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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Eating Disordered Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
1,585
Well, here we are again. If you had the good luck to interact with this wonderful human, you'll maybe have an idea of how this one is a bit tough, especially given the time of year, which, I know affects a lot of us in this community. The timed details were given by a trusted third party. Bear has a dear friend here, and I'd be doing Bear a disservice by not mentioning them. @Traveller12724 was an amazing friend to Bear, they talked everyday for five months and I know they are feeling this loss. Please be kind. Bear was a feisty soul but ultimately gentle and they deserve your well wishes. They were also raised with very traditional Indian (as in India, though I shouldn't have to specify) parents and it stuck, in some of their beliefs. If you're familiar, or are on the same path this thread is open for blessings etc


As per usual,

Please remain respectful.
Please do not derail the goodbye thread.
If you have a hot take on what is posted, kindly make another thread,
please leave the username out, so as to not have their goodbye thread associated with potential fear mongers and misinformation.
And finally, please do not try to source anything in this thread, thank you.


Bear was diagnosed with Interstitial cystitis, and they had run through the course of possible medical treatments. Eventually they ventured into the holistic field, they were not met with relief or answers. They saw the quality of life going forward and made the decision that made the most sense. A year and a half of trying, yet there was no real relief in sight.


This user left this plain on Dec 20/21st (stroke of midnight basically)

10:00 800mg Ibuprofen
10:26 Meto 30mg "chalky"
11:17 First SN cup
11:20 "don't feel good" - not panicking
11:25 Low moans and groans, nothing too harsh.
11:26 Breath sounds, user DID NOT throw up.
11:29 No response when called out to, only breath sounds, likely unconscious.
11:33 Definitely unconscious, deep sleep breath type snore noise
11:34 Choppy breath/more snore like sounds, things feel calm.
11:37 Deep sleep like sounds
11:40 Silence



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They fought, hard. Those days where it felt like too much during treatment, this song helped them push through. They were able to laugh about this and other things in those final moments:





Discussion is always welcome, please remain respectful.

much love, SaSu fam

~O
 
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LukaParrot

LukaParrot

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Dec 18, 2024
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Wish peace for your soul.

Hope you had a calm transition from this world.

@opheliaoveragain thanks for making this farewel for him.
 
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maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
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Blessings...🤗🤗🤗🤗🌹💔
 
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APeacefulPlace

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Dec 2, 2024
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Thanks for sharing this goodbye thread OP and glad Bear is no longer suffering and in a state of eternal peace 🕊️
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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I'm so sorry for the loss of a good friend but am glad their suffering is over and they are now at peace. 🕯️ :heart:
 
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Tuonetar_

Tuonetar_

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Sep 18, 2024
97
It's always sad to hear of another member's passing, but I'm glad that their final moments were relatively peaceful. I hope they're finally resting easy now. :heart:
 
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Traveller12724

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May 14, 2024
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Bear was my favorite human being for the last 5 months, we shared moments of laughter, sadness, and pure hopelessness and despair in our chats, I always looked forward to hearing from them when I woke up and I was there every time they got back from yet another failed treatment, and they were there for me through my journey of quitting my job and starting to work on my bucket list. Hell they even helped write the letter to my boss when I had no energy and all I wanted was for everything to stop.

Bear will always hold a special place in my heart, we both knew and talked about what a bad idea it is to get attached to people here on Sasu given that we all tend not to stick around too long but we realized we couldn't help but care deeply about each other and we accepted the heartache that may come out of it, it was a price worth paying we thought and having paid it in full the past week I can confidently tell you that it was worth it and I have no regrets.

To be honest though, I had thought I would be the first to go because we thought Bear would go through treatments for a long while but options run out pretty fast and they found themselves at the end. Before everything went to hell though, me and Bear had celebrated another friend of mine here on SaSu achieving and sustaining recovery and getting off the CTB journey. We were very happy for that user even though we knew we were still both destined for CTB. As I live out my last months and checking things off my bucket list, I take comfort in the fact that Bear was loved dearly in this lifetime and I hoped to god Bear knew it. I hope for nothingness after I ctb but if there is an afterlife, I will look for them for as long as it will take.

Lastly @opheliaoveragain thank you for making a goodbye thread for Bear, you are such an amazing person, I appreciate you for your love for my dear friend Bear.
 
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opheliaoveragain

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Bear was my favorite human being for the last 5 months, we shared moments of laughter, sadness, and pure hopelessness and despair in our chats, I always looked forward to hearing from them when I woke up and I was there every time they got back from yet another failed treatment, and they were there for me through my journey of quitting my job and starting to work on my bucket list. Hell they even helped write the letter to my boss when I had no energy and all I wanted was for everything to stop.

Bear will always hold a special place in my heart, we both knew and talked about what a bad idea it is to get attached to people here on Sasu given that we all tend not to stick around too long but we realized we couldn't help but care deeply about each other and we accepted the heartache that may come out of it, it was a price worth paying we thought and having paid it in full the past week I can confidently tell you that it was worth it and I have no regrets.

To be honest though, I had thought I would be the first to go because we thought Bear would go through treatments for a long while but options run out pretty fast and they found themselves at the end. Before everything went to hell though, me and Bear had celebrated another friend of mine here on SaSu achieving and sustaining recovery and getting off the CTB journey. We were very happy for that user even though we knew we were still both destined for CTB. As I live out my last months and checking things off my bucket list, I take comfort in the fact that Bear was loved dearly in this lifetime and I hoped to god Bear knew it. I hope for nothingness after I ctb but if there is an afterlife, I will look for them for as long as it will take.

Lastly @opheliaoveragain thank you for making a goodbye thread for Bear, you are such an amazing person, I appreciate you for your love for my dear friend Bear.
my heart 💞

thank you so much for sharing what you did. those shared moments and experiences are so special and specific to everyone here.

sending you huge hugs, Trav. you know the rest 🫂🤍
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
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Never gets easier. Even when you don't know the person. That said, I wholeheartedly hope they found the peace and comfort they were seeking. And it was heartwarming to know they didn't have to go alone. @Traveller12724 is a true friend here and I also wish them peace. What they are likely feeling and going through rn is definitely a chaotic mix that definitely cannot be put into words. You're a brave and kind soul. And thank you @opheliaoveragain . You are like a guardian angel in a sense and you deserve the respect you're given. R.I.P @Bear1234. You have found your rest and solace finally....
 
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ningen_shikkaku

ningen_shikkaku

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Dec 12, 2024
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Thank you for documenting this farewell. I hope they're at peace now. Much love to those affected. I did not know them, but it's clear to see that they were a beloved friend.
 
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zekeyaeger

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Mar 30, 2023
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I wish this soul peace and freedom.
 
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CatLvr

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Aug 1, 2024
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I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face. 😭 While I didn't get the honor to know Bear, like as has already been mentioned, he was clearly well-loved.

Of all the things I expected to happen when I signed up for SaSu, finding something even slightly resembling a recovery, getting to know and become emotionally attached to other members here, and actually finding myself trying to help others -- whether that help be finding tiny pleasures, offering encouragement when someone is obviously in a lot of pain, or just "being there" were nowhere on that list.

I am happy Bear is at peace now. And I grieve for each of you who lost a clearly special person in your lives. I don't have any answers for anyone, but I do have empathy. If anyone needs to talk my DMs are open. May we all find that peace one day. 🥰🥰🥰
 
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Peace2peace

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Rip hoping to find my peace soon
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
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At most appreciation to all involved in this. I hope their kind soul has found the longed peace. I hope the other side is much kinder to you Bear.
 
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opheliaoveragain

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At most appreciation to all involved in this. I hope their kind soul has found the longed peace. I hope the other side is much kinder to you Bear.
Thanks Roz ~ I hope you know I appreciate you tons. Love ya, mean it. Xx
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Rest in peace.
 
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nihilistic_dragon

nihilistic_dragon

Dead already. Just need to dispose of my body now.
Aug 6, 2024
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Looks like it was a fairly smooth and a fairly quick bus ride. Rest in peace Bear!
 
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baller

baller

"such is life"
Apr 30, 2024
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rest in peace, im glad their suffering is over 🫶
 
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One of the most peaceful accounts I've read on taking SN. RIP bear.
 
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OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

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Nov 25, 2024
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Thank you for sharing, even though sad, it is really heartwarming to see all the love and support. RIP Bear :heart:
 
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Chinaski

Chinaski

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Sep 1, 2018
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Thank you @opheliaoveragain & @Traveller12724

For being there for @Bear1234 and making this tribute . A little candle burns , I hope it's light may guide his soul to all that good
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No fuck this, stop doing this, it's weird, literally zero need for a death log unless you're a psychosexually flawed fuck up
 
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InversedShadow

InversedShadow

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Dec 28, 2023
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This sounds truly peaceful.. they rest in peace. and their friend truly was a good friend keeping contact until the very end. God Bless.
 
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L'absent

L'absent

À ma manière 🪦
Aug 18, 2024
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Yes he is freed from the hateful existence. A warm hug.♥️🌺✨
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

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i've reported the disrespectful comment upthread in response to one of our awesome mods. please do not engage. report it if you feel like it. thank you.

marring a goodbye thread this way is not a good look. period.
 
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Chinaski

Chinaski

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i've reported the disrespectful comment upthread in response to one of our awesome mods. please do not engage. thank you

"please do not engage" wind your neck in imo
DO NOT ENGAGE I REPEAT, DO. NOT. ENGAGE.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
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i've reported the disrespectful comment upthread in response to one of our awesome mods. please do not engage. report it if you feel like it. thank you.

marring a goodbye thread this way is not a good look. period.
Why is it always you doing these threads? It really does feel like some fucked up death fetish.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
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Too bad this isn't about any of you or how it makes you feel. It's about a person's last wishes. You all need to stop with this disrespecting nasty shit! You got something to say? take it elsewhere, here isn't it.
 
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Chinaski

Chinaski

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Why is it always you doing these threads? It really does feel like some fucked up death fetish.
Now you mentioned this i did a quick search and lo and fucking behold this person is horny for goodbye threads and weird death logs whilst simultaneously trying to police responses, piece of shit with a dark agenda imho, avoid.

Post in thread 'What exactly happens when you try CTB with SN?' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-when-you-try-ctb-with-sn.184054/post-2723603

Post in thread 'What should I expect if I make An sn suicide attempt' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...ake-an-sn-suicide-attempt.186728/post-2749428

Thread 'Maynoname's Official Goodbye Thread/Experience Description (SN, Successful)' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-experience-description-sn-successful.181588/

This is not a complete search, this is the scratching of the surface and I'll find more on you you twisted little shit.
Too bad this isn't about any of you or how it makes you feel. It's about a person's last wishes. You all need to stop with this disrespecting nasty shit! You got something to say? take it elsewhere, here isn't it.
Agree that a person's passing should not be treated as spectacle by assholes, this is the fucking point.
 
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ijustwishtodie

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Oct 29, 2023
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May he rest in peace. He is now free from all of the suffering and harms of life ❤️
 
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Kali_Yuga13

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This is the smoothest SN exit I've read. Only 23 minutes. Bear was fortunate to have supportive people. Thanks for sharing this. RIP Bear.
 
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