Venting Becoming a vagabond?

[PlushieLover]

Well folks, I'm running out of options and out of time and soon out of money. I can't work, I can't go to college, and I refuse to become a parasite to my uncles or mother. All I know is that I have money to live for a few months. so i've been thinking about becoming something like vagabond. Just visit interesting places with the little money I have and starve or something. I am not a spiritual person or anything. However, when I was a kid I used to say that I wanted to be like Link from The Legend of Zelda. Obviously the difference is that Link is a hero and had a purpose (and he was blond and handsome as fuck lol) and I'm just a boy with no purpose in life and no desire to live.

Who knows, maybe I will learn more about my life or reality itself. Maybe that was always my destiny, I was born to wander without a path to follow. I think it would be a very beautiful way to leave this world. maybe in that last moment I can be happy? Maybe I will feel freedom, I will feel that I made a decision? I don't know guys, I'm just venting. Tell me what you guys think :]

 

[whywere]

I am 65 years young, i say this only because I have life experience in such as I have lived out of my car, only for a few weeks, but I did. Till I went to college at 24, i moved around A LOT and never in one place very long. Looking back at it , it was ok, BUT I also was lucky, because I did not get sick nor did I get any broken bones..etc II did not have medical insurance back then and if something would have gone wrong, i would probably still be in debt. It might be ok, as long as one had the basic life necessities down. One might like living on the road or a freight train traveler , BUT at least for me, way back when, this was in the 1970's, yep I am old!!, I got tried of trying to find a place to wash up, shave, things that one never thinks about, till one has too. but I did meet some very colorful characters along the way. Now with all of that said I will go on the other side of the coin and say that a person only goes around once in this world. A interesting idea and a interesting upcoming choice! You are a great Global Family member and I send you lots of support in making your decision. Walter

 

[the_final_countdown]

Sometimes I wonder what it's be like to go into the middle of nowhere, get lost and die of starvation and dehydration.

Brutally painful but the job would be done.

 

[motel rooms]

Do it, you have nothing to lose... Just don't use any dumb methods if you get the urge to ctb

 

[ClairyFairy]

Sometimes I wonder what it's be like to go into the middle of nowhere, get lost and die of starvation and dehydration.

Brutally painful but the job would be done.

Ohh no it takes so long. There's that idiot wilderness guy who died out in the Bush. There's a photo he took of himself before the end. You go completely crazy first

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

I refuse to become a parasite to my uncles or mother.

You could always become a parasite to the state like me!

 

[FuneralCry]

Yeah, you should go for it. Sometimes a change is the best thing when we feel trapped by life and we are in what we see as a hopeless situation. Even know I don't like existing, I do think there is a lot of places that seem interesting and I particularly like the idea of living somewhere rural and isolated.

 

[PlushieLover]

You are right, it will be difficult to starve. I might have some SN with me. So when I feel like I'm very fucked up, I can die easier with that. Obviously I would go far from the city so that my corpse does not bother anyone. I guess I'll start my journey in August when I "move" to another place away from my family.

Now I'm more motivated to do this. At least "I will live my death" and that. Thank you everybody, I will keep you informed if I will do it or not.

 

[112]

I've spent years of my life on-and-off homeless. I have also hitchhiked across my country before.

Calling it a vagabond lifestyle excites the mind about the prospect but ultimately buries the lede. You'll be a cool drifter with dreads, but you'll also be homeless. With that you will:
-Suffer stigma.
-Have to carry around your belongings everywhere you go and keep an eye on them. Everything you own is pretty heavy, and it wears on the mind when you can't relax from thinking about it being stolen.
-Develop, in all likelihood, some type of chronic pain or physical disability.
-Have trouble keeping up hygiene.
-Be at the mercy of the weather.
-Suffer hunger, which is an intense pain.
-Be bored out of your mind.
-etc.

Vagabonding is a tough life. It takes a special person to make it work. For most people it would be a terrible and possibly traumatizing experience. I would advise against it.

 

[Pookie]

Sometimes I just want to run away and hopefully end up somewhere naturally beautiful. The only problem is, "wherever you go, there you are."

I can't run away from myself.

 

[noaccount]

Living houseless and nomadic was, at times, the least traumatizing option for me, taught me a lot of invaluable skills, a lot about what I really did and didn't need in life, and introduced me to subcultures of people who were often much wiser and less judgemental than the so-called successful classes. :)

 

[Hotsackage]

I'm the same I'm trying to drink myself to.ctb. only prob is I don't want my mom to find me or else I wouldn't. I'm half in the bag as we speak hopefully I get the balls to do it today

 

[rata1]

i should have done this years ago. it always was my dream to travel around, not to stay in a boring place. it was my only goal in life: chanign places when i want, every 2 or 3 years or whenever. not a big goal. even a cheap one. i even didn't achieve this. i am frustrated as hell. i look back and i can't believe it.
if you just organize a little bit and be a little bit careful, like not loosing yourself into dependencies, not ge ripped of and not get into bad company it can be paradise. and looking back to my life ihave only one advise: do it! go out, run, be free and take your life and do what pleases you! i wish you the best from the deepest of my heart!

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm so sorry to hear this!
It's certainly a very difficult situation to be in.

Whatever happens, wish you lots of love and peace!

Hugs,

Matt