man for free (if he is interested in me as a woman, I mean) because I have no desire to allow someone to use me for free. All men are absolutely the same - they will exchange you for a younger pussy if there is an opportunity. I'm over 30 years old and I've also never had a relationship because I don't need that kind of crap - I don't want to be in the place of my clients' wives))

 

[Lys_C15H25N3O_d3]

.... and thats why this generation's overwhelming majority suffered from really messed up "relationships" (who turned out to become the "elope" cases) - that is, "get married and BE A MAN, honor the woman whose womb shares the same DNA as your own" (ok that was "what it was like to be an average-low "man".... Of course that's ancient thinking, old mindset. Nowadays most people (myself included a decade earlier) quickly get togheter, then months later one is cheating the other regardless....



What is INTERESTING is the fact that SO MANY PEOPLE "CRAVE FOR THE RIGHTS OF THE MINORITIES" yeah? but at the same are so quick to claim that EVEN IF almost 90% or more of "men" are these abominations i only hear and read about.. does that mean 100% with no exception, that EVERY SINGLE "man" is this despicable anomaly?". I couldn't care less if anyone had ever said "yo bro this "gentleman's act doesn't get you into bed with women, they like X Y Z (as if you can sort out women by "what you think they want, what you have what you don't" - that's a horrible yet accurate example of the "The Triumph of collective ignorance" dumb thought permeating/shaping society "




"Men only want easy **x, deceving young, naive, hollow girls"
"Women only want stupid men with money cars and benefits" =O




Doesn't that look like "generalizing???"



- Simply : There's still some of us, who were never looking for "easy ways to have meaningless physical contact" no matter what you think of it.

And of course we are a minority. We who think women deserve to be treated with respect, "the old ways matter" being first and above all:


"friends, accomplices, lovers and partners" all at the same time





i've had known a childhood schoolmate.. who, for some twist of fate ended up with an early pregnancy, was dumped by her family, lived hell with her "boyfriend/husband" until he dumped both to fend for themselves in the middle of nowhere (nowhere where the girl had parents/friends), she had to become an escort to make ends meet, to care for her kid and to afford a roof above. If not for the boy, who should be about... i dunno 15 to 17 years today? she said she would have killed herself. Just hope the dude who fell in love with her (rented and built her own "hairdresser saloon" or whatever the name is, took care of the kid as his own, no propaganda. i hope he really saw her value, not measured in "money or time", but character (why women worry so much about being "chop-stick thin?" or "forced-labor-camp-skinny?" (yeah the media we know)




For a tough girl who says "I'd rather spend 30min with any random asshole and never have to look at him again than go through a lifetime of empty promises and lies" - thats really remarkable, she could have hired someone to put 2 on the back of his head and "call it a day", instead she said the kid was her only reason to stop smoking crack (beautiful romantic story huh? they should make a disney movie about it)



It enrages me why so many women "must" go through such hardships, it enrages even more THE MAJORITY of them have gone through similar suffering - It encourages this culture of "faulty, liars, cheaters". It also encourages (with reason) both men and women to self-deprecate themselves and "learn to live with it" - because someone who lies, cheats, e;g: "changes his 30's wife for a young girl on her 21s" simply SHOULD NOT be ALLOWED to COMPLAIN about "being LONELY AND REJECTED" period.



Then whoever, even mentally , suggests: "Bro, you are an autistic deluded projection of what a flimsy XVII century "gentleman" would be like, we are in the 2020s get over it" Well should we "invoke our rights as being part of a decreasing minority of old-school type of men?"



Or "oh its progress let's accept it!" double-standards are as fun as lighting up a rocket holding its tube the opposite way, or as irritating as "pointing someone a finger (while, on the same hand, having 3 others pointing back at you)"







i would regret typing that much if only "My 2 cents" couldn't easily become 20 bucks, like everyone says: "People are always the issue, for everything, people (not me) are to blame" (sarcastic-huggie-smiley) at least all this drama will soon be over, oh i'm glad



Thank you for letting me venting! this issue has quite a major impact with timetables and public transportation schedules a.k.a "crowded buses - long waiting time"