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Not_A_Seagull

Not_A_Seagull

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anyone feel liek they are born in the wrong body, Im not saying as in "i wished i was born rich and handsome" but more of "I wished i was born a girl", it is hell sometimes for me
 
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Shu

As above, So Below.
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@DeathDueToDysphoria
 
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intelcorei2duo

intelcorei2duo

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Jan 13, 2023
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Brother told me i wouldnt turn so fucked up if been born a girl. Long story short mother raised me weak and effeminate so i failed in life, though i dont regret being born a boy
 
Not_A_Seagull

Not_A_Seagull

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Brother told me i wouldnt turn so fucked up if been born a girl. Long story short mother raised me weak and effeminate so i failed in life, though i dont regret being born a boy
theres nothing wrong with beign effeminate, i wished I was born andro maybe it would help with some things in my life
 
intelcorei2duo

intelcorei2duo

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theres nothing wrong with beign effeminate, i wished I was born andro maybe it would help with some things in my life
I'd a period in life when i was androgyne. Long hairs and a slim body supplemented with a low test face u kno, ppl mistaken me for a girl at least several times. I got in a loony bin at that period. local population called me a 'faggot' for a reason and a person with a down syndrome even fell in love in me lmao. Before that i got laughed at school for shyness and indecision even tho i tried to act 'cool' they sniffed this out anyway, some classmate constantly made jokes on raping me and i dindnt do shit.

It's really sucks man. Now i stuff food in myself and turned into balding 90kg hog.
 
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Worndown

Worndown

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You should be able to live the life that makes you whole. Unfortunately we have conservatives that think everyone should just be like them. (a scarier thought)
Add to that the fact that people seem to be jerks with anyone who thinks differently. Just look at the problems sports causes with rabid fans.
Try your best to be the YOU that works for you. Not every day will go smoothly, but that is normal for everyone.
 
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Not_A_Seagull

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I'd a period in life when i was androgyne. Long hairs and a slim body supplemented with a low test face u kno, ppl mistaken me for a girl at least several times. I got in a loony bin at that period. local population called me a 'faggot' for a reason and a person with a down syndrome even fell in love in me lmao. Before that i got laughed at school for shyness and indecision even tho i tried to act 'cool' they sniffed this out anyway, some classmate constantly made jokes on raping me and i dindnt do shit.

It's really sucks man. Now i stuff food in myself and turned into balding 90kg hog.
i fucking hate my manly face i wished i had Estrogen
 
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Unending

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Yeah, I consistently wish that I was born in a different body. I transitioned but don't feel like hormones really did that much for me unfortunately. It's definitely a large source of distress for me.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

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Apr 19, 2022
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anyone feel liek they are born in the wrong body, Im not saying as in "i wished i was born rich and handsome" but more of "I wished i was born a girl", it is hell sometimes for me
100% me. And the jealousy of cis women consumes me.
 
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ikadasui

ikadasui

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May 29, 2018
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Every moment of every day. I can't stand my ethnicity in the slightest and I have been disgusted with it since I was 4. Going on 28 this year and I am absolutely thrilled to be blowing my head open sometime in the near future
 
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NHLTradeRumor

wow life sucks
Dec 13, 2022
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God I know how that feels. That is a telltale sign of Gender Dysphoria, and while I can't tell you if you're trans or not, you should do some "soul searching" and find out who you truly are. Being trans honestly sucks, mainly because I know that I'll never be the same as a cis woman, and I despise even thinking about it.
 
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Not_A_Seagull

Not_A_Seagull

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God I know how that feels. That is a telltale sign of Gender Dysphoria, and while I can't tell you if you're trans or not, you should do some "soul searching" and find out who you truly are. Being trans honestly sucks, mainly because I know that I'll never be the same as a cis woman, and I despise even thinking about it.
Theres this photo on 4chan of "dysporphic HRT males" and I think that sums me up the best
Every moment of every day. I can't stand my ethnicity in the slightest and I have been disgusted with it since I was 4. Going on 28 this year and I am absolutely thrilled to be blowing my head open sometime in the near future
What ethnicity are you if you dont mind telling?
 
Kualk

Kualk

May we all find peace
Jan 10, 2023
43
Shame that this kind of thought is still very much taboo in the world, even among those that consider themselves "progressive". I very much like what I am but I just wish I had been born without any sort of disability.
Wishing you the best, no matter what you identify yourself as in the future.
 
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Chronicillness

Chronicillness

Experienced
Jun 19, 2018
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I don't have gender dysphoria, but I do have incapacitating face and body dysphoria.
 
borderline-feline

borderline-feline

Constantly Sleepy Catgirl
Dec 28, 2022
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Even with how far I've come in my transition, there's so much about my body that's still so male. I constantly curse my Scandinavian genes, because all the men in my family have insane amounts of body hair. There's nothing that can be done about my man shoulders, although shoulders do look less broad after breast augmentation.

I also don't really have a waist, and I lack hips and a butt. Then there's the neanderthal brow bone and the giant forehead. I also struggle to find cute shoes that fit my feet without resorting to crossdressing stores.

People don't seem to notice these things about my body though. Gender dysphoria tends to make mountains out of molehills.

All of that said, it's also worth noting that HRT is a mixed bag. How much of a change you'll get really depends on your genetics, and I envy the girls who had very feminine bodies even before HRT almost as much as I envy cis women. You also don't have to be a Kim Petras situation to pass. Transitioning early in life can make things much easier, but you'd be amazed how much of a difference transitioning can make.
Yeah, I consistently wish that I was born in a different body. I transitioned but don't feel like hormones really did that much for me unfortunately. It's definitely a large source of distress for me.
If I may ask, what country do you live in and do you have insurance? It varies from company to company, but my insurance paid for 80% of my breast augmentation, so if you have the desire to have surgeries done, then it's definitely worth looking into. I might be able to help out with some general things as well, depending on what parts of your body cause you the most distress.

I hope your pain goes away, regardless of which route you choose to take to eliminate it.
theres nothing wrong with beign effeminate, i wished I was born andro maybe it would help with some things in my life
I'm guessing from the text in your signature that you live in Russia, which I know can complicate things since LGBT rights are very lacking there, but if there are any specific things that you think you might benefit from advice and tips on, then I'm more than happy to help a sister out!
 
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