Got an 18. Nevertheless, I already bought my SN and the required antietemics, going to a psychiatrist on monday to get some benzos and I will be good to go. Not planing on rushing my suicide, but I guess it goes to show that killing yourself doesn't need to be associated with extreme depression or desperation. I just don't want to live anymore, this world is just not a very rewarding place, regardless of how much by the books you try to live.