Beauty Is Not On The Inside

[Kingkelly]

People say beauty is on the inside but they say that and then they see me and judge me....It is a lie...society judges me on outward appearance. It doesnt matter what anyone says even people on here who say that I bet if they saw me in the street they would not be kind. It is all fucked....The deepest regret of my life and I have done some dumb stuff this is the ultimate kicker. Plastic surgery ruined my eyes face and life. Omg this doesnt even seem real but it is. I will never be accepted by society again. I am an idiot. Fuck doctors. Im hurting so bad and I AM NOT OK!

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Beauty can be skin deep when the right person looks at you. I am so sorry for the pain and sadness you are suffering... I have had it with doctors, myself. If you ever need to talk, I'm just a PM away.

 

[Kingkelly]

Beauty can be skin deep when the right person looks at you. I am so sorry for the pain and sadness you are suffering... I have had it with doctors, myself. If you ever need to talk, I'm just a PM away.

They say it is but it is not. Ultimately people arent kind to people who look bad. IT is just the way it goes. Cant go thru life like this anymore. Im not ok.

 

[Jengator]

I am so sorry. My life was ruined by doctors too. Now I can't walk or get out of the house much. People look at me differently. Even my own family hates me.

 

[Kingkelly]

I am so sorry. My life was ruined by doctors too. Now I can't walk or get out of the house much. People look at me differently. Even my own family hates me.

Im sorry. It is hell being thrown out by society. I hate myself .... I hate myself for destroying the face my mom and god gave me. I am a idiot

 

[hobbydevil]

I am in the same boat. Biggest mistake was naively trusting doctors and surgeons who made nice profit off of my mental health issues.

 

[Kingkelly]

I am in the same boat. Biggest mistake was naively trusting doctors and surgeons who made nice profit off of my mental health issues.

Yes I needed therapy not to have a doctor destroy my eyes and rearrange my face wtf was i thinking???? I should have known and did not listen to anyone. This cant be my life now but it is. MIserable shameful ugly mess. Doctors profit off people who are not well.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

They say it is but it is not. Ultimately people arent kind to people who look bad. IT is just the way it goes. Cant go thru life like this anymore. Im not ok.

I've never judged someone by the way that they looked. There are people who think differently but I understand how you feel. I do. It's painful, you don't want to go outside or have people see you. It's a horrible mess of bad societies, doctors, everything. Nobody can just be nice. If I had it my way, we'd all be happy and have the lives that we wanted. I'm sorry.

 

[Kingkelly]

I've never judged someone by the way that they looked. There are people who think differently but I understand how you feel. I do. It's painful, you don't want to go outside or have people see you. It's a horrible mess of bad societies, doctors, everything. Nobody can just be nice. If I had it my way, we'd all be happy and have the lives that we wanted. I'm sorry.

I agree but since that isnt the case my time here is limited. I wont live like this forever. THis isnt my face this isnt me my identity was taken Im ready to go soon. Tired of being judged and mean people

 

[hobbydevil]

Yes I needed therapy not to have a doctor destroy my eyes and rearrange my face wtf was i thinking???? I should have known and did not listen to anyone. This cant be my life now but it is. MIserable shameful ugly mess. Doctors profit off people who are not well.

If I may ask... Why did you want to have plastic surgery on your face? Insecurities?

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I agree but since that isnt the case my time here is limited. I wont live like this forever. THis isnt my face this isnt me my identity was taken Im ready to go soon. Tired of being judged and mean people

You have every right. I'm not telling you to stay or deal with it.. Just letting you know not everyone has so much hate in their heart and feel they can judge whoever.

 

[Kingkelly]

Why did you want to have plastic surgery on your face?

I had dark circles under my eyes and was mentally unstable....i had been sick and wasnt in my right mind

You have every right. I'm not telling you to stay or deal with it.. Just letting you know not everyone has so much hate in their heart and feel they can judge whoever.

I would give anything in the whole world to have my old face and eyes back. Anything. omg this cant be real

 

[hobbydevil]

I had dark circles under my eyes and was mentally unstable....i had been sick and wasnt in my right mind

I would give anything in the whole world to have my old face and eyes back. Anything. omg this cant be real

I'm so sorry. I can empathize/sympathize very well with this. I hope you find peace somehow.

 

[Kingkelly]

I'm so sorry. I can empathize/sympathize very well with this. I hope you find peace somehow.

Did you have surgery? and thank you very much. It is a hard dark road i chose.

 

[Morphinekiss]

You're right. You could be brilliant and charismatic inside, but no one will approach you to find out if you're not up to societal beauty standards.

 

[Jengator]

I don't think beauty is on the outside. I'm actually not just saying that. I do agree that most people don't feel that way but I don't think everyone feels that way. I actually find people that society views as attractive who act ugly as quite ugly. But that's because I was abused, mocked, and shamed my whole life.

 

[hobbydevil]

Did you have surgery? and thank you very much. It is a hard dark road i chose.

Yes, although my case is a bit different. I got diagnosed with transsexuality when I was 18/19, desperately wanted to transition to become a "man" (or close to it) back then. Got surgery to remove my breasts, took hormones for years, then after 4 years of living that way I realized it was all related to sexual abuse I had been through when I was a teenager that I had suppressed for a long time.
My chest is scarred and looks messed up now and I got bad acne from hormones and... I could go on and on.
I would love to turn back time and find actual help instead of the sh*t I got. But it's not possible of course. So the bus it is.

 

[Kingkelly]

You're right. You could be brilliant and charismatic inside, but no one will approach you to find out if you're not up to societal beauty standards.

ITs so true and I should have left my face alone. Omg I should never have cut my face to make me more pretty it only did the oposite. Now I am thrown to the side everywhere I go it is a living nightmare.

Yes, although my case is a bit different. I got diagnosed with transsexuality when I was 18/19, desperately wanted to transition to become a "man" (or close to it) back then. Got surgery to remove my breasts, took hormones for years, then after 4 years of living that way I realized it was all related to sexual abuse I had been through when I was a teenager that I had suppressed for a long time.
My chest is scarred and looks messed up now and I got bad acne from hormones and... I could go on and on.
I would love to turn back time and find actual help instead of the sh*t I got. But it's not possible of course. So the bus it is.

Im so sorry. That is horrible. When your identity is taken from you it is the end of the world. My damage is to my face what you show to the world every fucking day but it doesnt mean your pain isnt real too. I can't imagine what your going thru for so long. HUGS

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

People say beauty is on the inside but they say that and then ... It is a lie...

A-f*cking-MEN!

 

[Sweet emotion]

People say beauty is on the inside but they say that and then they see me and judge me....It is a lie...society judges me on outward appearance. It doesnt matter what anyone says even people on here who say that I bet if they saw me in the street they would not be kind. It is all fuck. ed....The deepest regret of my life and I have done some dumb stuff this is the ultimate kicker. Plastic surgery ruined my eyes face and life. Omg this doesnt even seem real but it is. I will never be accepted by society again. I am an idiot. Fuck doctors. Im hurting so bad and I AM NOT OK!

Beauty is on the inside. It's also on the outside. And you're right when people say the outside doesn't matter. People who say it doesn't matter are liars because put a picture of Angelina Jolie next to Roseanne Barr and see who people are attracted to. I am so damn sorry that a doctor ruined your face but you have to know that this is not your fault. Please at least know that. I have met a lot of cute guys who are complete assholes. When someone is ugly on the inside you start to find them ugly on the outside. But I've also met guys who weren't 10s and I fell in love with their personalities and I found them very attractive. You can't be just a gorgeous face for me to be attracted to you. I love a man who has talent. Like one that can play the guitar or write. I love a man who can make me laugh and has a great sense of humor and a lot of charisma. I love a guy who can beat the hell out of another guy who disrespects you and can hold you gently in his arms haha. If I had to pick a celebrity I'm attracted to it would be Jason Momoa and he has a giant scar running down the left side of his face. I love that he's an alpha male and is gentle and kind and sweet and has the best attitude towards life. He has a great sense of humor and is ten times more beautiful on the inside than he is on the outside. I also adore Steven Tyler. He's been my crush since I was 8 and I don't meet many people who find him attractive. Especially not people my age. But he's brilliant. He's sweet and funny and talented and has such charm and charisma.

 

[Kingkelly]

Beauty is on the inside. It's also on the outside. And you're right when people say the outside doesn't matter. People who say it doesn't matter are liars because put a picture of Angelina Jolie next to Roseanne Barr and see who people are attracted to. I am so damn sorry that a doctor ruined your face but you have to know that this is not your fault. Please at least know that. It's disgusting that these butchers are allowed to operate on people and screw with their appearance and their self esteem. I can't imagine the situation you're in. My heart breaks for you. That man should be in jail getting a remake on his asshole if you know what I mean.

Beauty is on the inside. It's also on the outside. And you're right when people say the outside doesn't matter. People who say it doesn't matter are liars because put a picture of Angelina Jolie next to Roseanne Barr and see who people are attracted to. I am so damn sorry that a doctor ruined your face but you have to know that this is not your fault. Please at least know that.
Sorry didn't mean to post twice.

I would give anything in the world to have my old face and eyes back omg. It is hell every day surreal like this cant be real. I keep hoping one day Ill wake up and just see my old eyes and face back but no it is the opposite just a scary distorted uneven lopsided sunken eyes mess he created. I cant live like this it is too painful my GOd the pain and humility. Why did i do this to myself i should have listenend but I didnt i am an idiot and this is what i did to myself.

I would give anything in the world to have my old face and eyes back omg. It is hell every day surreal like this cant be real. I keep hoping one day Ill wake up and just see my old eyes and face back but no it is the opposite just a scary distorted uneven lopsided sunken eyes mess he created. I cant live like this it is too painful my GOd the pain and humility. Why did i do this to myself i should have listenend but I didnt i am an idiot and this is what i did to myself.

Im jealous of everyone with their normal eyes and faces taking selfies and not being made fun of or gawked at. This isnt fair this cant be my life now. I dont know what to do. IT is so bad

 

[MaybeMaybeKnot]

How long ago was your surgery? Is there a chance that you're still healing? I'm so sorry you have to endure this. In the US they make you get cleared by a psychologist before you can have back surgery. Should have the same for plastics.

 

[Kingkelly]

I would give anything in the world to have my old face and eyes back omg. It is hell every day surreal like this cant be real. I keep hoping one day Ill wake up and just see my old eyes and face back but no it is the opposite just a scary distorted uneven lopsided sunken eyes mess he created. I cant live like this it is too painful my GOd the pain and humility. Why did i do this to myself i should have listenend but I didnt i am an idiot and this is what i did to myself.

Im jealous of everyone with their normal eyes and faces taking selfies and not being made fun of or gawked at. This isnt fair this cant be my life now. I dont know what to do. IT is so

How long ago was your surgery? Is there a chance that you're still healing? I'm so sorry you have to endure this. In the US they make you get cleared by a psychologist before you can have back surgery. Should have the same for plastics.

Right OMG i wish they required it. Also, it was over a year ago. it looks bad real bad

 

[Dreamwithinadream]

I'm sorry you had botched plastic surgery. Yes society will always judge. There will always be someone out there who will look past your appearance but it won't be easy to find.

 

[Kingkelly]

How long ago was your surgery? Is there a chance that you're still healing? I'm so sorry you have to endure this. In the US they make you get cleared by a psychologist before you can have back surgery. Should have the same for plastics.

I went to a shitty local surgeon should have got second opinions I need therapy not face surgery. Now i am ruined .

A-f*cking-MEN!

Right its a lie. If you look like me people want nothing to do with me. It hurts deep

I went to a shitty local surgeon should have got second opinions I need therapy not face surgery. Now i am ruined .

Right its a lie. If you look like me people want nothing to do with me. It hurts deep

I was beautiful the way i was i had beautiful eyes what the fuck was i thinking ? Now my beauty is long gone. I look scary its unreal

 

[hobbydevil]

I went to a shitty local surgeon should have got second opinions I need therapy not face surgery. Now i am ruined .

Right its a lie. If you look like me people want nothing to do with me. It hurts deep

I was beautiful the way i was i had beautiful eyes what the fuck was i thinking ? Now my beauty is long gone. I look scary its unreal

It's painful to see you in so much distress. I wish there was something anyone could do for you. Do you have a social life? Friends, family, anyone to cheer you up for the time being?

 

[Kingkelly]

I've never judged someone by the way that they looked. There are people who think differently but I understand how you feel. I do. It's painful, you don't want to go outside or have people see you. It's a horrible mess of bad societies, doctors, everything. Nobody can just be nice. If I had it my way, we'd all be happy and have the lives that we wanted. I'm sorry.

YOur one of the few the rare the amazing people in life that dont judge people by their looks. Im sure if youd saw me you would cringe slightly. I cant even look at my reflection it scares me.

 

[ManWithNoName]

People say beauty is on the inside but they say that and then they see me and judge me....It is a lie...society judges me on outward appearance. It doesnt matter what anyone says even people on here who say that I bet if they saw me in the street they would not be kind. It is all fucked....The deepest regret of my life and I have done some dumb stuff this is the ultimate kicker. Plastic surgery ruined my eyes face and life. Omg this doesnt even seem real but it is. I will never be accepted by society again. I am an idiot. Fuck doctors. Im hurting so bad and I AM NOT OK!

I'm also sorry as well to hear of your situation.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

YOur one of the few the rare the amazing people in life that dont judge people by their looks. Im sure if youd saw me you would cringe slightly. I cant even look at my reflection it scares me.

Cringe might not be the right word. I'd feel sad for you and want to help. I can't help myself. I wish I could snap my fingers and reverse it for you.

 

[Kingkelly]

Cringe might not be the right word. I'd feel sad for you and want to help. I can't help myself. I wish I could snap my fingers and reverse it for you.

Thank you me too omg me too. Its amazing what 1.5 hrs in a chair can do to destroy your whole life. This cant be my life i cant live like this.