It's simple: I hate myself, I want to kill myself.
Okay welcome to the club. I guess the joy of destroying everyone around you runs thin pretty quickly, you'd have to constantly find new victims. Helps explain why so many sadistic psychopaths are so charming and hyper-extroverted socially suave creatures.
I wouldn't say I derive any happiness from the suffering of single-celled organisms. I actually wonder if any sort of sadistic person would. I personally don't think so. Too abstract.
Specifically emotional pain of people I know, so not a random person per se. I'm calling myself a sadist because people say I am, and personality tests say I am.
Well, I'm just saying the world is so hellish it wouldn't surprise me if suffering goes all the way down to that level.
What I am saying is that suffering is absolutely a bounty. No abstractions needed, there is more available in real-time to observe every day than could possibly be consumed with the time available.
I do understand your predicament though, if your sadism is that limited in scope, you will have to put in a lot of work building and moving from social network to social network to cause mayhem.
You're not quite that lucky then. Surely you can agree that a full-blown genetic sadist who enjoy witnessing all forms of suffering is incredibly blessed. They'd be practically cumming like a racehorse at all moments with the suffering going on everywhere.
Given your specific case, it may be possible you had some fucked up social upbringing that caused you to take joy in taking it out on those close to you. Even the most empathic here might find joy in revenge against sadists that did them dirty. I'll explain more in the last paragraph...
I don't know you, so any pain you're going through is unknown and abstract to me. Altough, I do find your reaction somewhat amusing. I'm not trying to torture anyone. I'm just trying to better understand myself by interacting with other people who actually care to intwract with me. So for that, I do thank and appreciate.
Just how well do you need to know others to enjoy it? Just casual acquaintance level? This environment will attract weaker predators looking for low-hanging fruit, which is why you are getting the reactions you are. It does seem like you are enjoying negative attention, which again I'll detail more in the last paragraph of this reply...
That's an interesting suggestion and theory. I think everyone has equal value, so just because you value famous beautiful instagrammers as something less or at least as people who should have negative vibes sent their way tells me more about yourself. Interesting.
I did not say I value famous beautiful instagrammers as something less or deserving of negative vibes. I said they have further to fall.
It was actually meant to be a legitimate useful suggestion for you. See, beautiful successful people are more accustomed to being treated like royalty, so your negative vibes might actually be effective or unexpected to them, even if they try and brush it off.
To those of us so beaten by life we are considering ending it, many of us already view the world as a hostile place and are suspicious of interactions already. Encounters with assholes and shitty treatment and betrayal aren't as big a shock to us, rather the norm.
So while I understand how you made that assumption, I will freely tell you I want no ill for anyone, even you really. If provoked, like most animals, I have feelings of anger and all that. That's just being an animal, which is what we are. As an old depressed burn-out it fizzles pretty quickly as I just don't have much energy for hate fantasies. You're a product like the rest of us and I have no doubt you do experience some form of suffering, even if it's just getting antsy over not having people to shit-talk for a few minutes. Not existing at all is a solution to all problems for all creatures, that's just a fact.
I doubt breeding means someone is being sadistic, but perhaps the definition is changing. Words have a funny way of changing over time.
Reproduction is the source of all misery, in any sense of the word.
For humans, narcissism is a strong driver of reproduction. Also sadism and power and control fantasies, as parents try to exert their will on the mini-me.
So why might the empathic also enjoy revenge? Their concept of possible harmonious interactions encompasses a larger range around them: people, animals, structures, even the environment. The external is still the enemy.
Sadism, psychopathy, lack of empathy can stem from narcissism. Just a much smaller bubble of what is accepted. More things are external and immaterial, more freely met with aggression.
There is also a strong genetic connection to dark triad traits. The current structure of the social world highly rewards those traits. People find them highly charming and attractive and much more sexually engaging. Money and power through exploitation are readily available. The problem for those individuals with dark triad personality is most successful if they are attractive, strong, intelligent, or else they might just be low-functioning and have a pretty shit time.
So you've got a bunch of narcissists, sadists, psychopaths breeding like rabbits. The men can have a lot of kids with a lot of women. The human social world has always been favorable for these types but the last few decades has definitely been a playground for them. A lot of caring and good people are not having kids. Plenty of sadists are fucking like rabbits. The percentage of the population with these traits is given a comically low estimate in pop psychology, something like 3%. There is just no way. The proportion is much higher and growing rapidly, as anyone with any worldly experience can attest. Hence, it is not special and unsurprising.
Though it is also very likely that being on this site, you are aware of these ideas already. That would mean you are just trying to get a rise out of me with a subtle suggestion that I struggle to understand proper definitions.
