Being a bad person

[N33dT0D13]

like people tell you that you don't deserve to die and you know they're wrong, you know they say it because they're nice but you know they're wrong... I know they're wrong. The same shit keeps happening because I'm a stupid self-absorbed piece of shit and I know death would solve the problem and I don't fault others for not seeing it, they're nice, or else don't know me well enough... I need to die, actually need to, it would be a net positive, I no longer suffer the pain and shame of who I am and others are spared my bullshit! :D

But I am the problem, I know this, it's obvious. I am an obnoxious, shameful being, and I have been for a very long time.

I really wish I could kill myself. I am tired of being me.

 

[escape_from_hell]

I am a bad person too. I deserve hell but I don't want it because I'm a bad person who doesn't want to pay the fair price for being born scum so I am cowardly hoping to be able to kill myself and escape. There may or may not even be an escape. I feel bad for wanting to escape hell because I am such a bad shit person but I don't like being doomed...who am I to question nature?

I wish other people would kill me because at least then there's some good in the world done by my scum existence being eradicated, like that person would be doing a good thing for us all, merciful to me as well, and they would be a hero.

 

[dunedindwell]

What did you do?

 

[sos]

being a bad person doesn't mean that you can become a good person

you can learn from the mistakes that you've made

idk what you've done nor what you've gone thru but you can use all those faulty experiences in your advantage to become a better version of yourself

rn ur stuck in a tunnel vision; you've done bad so you think that you deserve to be punished in some kind of way

you can either step out of this life as a bad person by ctbing or have a go at becoming a better person

and if that doesn't work out, u can still decide to ctb

 

[N33dT0D13]

What did you do?

A lot but most recently made a dumb offensive thread that rightfully pissed people off then got deleted and I feel like an asshole, because I am an asshole, I feel like I need to kill myself cuz it keeps happening, I'm a stupid obnoxious pretentious ignorant asshole and I need to die.

 

[sserafim]

I think you need to improve your self-image and self-esteem

 

[JealousOfTheElderly]

A lot but most recently made a dumb offensive thread that rightfully pissed people off then got deleted and I feel like an asshole, because I am an asshole, I feel like I need to kill myself cuz it keeps happening, I'm a stupid obnoxious pretentious ignorant asshole and I need to die.

If it was the thread about asking people to insult you, I had an answer typed out but didn't post it.
However I'll post it here:
"No. I won't insult you. You are not the bad things you say you are and you don't deserved to be insulted by anyone - in real life or on the internet. You are not a bad person."

 

[N33dT0D13]

If it was the thread about asking people to insult you, I had an answer typed out but didn't post it.
However I'll post it here:
"No. I won't insult you. You are not the bad things you say you are and you don't deserved to be insulted by anyone - in real life or on the internet. You are not a bad person."

No, one where I asked if overly sensitive or emotional people are annoying and deserve to die. I fear people want me dead and simply refuse to express it. I made a lot of generalizations. I am a bad person and I deserved to be called pretentious, ignorant and an asshole. I accept the criticism, I fucked up. I wanted to trigger myself and did something that had the potential to trigger others as well.

I think you need to improve your self-image and self-esteem

I do bad things, I deserve to feel bad.


...If the people currently in my life knew how big an asshole I am, they wouldn't stick by me and I'd be free to ctb. The only problem being the added shame and guilt and depression I'd feel pushing them away but I already push them away, maybe I just need to wait it out, they'll get tired of me in time and I'll know they're tired of me so that'll be extra motivation...

 

[do0mer]

A lot but most recently made a dumb offensive thread that rightfully pissed people off then got deleted and I feel like an asshole, because I am an asshole, I feel like I need to kill myself cuz it keeps happening, I'm a stupid obnoxious pretentious ignorant asshole and I need to die.

Bro I (and probably many others) did similar things for fun. It's not that deep. There's no need to be so harsh on yourself