Being single all throughout my life has finally broken me beyond repair.

[FireFox]

I am 24 and feel like I have been a single woman forever. I used to be a happy loving confident caring person who wanted to do so much with their lives but now I am dead inside incapable of experiencing happiness or any joy and angry at all the men who have caused me pain throughout my life.

I forgave my father for never being there me but some days I am absoultely angry at my father for rejecting me before I was born and having to grow up with the difficulties of living with a single mother. Never having a father I never got to saw what a loving normal relationship looks like or how a man supposed to treat a woman . Every guy I ever liked I gave them love, cared for them, took an interest in who they were as a people but they never did same for me. I am so angry at all the guys that rejected, ignored and just humiliated me at school and also in adulthood too. I am angry at all my classmates who never stood up for me when the boys humiliated me at school and just laughed along. I stood up myself at school but I wish someone stood up me. I am angry at all the boys who only showed an "interest" in me for a joke with their friends and just made fun of me. I am angry at all men who never really tried to see the real person I am and just overlooked me because I am not a supermodel dream woman.

I hate society for perpetuating a system that allows young boys and men to treat girls and women like sh*t with no consequences and hate the people in the society who participated in the system enabling this behaviour. I f*cking hate society for focusing on physical beauty rather kindness of a person's heart .

I hate f*cking hate the world because the world inhabits the most evil, selfish species of all to time it is called the human race. Human race throughout centuries has brought nothing but suffering to their fellow human being. I want world war 3 to happen to wipe out this piece of sh*t species. I am a piece of sh*t human too. Humanity isn't worth saving anymore.

All I wanted was to be loved and appreciated by a man like every other woman my age has had. Maybe I was made to rejected by men. I realise maybe I am the sickness or the problem.

Being single all my life has finally broken me, I have finally lost my sanity and everything thay was good about me.Its too late for me.

I am now in the final years of my life which will be spent no longer caring about anything and just living dangerously.

 

[death137]

I'm a man but same age as you (I will be 25 next month though) and I've been single all my life. It's depressing but the worst thing is looks affect your life in general. Sadly life never began for some of us. I remember you saying you plan to live until the age of 30. I don't like being positive about life but I will say I hope you get what you desire.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Honestly I wish I stayed a virgin and never dated as it wasn't meant for me it only made me have regrets. I'm still a constant observer of the social people who date and have friends. Looks and social skills determined everything I try to stop blaming myself but I'm tired of being in this purgatory.
Also I would like to add that I remember the pain and loneliness you're experiencing I still feel it now however it's worse knowing I experienced relationships that hurt me more. I wish I stayed a virgin and kept them as friends I would feel so much better rn lol knowing they didn't score with me

 

[FireFox]

I'm a man but same age as you (I will be 25 next month though) and I've been single all my life. It's depressing but the worst thing is looks affect your life in general. Sadly life never began for some of us. I remember you saying you plan to live until the age of 30. I don't like being positive about life but I will say I hope you get what you desire.

@death137
The worst thing about being single all your life is majority of people just do not understand how truly lonely and confusing being single is. I feel like an outsider unable to connect with or relate with women my own age. Most women my age had boyfriend as teenagers and these relationships defined their teenage years. When people talk about their past relationships I feel so left out because I can't relate to it because I never had one. Going through teenage years and seeing my friend get a boyfriend and all the other girls get a boyfriend I felt like everyone was growing up.

It is the norm to have a boyfriend as a teenager.

When I talk to older women on online fourms about the misery being single and my looks has brought me they literally do not understand at all and shows in their replies. Total f*cking morons they are. I mentioned how I hate having brown eyes.

I said blue, green eyes or any other eye colours are beautiful because they stand out and are visbly appealing to look at. When it comes to brown eyes the iris and the pupil together is just bland, no vibrancy and just looks like a pool of mud. This is the worst eye colour ever.

When is your birthday I will wish you happy birthday on the day.

 

[WadeingThru]

I have finally lost my sanity and everything thay was good about me.Its too late for me.

I am now in the final years of my life which will be spent no longer caring about anything and just living dangerously.

What about your child? Are you worried that living dangerously might have a negative affect on them? Most men at 24 are not men they're boys. Have you tried men in their 30s?

 

[death137]

@death137
The worst thing about being single all your life is majority of people just do not understand how truly lonely and confusing being single is. I feel like an outsider unable to connect with or relate with women my own age. Most women my age had boyfriend as teenagers and these relationships defined their teenage years. When people talk about their past relationships I feel so left out because I can't relate to it because I never had one. Going through teenage years and seeing my friend get a boyfriend and all the other girls get a boyfriend I felt like everyone was growing up.

It is the norm to have a boyfriend as a teenager.

When I talk to older women on online fourms about the misery being single and my looks has brought me they literally do not understand at all and shows in their replies. Total f*cking morons they are. I mentioned how I hate having brown eyes.

I said blue, green eyes or any other eye colours are beautiful because they stand out and are visbly appealing to look at. When it comes to brown eyes the iris and the pupil together is just bland, no vibrancy and just looks like a pool of mud. This is the worst eye colour ever.

When is your birthday I will wish you happy birthday on the day.

March 22

 

[Jack4230]

Same I'm 19 and have never had a single romantic moment and probably never well

 

[grungeCat]

I am a 22-year-old boy (I wouldn't call myself a man) and I'm still a virgin, never even had any romantic relationship. Both men and women made fun of me and mocked me constantly during school years.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Never getting to experience love, while others around you enjoy it, is one of the worst torments.

 

[Darkover]

tormented existence full of betrayal neglect abuse repression terrible health problems economic hardship in a hellhole thats why its better to never have any children because life cause more harm then good

 

[LoneMisery]

Im same boat ive been single my whole life till 2020 i had a gf for 8 months and she lied about stuff now i feel that im so right about myself. That nobody will ever love me like others love each other. Its such a damned feeling. I know theres someone out there for all of us. The chances are too high. 8 billion people in the world theres someone out there but its hard to find them when qere in our state of depression. I hope a real man comes and sweeps you off your feet and treats you like you deserve

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to deal with all this pain. Some people are just so cruel and are capable of making our lives much worse. It is such a horrible world we live in. I wish you the best.

 

[FireFox]

I am a 22-year-old boy (I wouldn't call myself a man) and I'm still a virgin, never even had any romantic relationship. Both men and women made fun of me and mocked me constantly during school years.

@grungeCat
Virual hug

I wish adults and society can be more honest about how bullying and the toxic the school system really is. My stepfather was telling my teenage sister "school years are the best"
I told him its just not true. I explained to him how I had the worst time ever in school. He still maintained school years are better. I have met plenty of older people who say school years were the best years of their life.

I enjoyed university and work more than I ever did with school.

Being the unpopular kid in school is the worst. I wished I was the pretty and popular girl because I would no longer be builled. I saw how better the pretty and popular girls were treated. The boys were so nice to them and people wanted to be thier friend as they were seen as cool.

What about your child? Are you worried that living dangerously might have a negative affect on them? Most men at 24 are not men they're boys. Have you tried men in their 30s?

@WadeingThru I have not got a child. I have pretty much given up on all hope of ever finding love. I realise now I am the problem.

- My looks are dull and boring not super pretty and interesting. Being a black woman just doesn't help either. I belong in a racial group that is constantly disrespected and is not desired as much compared to other racial groups.

I hate absolutely hate my brown eyes and black hair. I wish I was a pretty blonde at least will men notice me for once and will date me.
We live in a shallow society that will always value physical beauty rather than a persons true personality. I cant win anymore.

 

[Life_isover128]

Same situation for me

 

[FireFox]

Never getting to experience love, while others around you enjoy it, is one of the worst torments.

@Hidden Base
Nobody ever teaches you how to survive be single. Growing up if I read a womens magazine or lifestyle magazines there was plenty of articles on how to deal with a break up or what to buy for your partner or places to go vist with your partner.

There was never any articles on how to
- survive being single especially if everyone around you is coupled up
- how to deal with being a virgin in your 20s
I f*cking hate society for centering every thing on couples and neglecting single people.

tormented existence full of betrayal neglect abuse repression terrible health problems economic hardship in a hellhole thats why its better to never have any children because life cause more harm then good

@Darkover
This is why I became an anti natalist when I was 19 years old.
If I could speak to all the mothers of the world who have sons this is what I would say

Dear mothers of the world

Stop f*cking your pampering sons like royalty and start holding them accountable for behaviour.
Please raise your little boy to respect girls by being nice to them, not making fun of their looks with their group of friends and tell your sons to leave the unpopular, weird girl alone at school. She is minding her own business and not hurting anyone. Your piece of sh*t sons made fun of my looks, pretended to like me for a joke with thier friends.

All I wanted was to be loved and appreciated but your piece of sh*t sons thought it would be funny to humiliate me at school and making my teenage years miserable and lonely. I was nice but your piece of sh*t sons never cared to know to me.

Words f*cking hurt and can damage people beyond recognition, tell your son this. I am walking suicidal time bomb ridiculed with insecurities all because of your piece of sh*t sons thought it was funny to mess with my emotions throughout the years.

Now your piece of sh*t sons will grow up to be arsehole men because you allowed them to be behave like total d*cks towards girls with no accountability for thier replusive behavior.

Girls are not a game or a sex toy.

We are f*cking humans with real feelings and emotions.

From a
Broken hearted woman committed suicide at 30

 

[Cosmic dust]

I am a 29 years old male, with not a single relationship or a proper date in all my life. I just got rejected all my life, but thankfully, very few people actually made fun of me like that.

For most of my life I have been ashamed of this, because not only people do not understand what is like, but many of them actually look down at people like this, they find it weird and assume there is something wrong.

I would like to say @FireFox , that not every man is like that, but truth be told, the world is full of selfish people and this kind of behavior is not only aceppeted, but often encouraged and seen as a symbol of strength.

I also against everyone being able to have kids, just the mistakes of my parents and of many other users of SS, alone, shows that most people are not able to properly teach kids.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I feel much the same way except I just turned 28 without ever having had a girlfriend, a date, or even a kiss blown in my direction. It feels like it doesn't get any easier with time, which is why I've decided to end it all this year.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I feel much the same way except I just turned 28 without ever having had a girlfriend, a date, or even a kiss blown in my direction. It feels like it doesn't get any easier with time, which is why I've decided to end it all this year.

Honestly I'm jealous of you and wish I never interacted with the men I interacted with just horrible choices on my part due to naivety

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Honestly I'm jealous of you and wish I never interacted with the men I interacted with just horrible choices on my part due to naivety

I can understand that feeling as well since I had chances in the past but erred on the side of caution. I don't know if they would have turned out all bad but I can equally see my life similarly being ruined by getting with the wrong person so I feel for you.

 

[...]

I'd rather of stayed single or at least not in love

 

[whatevs]

I am a 29 years old male, with not a single relationship or a proper date in all my life. I just got rejected all my life, but thankfully, very few people actually made fun of me like that.

For most of my life I have been ashamed of this, because not only people do not understand what is like, but many of them actually look down at people like this, they find it weird and assume there is something wrong.

I would like to say @FireFox , that not every man is like that, but truth be told, the world is full of selfish people and this kind of behavior is not only aceppeted, but often encouraged and seen as a symbol of strength.

I also against everyone being able to have kids, just the mistakes of my parents and of many other users of SS, alone, shows that most people are not able to properly teach kids.

Let's be honest, there must be something "wrong' with us if we never achieved a long lasting sexual relationship (I refuse to call them romantic since they actually spring from the well known instinct of reproduction).

I know that I am chronically ill, live with my parents in the literal basement (looool I love the cultural implications, I chose the room with that in mind), I stink, have dandruff, smelly feet, and lost my ability to orgasm around the age where you should have your first sexual experiences due to physical injury.

There's plenty wrong there. I just don't care about that much anymore. I only had one 5 month relationship in my life around the time I started losing my health and I experienced intense pleasure but horrible pain. The pain was, I think, not worth the merriment and fleeting emotional comfort. If you are defective and weak love is a very dangerous game.

 

[Squalo]

i'm almost 30 and i'm still single, never had a partner, never kissed and never had sex;
for many years I was very sad about this, but by now I have almost resigned myself.
when my time comes I'll die alone.

 

[Yann]

II am in the same place. Nobody has ever shown interest and I have never been in a relationship. It is weird thinking about how this has affected me. I think it affects guys and girls really differently, but at the end of the day it is really damning either way.

I am curious, has anyone here had the problem of not really being attracted to anyone? I know I am ugly and undesirable on pretty much every level. I can deal with that. But weirdly, I haven't really ever felt interested in anyone else either. There's never been a person who I had a crush on or wanted to date. I have always wanted to be loved or have a partner, but there's never been an actual person who comes to mind. Maybe because I've always been so depressed, I lost or never properly developed that capacity.

It is funny too cause even if I did have some hot person interested in me, I don't think I would reciprocate. If I liked them, I would want something better for them. Someone who is nice and attractive.

 

[chocolatebar]

I realized it at the same age as you. I was 24 when I thought about how broken I became and how scarred I am. When I turned 27, I had my first relationship. It wasn't bad, but it did hurt me in many ways. Relationships in this age aren't the same anymore, the same way I'm not the same anymore.

Now, one year and half later, I'm in my second relationship. She was a suicidal like me and we have agreed to just "give it a try" and see how life could be. I don't know if she even likes me or is just taking advantage of me in some ways. I don't like the way she treats me at all. Actually, anyone who listens about this relationship will tell me how I'm an idiot for having not getting out of this already, but what's the alternative? To live alone as in almost all my life? Time is critical for me and I have no more time for getting to know people.

And yes, I'm broken beyond repair.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

@death137
The worst thing about being single all your life is majority of people just do not understand how truly lonely and confusing being single is. I feel like an outsider unable to connect with or relate with women my own age. Most women my age had boyfriend as teenagers and these relationships defined their teenage years. When people talk about their past relationships I feel so left out because I can't relate to it because I never had one. Going through teenage years and seeing my friend get a boyfriend and all the other girls get a boyfriend I felt like everyone was growing up.

It is the norm to have a boyfriend as a teenager.

When I talk to older women on online fourms about the misery being single and my looks has brought me they literally do not understand at all and shows in their replies. Total f*cking morons they are. I mentioned how I hate having brown eyes.

I said blue, green eyes or any other eye colours are beautiful because they stand out and are visbly appealing to look at. When it comes to brown eyes the iris and the pupil together is just bland, no vibrancy and just looks like a pool of mud. This is the worst eye colour ever.

When is your birthday I will wish you happy birthday on the daI

I know this sounds like platitudes but you should consider seeing someone about image issues. I am an ugly guy and I know it rationally, but just by your opinion of your own brown eyes it seems like its not a realistic take on your own image. Brown eyes can be very beautiful and striking, even people who prefer lighter eyes would agree with that statement. I prefer lighter eyes, I have brown eyes, and I still find them pretty to look at. Try shining an orange light into your eyes in a mirror, they'll look like pools of honey.

I am a 29 years old male, with not a single relationship or a proper date in all my life. I just got rejected all my life, but thankfully, very few people actually made fun of me like that.

For most of my life I have been ashamed of this, because not only people do not understand what is like, but many of them actually look down at people like this, they find it weird and assume there is something wrong.

I would like to say @FireFox , that not every man is like that, but truth be told, the world is full of selfish people and this kind of behavior is not only aceppeted, but often encouraged and seen as a symbol of strength.

I also against everyone being able to have kids, just the mistakes of my parents and of many other users of SS, alone, shows that most people are not able to properly teach kids.

I agree that for some reason its seen as a strength to put others down. It feels gross and animistic, like buffalo goring the weak and sick in the heard for no reason, just leaving them to die instead of letting the wolves take care of it.

 

[FireFox]

I know this sounds like platitudes but you should consider seeing someone about image issues. I am an ugly guy and I know it rationally, but just by your opinion of your own brown eyes it seems like its not a realistic take on your own image. Brown eyes can be very beautiful and striking, even people who prefer lighter eyes would agree with that statement. I prefer lighter eyes, I have brown eyes, and I still find them pretty to look at. Try shining an orange light into your eyes in a mirror, they'll look like pools of honey.

I agree that for some reason its seen as a strength to put others down. It feels gross and animistic, like buffalo goring the weak and sick in the heard for no reason, just leaving them to die instead of letting the wolves take care of it.

@lonleycrowdedwest

I do have serious image issues

I have really tried to love my brown eyes but it so feels impossible to love this eye colour.
If you look at blue, green and other eye colours they just stand out and look so visbly appealing. When it comes to brown eyes the iris and the pupil together just forms this dull colour with nothing beautiful or vibrant in its appearance. It looks like pool of a mud or an entrance dark tunnel hole.
I think this most boring eye colour ever.

I do wish I was with born blonde hair and blue eyes because I feel like guys will notice me more and will want to date me. The hair colour is very popular and seen as pretty.

 

[waitingforrest]

I can agree, the trival expectations of society cause so much pain. The amount of pressure to be attractive is getting worse it seems, especially for teenage girls. It's a sad fact that eating disorders are on the rise for that group.

I can't help but also hate humanity the more I live. Humans are all too superficial, social interactions all feel fake.

It's a reason why I hide my face in pictures, why I wear a face mask everywhere. (The one good thing to come out of the pandemic) Because otherwise people will already begin to judge me before they know me.

But whenever I bring this up with anyone outside of the internet, it's just met with you will make new relationships eventually, or you will find the right person. I really wish it was just as easy as trying harder. At this point I rather stay alone forever, the pain isn't worth it to try again.

 

[Yann]

I agree with FireFox... For men and women, though probably more for women, having dark eyes and hair is a curse. Personally, my eyes are so dark they appear black. They have none of the striking, deep, or beautiful qualities that even lighter brown eyes have. I do not blame anyone who does not find these things attractive. Blonde hair, or even just lighter hair, is more fun, brighter; it lights up in the sunlight. I notice that dark features just naturally do not catch or hold people's attention.

Plus, there is very little way to change these features. People with lighter eyes could put on dark contacts or color their hair. Light contacts look fake or are invisible against dark eyes, and bleaching hair is expensive and very damaging. There just isn't much recourse. All that being said, is it the end of the world? No... brown is the most common eye color, and most people seem to be doing well in terms of getting partners. I think one can still grow to love their features.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

@lonleycrowdedwest

I do have serious image issues

I have really tried to love my brown eyes but it so feels impossible to love this eye colour.
If you look at blue, green and other eye colours they just stand out and look so visbly appealing. When it comes to brown eyes the iris and the pupil together just forms this dull colour with nothing beautiful or vibrant in its appearance. It looks like pool of a mud or an entrance dark tunnel hole.
I think this most boring eye colour ever.

I do wish I was with born blonde hair and blue eyes because I feel like guys will notice me more and will want to date me. The hair colour is very popular and seen as pretty.

It may be popular in culture but that doesn't mean its important to most individuals. And honestly ive know plenty of men and women who find dark hair eyes and skin very attractive. From your original post it seems as though you are in an unfortunate circumstance and by all means i feel for you, but do whatever you can to not hate yourself for it. I am in favor of every humans right to kill themselves whenever they please, but at the same time im afraid that the way you are thinking is no longer rational, and its worth trying one more time to work on your image of yourself. If at the end of that you dont feel bad about your image but still want to die, thats up to you right?

I agree with FireFox... For men and women, though probably more for women, having dark eyes and hair is a curse. Personally, my eyes are so dark they appear black. They have none of the striking, deep, or beautiful qualities that even lighter brown eyes have. I do not blame anyone who does not find these things attractive. Blonde hair, or even just lighter hair, is more fun, brighter; it lights up in the sunlight. I notice that dark features just naturally do not catch or hold people's attention.

Plus, there is very little way to change these features. People with lighter eyes could put on dark contacts or color their hair. Light contacts look fake or are invisible against dark eyes, and bleaching hair is expensive and very damaging. There just isn't much recourse. All that being said, is it the end of the world? No... brown is the most common eye color, and most people seem to be doing well in terms of getting partners. I think one can still grow to love their features.

My eyes are vry dark and sunken, Very seldom do they get hit my sunlight, adn they appear completely dark. Yet the few people who have been attracted to me have always complimented my eyes foremost. A very dark eye that appears almost black is striking and can add to someones appearance. Don't fall for what your society deems "the most attractive", hair and eye color should be the very least of your concern.

 

[who doesn't matter]

I am 27 and never have had a girlfriend. Forget girlfriend, I never had a friend I could truly rely on. In a way of saying, I am single in all possible directions. Oh, and yes, an eternal virgin but I don't mind it.