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Endstati0n
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- May 10, 2026
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I'm expected to work most of my life, have a social life, a wife, kids, house... while being mentally ill. It's already very hard to pull off for a mentally stable person...
I'm 30 now and all my life i was in a deep depression, couldn't keep relationships, always overwhelmed with social interactions and being alone all the time. The "best years of my life" are gone, spent wishing i was never born. I will never be fixed. I will always be damaged. The most i can expect, is for it to get mildy more managable over time, which it has, but that's not enough to make me want to stay. I already did the whole therapy and medication bullshit for years. People like me usually just become bitter miserable and old, probably addicted to cigarettes, alcohol or hard drugs. I can see myself in 50 years being that weird quiet old dude that chain smokes all day. I see those people now and they were probably once like me. But i'm not interested in becoming like this, what's even the point? I don't want to make myself suffer any longer.
It shouldn't be so hard for us to just call it quits. Humanity should finally accept, that life is not for everybody. Suicide should be a viable thing, a normal thing to do when you've had enough. Go to a doctor and talk a couple times, maybe over a period of some months and when you don't change your mind, you get prescribed a medication to end your life for free. It should be like that. I think the world would be a much better place. Let the lucky fuckers live there lucky little dumb lifes but please spare the rest of us from years of unnecessary torture.
I'm 30 now and all my life i was in a deep depression, couldn't keep relationships, always overwhelmed with social interactions and being alone all the time. The "best years of my life" are gone, spent wishing i was never born. I will never be fixed. I will always be damaged. The most i can expect, is for it to get mildy more managable over time, which it has, but that's not enough to make me want to stay. I already did the whole therapy and medication bullshit for years. People like me usually just become bitter miserable and old, probably addicted to cigarettes, alcohol or hard drugs. I can see myself in 50 years being that weird quiet old dude that chain smokes all day. I see those people now and they were probably once like me. But i'm not interested in becoming like this, what's even the point? I don't want to make myself suffer any longer.
It shouldn't be so hard for us to just call it quits. Humanity should finally accept, that life is not for everybody. Suicide should be a viable thing, a normal thing to do when you've had enough. Go to a doctor and talk a couple times, maybe over a period of some months and when you don't change your mind, you get prescribed a medication to end your life for free. It should be like that. I think the world would be a much better place. Let the lucky fuckers live there lucky little dumb lifes but please spare the rest of us from years of unnecessary torture.