Being around my mom triggers me.

[Parnate]

My mom was very abusive to me as a kid, physically and mentally.
She has OCD or OCPD . She has rituals for cleaning and worship. I remember her beating me up because I didn't follow any of her rituals. It happened atleast once a week . The abuse has stopped now. But she still follows her stupid rituals . Today we went to a temple and she asked me to do all those rituals of hers , she also did her rituals , so many of them. I had this intense urge to hang myself the and there .

 

[biboro]

I'm sorry she's like that. Do you have plans to move out?

 

[Parnate]

I'm sorry she's like that. Do you have plans to move out?

I stay in another city. I just visited home for a change.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

Please prioritze and protect yourself. It might sound intrusive but I want to recommend you to stay away from her and finally break off the relationships. Your life is yours. I understand she should see a psychiatrist. But it seems that this is a hopeless case and taking her to a hospital is too demanding. I'm so sorry you are trapped in this situation.