Being single all throughout my life has finally broken me beyond repair.

[lonerclown666]

I dont understand why Woman are cruel with Man they dont find attractive i cant even be friends with them they reject me with just saying hi its like you are not a human being if you are not Handsome

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

I am 27 and never have had a girlfriend. Forget girlfriend, I never had a friend I could truly rely on. In a way of saying, I am single in all possible directions. Oh, and yes, an eternal virgin but I don't mind it.

In my experience friends matter more than love, platonic love is very important. Chase that before anything else, it will help you more than you know.

I dont understand why Woman are cruel with Man they dont find attractive i cant even be friends with them they reject me with just saying hi its like you are not a human being if you are not Handsome

If a woman is legitimately cruel to you because your appearance, fucking never speak to her again. She's an asshole, just like a guy making fun of an ugly girls appearance is terrible. There are good people and bad people, and those who bully you for the way you look are obviously bad. Most people arent like this I swear. People can be mean, but putting someone down for their appearance means you should no longer interact with them in any way.

 

[freedompass]

Apart from boyfriends I had as a teen, prior to my mental illness kicking in, my relationships as an adult have been nearly all trainwrecks. Some have left lasting trauma. In my 20's i deliberately remained celibate for several years but then travelled to a foreign country and ended up with someone there. In hindsight I would have been better off remaining alone and celibate throughout. I had to deal with four unwanted pregnancies. I have a son who I failed to nurture adequately: he ended up in foster care. All of this would have been avoided.

I'm not saying you are wrong to be sad that you have been single all your life. Just saying that there is always another side to the coin. You regret that, I regret the opposite. Relationships in adulthood for me have been utterly disastrous. I am grateful to be alone now.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

Apart from boyfriends I had as a teen, prior to my mental illness kicking in, my relationships as an adult have been nearly all trainwrecks. Some have left lasting trauma. In my 20's i deliberately remained celibate for several years but then travelled to a foreign country and ended up with someone there. In hindsight I would have been better off remaining alone and celibate throughout. I had to deal with four unwanted pregnancies. I have a son who I failed to nurture adequately: he ended up in foster care. All of this would have been avoided.

I'm not saying you are wrong to be sad that you have been single all your life. Just saying that there is always another side to the coin. You regret that, I regret the opposite. Relationships in adulthood for me have been utterly disastrous. I am grateful to be alone now.

I feel for you and I hope you find solace in life.

 

[freedompass]

I feel for you and I hope you find solace in life.

Thanks I appreciate that

 

[Ethereal Knight]

I've been so lonely for so long (I'm a man), I'd actually love to have an ugly partner. as long as she is loyal, sincere, honest, affectionate and loving, I'd be okay with she being ugly.
did you try creating a facebook dating / okcupid / tinder account describing exactly what you're looking for and detailing the fact that you want a guy who doesn't mind about your appearance? in many of these apps, you don't even have to put a picture, you can just write a good text and if the person is interested, you can show your pictures later. tinder doesn't allow you to write too many characters, but the others usually do and tinder is still useful because a lot of people use it. @FireFox

 

[sampsnsimpsn]

@death137
....I mentioned how I hate having brown eyes.

I said blue, green eyes or any other eye colours are beautiful because they stand out and are visbly appealing to look at. When it comes to brown eyes the iris and the pupil together is just bland, no vibrancy and just looks like a pool of mud. This is the worst eye colour ever.

For what it's worth, actually had a discussion the other day with some buddies and two of the three of us agreed that brown eyes are actually quite appealing. Don't sell yourself short.

I know, easier said than done, we are our own worst critics.

I too have brown eyes. Actually I have dark brown eyes. Dark enough that at times my iris and pupil blend together.

 

[FireFox]

Honestly I'm jealous of you and wish I never interacted with the men I interacted with just horrible choices on my part due to naivety

@Journeytoletgo Vitual hug
I am so sorry this happened to you. I hope find happiness and peace in your life.

Let's be honest, there must be something "wrong' with us if we never achieved a long lasting sexual relationship (I refuse to call them romantic since they actually spring from the well known instinct of reproduction).

I know that I am chronically ill, live with my parents in the literal basement (looool I love the cultural implications, I chose the room with that in mind), I stink, have dandruff, smelly feet, and lost my ability to orgasm around the age where you should have your first sexual experiences due to physical injury.

There's plenty wrong there. I just don't care about that much anymore. I only had one 5 month relationship in my life around the time I started losing my health and I experienced intense pleasure but horrible pain. The pain was, I think, not worth the merriment and fleeting emotional comfort. If you are defective and weak love is a very dangerous game.

@whatevs Virtual hug
I am sorry to hear about your chronic illness and your suffering.

How is your treatment going for illness? If you don't mind me asking. I have little sister who experiences regular severe chronic pain espoisdes due to her illness. I hate seeing people suffer.
Humans are too busy creating weapons of mass destruction rather curing or alleviating pain.
I really hope things work out for you.
If my threads on SS come across whiny or trivial then I apologise. I use the forum a lot because in the real world I have not got anyone to talk to about my problems

My mum is more focused on her work, relationship and issues with family relatives problems. My mum is one of those mums who are happy to buy thier kids expensive stuff but will not take time to listen if I am depressed or anxious. My mum sees depressed/suicidal people as an inconvenience.
My relatives are self centred and enjoy seeing others fail. Not all but most are just unreliable.
Online forums are the only place where I can truly express my real feelings.
In the real world I just pretend to be happy and everyone believes it.

I can agree, the trival expectations of society cause so much pain. The amount of pressure to be attractive is getting worse it seems, especially for teenage girls. It's a sad fact that eating disorders are on the rise for that group.

I can't help but also hate humanity the more I live. Humans are all too superficial, social interactions all feel fake.

It's a reason why I hide my face in pictures, why I wear a face mask everywhere. (The one good thing to come out of the pandemic) Because otherwise people will already begin to judge me before they know me.

But whenever I bring this up with anyone outside of the internet, it's just met with you will make new relationships eventually, or you will find the right person. I really wish it was just as easy as trying harder. At this point I rather stay alone forever, the pain isn't worth it to try again.

@waitingforrest The worst thing is I feel like freak being single for so long.
When I was unemployed in lockdown I went on r/neet to tall to unemployed people like myself I mentioned my feelings about never being in a sexual relationship.
The majority of male online mocked me
One man said " a 23 year old virgin you must be very unattractive."
I learnt men see me as a freak and if I ever have relationship I am going to hide the fact about being single for so long because I am now ashamed of it.
After that experience I finally learnt society sees me as an abnormal freak.

 

[june]

It sounds like its been tough for you. Virtual hug

 

[ForeverLonely82]

I wish I didn't fall in love, had sex and been married at all. After having it that's ALL one craves after having it. Some say it's better to be loved and lost than never been loved at all. That's a lie. Having your heart ripped out of your ass and stomped on is one of the most painful experiences anyone can face. I been through it 3 times, Nothing hurt me more. Would have been better to go through life without having that kind of damaged inflicted on me. Even after all of the abuse and mental torture I still crave that attention I long for...Too bad there isn't a way to remove that wired part of our brain. My only solace is as I get older and morbidly obese hopefully I can get out of this flesh prison since I am too much of a damn coward to CTB.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

I wish I didn't fall in love, had sex and been married at all. After having it that's ALL one craves after having it. Some say it's better to be loved and lost than never been loved at all. That's a lie. Having your heart ripped out of your ass and stomped on is one of the most painful experiences anyone can face. I been through it 3 times, Nothing hurt me more. Would have been better to go through life without having that kind of damaged inflicted on me. Even after all of the abuse and mental torture I still crave that attention I long for...Too bad there isn't a way to remove that wired part of our brain. My only solace is as I get older and morbidly obese hopefully I can get out of this flesh prison since I am too much of a damn coward to CTB.

I agree with you in the way that before i ever had a relationship i craved it more than anything, but when we broke up i realized my longing just got worse. But thats the human condition isnt it? It worth trying because at soe level why not? We are all on a suicide forum, why not try one ore time and if its hurts to bad youre back at square one.

 

[RetroChaos]

It's weird, I always see these posts popping up all the time, usually people labelling themselves as "Incels" or whatever.

I don't mean to demean anyone's feelings here but tbh I envy all you single people. My long-term partner left and it has broken me, it's one of the main pushing factors of me CTB, the straw that broke the camel's back etc.

Honestly the pain of heartbreak is worse than the loneliness I find. You can still connect with others here. You're really all not missing out on much on having a girlfriend/boyfriend.

I know it's difficult, we're all depressed here, but try and put a positive spin on it. No compromises, no arguments, you can do what you want. If you really want routine or drive get a pet for companionship.

Idk seeing these types of threads just makes me wanna speak from someone on the other side.

And maybe it's because I've suffered with a porn addiction but I never found sex all that great either, so again, not missing out on much.

 

[RetroChaos]

@lonleycrowdedwest

I do have serious image issues

I have really tried to love my brown eyes but it so feels impossible to love this eye colour.
If you look at blue, green and other eye colours they just stand out and look so visbly appealing. When it comes to brown eyes the iris and the pupil together just forms this dull colour with nothing beautiful or vibrant in its appearance. It looks like pool of a mud or an entrance dark tunnel hole.
I think this most boring eye colour ever.

I do wish I was with born blonde hair and blue eyes because I feel like guys will notice me more and will want to date me. The hair colour is very popular and seen as pretty.

Maybe it's a cultural thing but I much prefer brown eyes more. Couldn't care less about hair colour, most people dye it crazy colours in the UK anyway.

 

[june]

Persona 5!

 

[LoneMisery]

Looks resemble personality. It just sucks that some men and women will look passed that and choose looks and money over personality

 

[Superdeterminist]

Looks resemble personality.

What do you mean by that? Are you saying people look how their personality is so that e.g. mean people will be ugly or something? If so, I disagree.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Persona 5!

Wait is this really relevant to that game somehow? I've always liked some of the music but don't care much to play it…

 

[RetroChaos]

Wait is this really relevant to that game somehow? I've always liked some of the music but don't care much to play it…

My profile picture is Morgana and Joker. P4G and P5R was a life-changing experience for me and honestly one of the only reasons I still stick around.

 

[Mtnwildflowers]

I am 24 and feel like I have been a single woman forever. I used to be a happy loving confident caring person who wanted to do so much with their lives but now I am dead inside incapable of experiencing happiness or any joy and angry at all the men who have caused me pain throughout my life.

I forgave my father for never being there me but some days I am absoultely angry at my father for rejecting me before I was born and having to grow up with the difficulties of living with a single mother. Never having a father I never got to saw what a loving normal relationship looks like or how a man supposed to treat a woman . Every guy I ever liked I gave them love, cared for them, took an interest in who they were as a people but they never did same for me. I am so angry at all the guys that rejected, ignored and just humiliated me at school and also in adulthood too. I am angry at all my classmates who never stood up for me when the boys humiliated me at school and just laughed along. I stood up myself at school but I wish someone stood up me. I am angry at all the boys who only showed an "interest" in me for a joke with their friends and just made fun of me. I am angry at all men who never really tried to see the real person I am and just overlooked me because I am not a supermodel dream woman.

I hate society for perpetuating a system that allows young boys and men to treat girls and women like sh*t with no consequences and hate the people in the society who participated in the system enabling this behaviour. I f*cking hate society for focusing on physical beauty rather kindness of a person's heart .

I hate f*cking hate the world because the world inhabits the most evil, selfish species of all to time it is called the human race. Human race throughout centuries has brought nothing but suffering to their fellow human being. I want world war 3 to happen to wipe out this piece of sh*t species. I am a piece of sh*t human too. Humanity isn't worth saving anymore.

All I wanted was to be loved and appreciated by a man like every other woman my age has had. Maybe I was made to rejected by men. I realise maybe I am the sickness or the problem.

Being single all my life has finally broken me, I have finally lost my sanity and everything thay was good about me.Its too late for me.

I am now in the final years of my life which will be spent no longer caring about anything and just living dangerously.

Being in a relationship won't make things all of a sudden better. Been both single and in relationships..not a cure for suicidal depression.