Ineedtodie
Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
- Nov 9, 2022
- 401
1. For me family threatning me to encarsoration in a menatl facility if i don't follow my meds as prescribed.their idea is that all my thought wre delusional and I' m a dependant person and quitter.when their best advice is take mwd walk and stay 
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2. Have no plans for tomorrow. No phone calls mostelikely. As there see me as mentally ill and seemingly harrassing them when they are struggling themselves.
3. Lonliness I feel it in my bones. I had coffee with some supposed freinds but they lseem to like to be engaged in what's going around in different topics where i was bit disconnected. Different energies.
3. Family cut me off from financial support.
4. Threatening me to stop any extortion attempsts for money..
5. Cptsd and bdd triggered at some point during the day. No idea how to cope with this exept awreness of how cruel my life is becoming and how hateful people are and of those though pattern and fear triggered.
6. Lost my family trust.
7. ave to stop abusing benzo where i have no other coping option.
Vs
1.Good thing had first session with my therapist.
2. I pick up my schooter tomorrow.
3. Had a nice alcohol drink 18%alcohol mixed zith vodka tasted good but effect was lasting. Gove me a runnay way window from my fears and sorrow.
4. Survived the day neverless despite the shalmful thoughts and billittlement and degrading insinuation and insult.
5. I still have food and shelter and wifi qnd clothing.
6. I' m taking my meds as prescribed except benzo have only 8
left for 10 days.
7. 60 days left primarily to evaluate my progress and stubility.
8. 10 days left until my next
appointment with psycologue.
9. 3 weeks left until appointment with therapist. Too long.
10. How will i cope with tomorrow?
;2. Have no plans for tomorrow. No phone calls mostelikely. As there see me as mentally ill and seemingly harrassing them when they are struggling themselves.
3. Lonliness I feel it in my bones. I had coffee with some supposed freinds but they lseem to like to be engaged in what's going around in different topics where i was bit disconnected. Different energies.
3. Family cut me off from financial support.
4. Threatening me to stop any extortion attempsts for money..
5. Cptsd and bdd triggered at some point during the day. No idea how to cope with this exept awreness of how cruel my life is becoming and how hateful people are and of those though pattern and fear triggered.
6. Lost my family trust.
7. ave to stop abusing benzo where i have no other coping option.
Vs
1.Good thing had first session with my therapist.
2. I pick up my schooter tomorrow.
3. Had a nice alcohol drink 18%alcohol mixed zith vodka tasted good but effect was lasting. Gove me a runnay way window from my fears and sorrow.
4. Survived the day neverless despite the shalmful thoughts and billittlement and degrading insinuation and insult.
5. I still have food and shelter and wifi qnd clothing.
6. I' m taking my meds as prescribed except benzo have only 8
left for 10 days.7. 60 days left primarily to evaluate my progress and stubility.
8. 10 days left until my next
appointment with psycologue.
9. 3 weeks left until appointment with therapist. Too long.
10. How will i cope with tomorrow?
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