Story Being able to trace it all back

[mayHeCurseUsAll]

I wonder if anyone else feels like they can trace their lives back to some point where after everything went down hill so to speak.

Let me preface by recognizing this is a privilege in disguise, to be able to do this means that you had a point high enough amongst the valleys of your life so at to be distinguishable, for many born say physically disabled they don't have such a luxury.

In any case, it's odd how your outlook on everything can change so dramatically after everything you thought you could be is proven to be nothing but a delusion. Somehow even worse is that it's often possible to figure out how your life might look like if you made even slightly different choices before your last peak, and how much better your life would be if you did.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that many suicidal people are probably like that as from what I have read many have had things happen to them that have ruined their life and they previously wanted to live before that. In my case things went downhill as soon as I was brought into this world, I never should have existed at all and I have never wanted to live in a world that is as cruel as this.

 

[Rational man]

My dysfunctional abusive parents are my origin from my date of birth.
But I only recognised.it at about 18.
I also.recognise.that.we make.choices and we live within our directive. Hindsight is wasted time and.we dont choose our family.

So.focus.on what you can change like i did. I disowned my family, got the fxuk out, and made a life and found love.

Im still scarred and also ill now. Peace❤

 

[theboy]

I think and want to do it but it seems to be a fantasy